Discussion Anyone else self harming because you are bored?

[Blue&Grey]

I've reached a point where even self-harm doesn't bring the relief it used to. I find myself doing it out of boredom more than anything, and it only feels like it 'works' when I'm extremely desperate and have to cut deeper then before. I can't do it the way I used to. I feel numb and empty, and it's like the hope I held onto that one day I'd wake up and change my life, or that I deserved the kind of help or love I need - has faded. It feels like there's no one out there for me anymore in any way. Life, health, career anything. I literally look at photos that I take now of myself that nice sparkle I used tt have in my eyes is actually gone like wtf.

It's been a while since I been on here I hope at least some of us are doing better. ​

 

[Pale_Rider]

It's not boredom for sure. Boredom came later after my thoughts tore me up to the point I began losing tangible things.

As far as help? Pffht

 

[breachswapper]

yeah, definitely. it feels so normal now, similar to eating a snack or something. sometimes i think to myself about what to do next and it's like, i haven't cut yet today, that's something i could do.

 

[powersurge&achilles]

I've reached a point where even self-harm doesn't bring the relief it used to. I find myself doing it out of boredom more than anything, and it only feels like it 'works' when I'm extremely desperate and have to cut deeper then before. I can't do it the way I used to. I feel numb and empty, and it's like the hope I held onto that one day I'd wake up and change my life, or that I deserved the kind of help or love I need - has faded. It feels like there's no one out there for me anymore in any way. Life, health, career anything. I literally look at photos that I take now of myself that nice sparkle I used tt have in my eyes is actually gone like wtf.

It's been a while since I been on here I hope at least some of us are doing better. ​

sorry. It is as much as a physical habit as it is a concept within our heads.