Anyone else on here 50+ ?

[daley]

I am already closer to 60 than 50. I am terrified of old age, because there is nobody to help me
if I get ill.

I suppose I will check myself into a retirement home somewhere in my late 70's, or sooner
if I have any health issues.

I am not sure how to plan for it. At some point I would need to shop around and compare
prices of various retirement homes. I would probably need to get rid of most of the stuff
I have accumulated over the years.

Otherwise I am just waiting for my demise.

 

[Life interrupted]

I'm 39 and feel like I've lived 80 years. I'm terrified of old age too and wish to die before I reach a point where I'm too weak and dependent to act for myself

 

[BlackCatCrossing]

I'm 55f so I've lived a decent amount of life already and want to die. I'm terrified of what's to come from old age. Anyone feel the same?

I'm 39 and would love to connect with someone older than me such as yourself.
I don't know how though, I'm a new member so they're not letting me DM.

 

[BlackCatCrossing]

I'm 39 and feel like I've lived 80 years. I'm terrified of old age too and wish to die before I reach a point where I'm too weak and dependent to act for myself

I'm also 39!
I would love to connect with you

 

[Throwawaysoul]

47 been on this site since 2018. My time is rapidly approaching

 

[vukmadewave]

53F

Used to think I was over suicidal thoughts, but then I lost everything.

I will have descended into homelessness at some point today and I'm just not built for it.

I'm in Canada, so once that happens there's really no coming back. No resources and everyone assumes people only wind up in such situations courtesy of Crack or whatever.

I'm not into seeing this through to the bitter end.

I don't know where to order SN and won't have an address to receive it anyway, but I can get rope for 10 bucks.

I appreciate this forum. I gather poverty & homelessness are low key acceptable reasons for MAID, but asking for permission at this age just seems wrong.

Sorry if this is more stream of consciousness/brain dump than a proper post.

Anyhow - yeah. I'm checking out at 50+

 

[michaellionel]

I feel the same as you.......

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I'm 70 and in perfect health and look like I'm 55, if you eat right, exercise, keep your weight down you'll be ok

So, why do you want do die? I am 69 and it becomes harder and harder to exercise when all jounts are hurting. When I am dreaming I am still 25, this seems to be the inner picture of myself.

 

[outrider567]

So, why do you want do die? I am 69 and it becomes harder and harder to exercise when all jounts are hurting. When I am dreaming I am still 25, this seems to be the inner picture of myself.

Because my wonderful girlfriend of 35 years died suddenly 1/24/22, and my world crashed

So, why do you want do die? I am 69 and it becomes harder and harder to exercise when all jounts are hurting. When I am dreaming I am still 25, this seems to be the inner picture of myself.

I'm sorry your joints are hurting, I walk 42 minutes 4 times a week, and before that climbed hundreds of steps 5 mornings a week for about 15 years, I have never been in any pain aside from back spasms in 2009(a two day nightmare)

 

[divinemistress36]

I'm 39 and feel like I've lived 80 years. I'm terrified of old age too and wish to die before I reach a point where I'm too weak and dependent to act for myself

I feel this I'm 36 and know old people with way more energy than me

 

[Danby]

54 here, and finding myself having to start over as my marriage of 30 years ends. I am autistic, and suffer from anxiety, stress, and depression. I keep trying to tell myself next year will be better; I'm not sure I believe it. And I'm not sure I can get through this one.

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

50+. I'm not terrified of old age, but what I've lived so far has really broken me.

This is so, so true.

Just turned 50 and feel physically and mentally not in a great place at all. I am so, so heartened and reassured to see so many of us here and that strangely feels very, very comforting even if I still feel terrified. I hope somehow we can create a bigger kind of community for us as I don't see enough outlets of support - there's so much talk about loneliness as we get older, but crochet and these happy go lucky 'older' groups have no appeal to me. I'm not sitting in a corner with Joy Division on repeat but I'm also not feeling the usual 'buy a house and buy yourself crap to distract yourself works'. Even just a chat room where we can support one another because when you're 25 you have a lifetime of difference than us.

The main things are both financial freefall right now for me, let alone climate collapse and dealing with C-PTSD and trauma while living with autism and ADHD. I have never felt this fragile. I'm reframing the 'save for retirement' to 'fuck no will I be able to make it 65 honestly' and it's more - figuring out how to survive while I wrap things up, a weird balance of living and not-living (unliving? pre-unaliving?). Because on some days I have a coffee and feel great; on some days I am scared to be alone and cry myself to sleep out of fear.

 

[sometimesoon]

I'm 55f so I've lived a decent amount of life already and want to die. I'm terrified of what's to come from old age. Anyone feel the same?

