That's interesting.
You mean like this?
What are the downsides of psychedelic drugs?
I'm guessing that going by
this, it depends from person to person? I've seen many people who do DMT being against that combination.
What about
this one?
Have you seen Symmetric Vision?
I can only imagine. Tbh, even if you explained it in a extensive way, I would probably still be unable to tell what they are like.
Sounds nice, I'm jealous. I wish I could go back to a moment in my life where I was still happy and life seemed bright and vivid, like you describe it, even if I don't have many happy memories.
Seems like it, but I'll never get the chance to, so I will have to do with DMT upon death.
I'l think about it.
Do you have a link for this study or something that goes into this? I wouldn't be surprised if it ends up being true.
I can tell that it's addictive. I can also tell that I'll never know how it feels like until I experienced it first hand. But I'm here to die, so I fear that if I try these drugs and get addicted to it, I would distract myself from what I wanted to do in the first place: Ctb.
True. Hope you'll find peace soon as will I eventually.
Thanks, I appreciate it. You too.
I feel like most of the people here have a more open mind. Probably because we're on the edge of ctb after suffering for shit we didn't deserve.
Yes the out of Body experience is exactly like that. They differ slightly each trip is different you can experience vastly different things In one trip.
Childhood memories very vivid as if you were there all over again. OBEs, dissos are hard to describe.
You can see a full vivid silhouettes of yourself, more vivid than that picture. It's quite a nice peaceful feeling. You have no other thought other than seeing and feeling the experience.
Tolerance does build up but takes a while. Then OBE becomes nearly impossible unless you get the DXO metabolite or other disso. For you I'd start with DXM from the drugstore, get the gel caps.
People who say DMT and heroin don't mix don't know what they're talking about and never done heroin or any opioid before. They are the "perfect pair" falsely "woke" and fake hippies think heroine and all opioid are so bad. They're not. Heroin allowed me to step outside and not be shy. To not be autistic. Opiates are artificial endorphins are have the exact same mechanism in the brain, only that heroin Is orders of magnitude more powerful. Feels much like the warm feeling from your first "crush" or girlfriend but for hours straight and feel that way indefinitely as long as you can afford it.
To me LSD and heroin is one of the best feelings I've ever felt. Heroin definitely feels like a hippie drug too, allows you to be yourself without feeling awkward.
Opiates are the most powerful thing that removes any form of socially awkward feelings. Almost supernatural and godly. Unfortunately the physical withdraw if you run out SUCKS!!!
Felt confident like feeling like a terminator with metal for skin and pistons for muscles. In the early days at least.
However psychedelics made me grow my hair out to waist length. I bet LSD is definitely the reason for long hair being associated with hippies and such. Unfortunately all shaved from breaking down mentally. Gender dysphoria is real. I was bigender basically a man and a woman in the same body, especially with having a female looking face and body shape
Another issue I have is I got an tooth abcess and worried ill get too weak and sick to even use the shotgun. Hope not. I'll craw to it if I have to maybe.
My dad especially hates me and literally just bought me a 12 gauge shotgun after fighting violently. I had to buy a taser and bear spray because he is definitely bigger than me but I'd be equally as strong if I took care of myself when I had money stronger actually I can build muscle fast but getting the motivation is hard. When your heart rate is 140 daily when it used to be 50-65 definitely a raging infection have headaches as it's on the upper top side and spreading to my brain.
Think I'll still be strong enough in 2 weeks? I got my benzos on the way I really need cbd and opiates. So if the gun doesn't kill the drugs will.
How painful you think a 12 gauge slug or ak47 to the head will be? With expanding hollow points.
7.62x39 1500ft/lb energy 2500 fps velocity 123 grain projectile. 7.6 millimeter diameter bullet .30 caliber
12 gauge slug, 1500 fps velocity, 2400ft/lb energy .69 caliber 17.5mm diameter
Ak47 is twice the speed but smaller bullet, shotgun is slower but twice as large. Both are loaded with fragmenting ammo that bursts apart into shards of metal.
The shotgun is a much blunter bullet while the AK is higher velocity.
Splitting hairs or not? Anything over with 1000 ftlb energy 120gr should be enough. But I want to go way overkill and burst my brains everywhere across the room. My brains should be on the floor and blood on the ceiling and sprayed on the walls. Most importantly no pain.
But having bacteria in my blood and my jawbone rotting away is unsettling. Perhaps another reason to get it done ASAP. Like no longer than 20 days from now.
Ask yourself what kinda parent hates their own kids? Letting preventable disease go untreated till it escalates into major organ failure.
I guess people are right I will die horrible miserable death if I don't do something quick.
Any tips on how to make sure my dad goes to prison after I'm dead? Send an email to the cops before I ctb and tell the rest of my family and friends? Like how "dad" forced me to do this and refused to get me psychiatric help as well as dental care. He also lies to doctors to get amphetamines, that's also illegal but not provable in court.
I mean maybe I should keep it simple and just kill myself. Cops must be notified 24hrs after I'm dead to avoid
resuscitation.
Either way the father will have to suffer some consequences.
Not getting a disabled person physical and psychiatric help is definitely illegal.
Need tips on how to ensure that piece of trash goes to prison. 10 years at the least.
I mean letting someone go untreated has to be illegal right?
Pray for me that I'll still be strong enough to use the shotgun. If I'm still alive after a well placed .70 caliber slug then I know the devil is real and I'm cursed.
About him not selling his keyboards. He tells me "you can't make someone sell things they don't want to sell"
Perhaps destroy it? Destroy his car too?
he is a bully just cause he is slightly bigger than me. But I can just spray him and taser his ass then put handcuffs on. He doesn't get the fact mentally ill people as well as LGBT people like myself are a protected population. He is committing a felony meaning minimum 10 years in a state prison.
Would you prefer an ak47 or a 12 gauge shotgun for ctb? Hypothetically would you trust a 9mm or .357 magnum for CTB? Would you rather hang or drug yourself up then shoot yourself in the head?
Hope you know what you're getting yourself into especially never tried dmt or any drug before atleast . I could never hang, waiting for death to set in. For me it has to be instant - one moment I'm alive and conscious and then before i know it it's like I never existed. 15 grams of fentanyl and 150mg of bromazolam should work.
if your dead set on hanging then get a sedative of sort. Benzos, opiates, CBD , something
What country are you in?