I had replied to this once before, but I have kept on thinking about it.

I am over 50 as well and have had a pretty good life. But not it feels that I want to leave when I am still healthy and not some bent-over person pushing a walker

I have always had that thought in my head since I was a teenager, but not it seems I should start acting on it. I have already made plans and just have to carry it out

I have looked the new Swizz organzation that uses the Sarco. I listened to a seminar they had recently, and it sounds like you only need to have a mental health assessment saying you are of sound mind. But its aimed at those people who don't have a terminal illness but still want to end their life

I am looking at, and started an application

I don't think want to go out healthy

 

[uglyugly]

Sorry, I can't remember if I answered or not. Mid 50s here.

 

[chronos-continuum]

I am 48 and I often suspected that there might be similiarities amongst others who felt this way. I feel most for those who have had never ending difficulties. I know they say the idea of rational suicide is problematic but I have resigned myself that this decision might be forced a little quicker upon me than I expect. I also expect that many others who won't be able to afford retirement will consider this as oppose to a significant drop in quality of life or distinct lack of opportunities. I ironically I feel most for my baby boomer parents who work tirelessly on their health and are in complete denial about the next steps required and what waits them in the future in terms of health decline and illness.

 

[TheBroken]

Mid 50's - have some health issues that will shorten my time considerably, but not short enough for me. Couple of mistakes shipwrecked 30+ years of hard career work while old family mistakes have left me alone - there's no recovering or going back. It is what it is. Will not be hanging around much longer.

 

[BlackEyedDog]

I am almost 50, have struggled with depression for the better part of my adult life. I lost close friends, a partner, a career, a chance at a decent life to it. The world worries me, all the inequity, the environment, the injustice, the savagery, the lack of choice constantly being imposed. I have young relatives and worry for their future, what they're inheriting, humanity seemingly hurtling backwards, revolving around exploitation of some form or another. Technology was supposed to make our lives easier, allowing us more time for leisure...

The outside world and the inside one has become hard to endure. Any quality of life going forward will be one of decline and struggle. I am not sure how much longer i will hang on. That said, this thread has been a small comfort.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I'm 56, single woman and facing homelessness. I think financial difficulties are hard enough when you are younger but there is still some hope for change. Hope declines rapidly with age though, until you realise youv'e past it.

 

[skylight7]

I'm 55f so I've lived a decent amount of life already and want to die. I'm terrified of what's to come from old age. Anyone feel the same?

I am as well. I feel the same way. Thanks for posting this. It's good to know I am not alone in feeling this way.

I'm 56, single woman and facing homelessness. I think financial difficulties are hard enough when you are younger but there is still some hope for change. Hope declines rapidly with age though, until you realise youv'e past it.

So true.

 

[Life interrupted]

I'm also 39!
I would love to connect with you

Pm me anytime

 

[DoneWithThisLife]

62f. Not afraid of old age but won't get there anyhow due to chronic COPD. Until 18 months ago I was in an ok place but since my family stole my life savings there's nothing left here for me. Just want the hurt to end asap.

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

I have looked the new Swizz organzation that uses the Sarco. I listened to a seminar they had recently, and it sounds like you only need to have a mental health assessment saying you are of sound mind. But its aimed at those people who don't have a terminal illness but still want to end their life

It made me so happy about a month ago to find the link to the Sarco from this board. It's probably a logistical nightmare to make it happen but I'm very much interested to see how this can happen. It's time, now.

 

[sometimesoon]

It made me so happy about a month ago to find the link to the Sarco from this board. It's probably a logistical nightmare to make it happen but I'm very much interested to see how this can happen. It's time, now.

I went to one of their online seminars. I found them good at general explanation but rambled a bit. It appears as long as you are of sound mind and able to make decisions, are over 50 and can articulate your reasoning which can include being tired of living, you'd qualify

The big stumbling block for many will be to get a mental health assessment if you don't already have one.

I think they are targeting those people who are caught between a system that focuses on the terminally ill or those with chronic pain. If you are clear about your intention and have held that view for a while, you might very much qualify.

They don't charge for the Sarco use, but you do have to pay for the hydrogen, which is very reasonably priced and for disposal of your remains, such as cremation, which is only fair

Look into it - I am considering it though my guess the DIY approach will probably win out.

 

[ame03]

50+. I'm not terrified of old age, but what I've lived so far has really broken me.

I can relate to that. 53f life has broken me over and over. I've seen more death than any one person should ever have to deal with, and started over with nothing more times than I care to count. I'm tired. I have no support system cause there is not one person who gives a shit no matter how much I sacrificed and helped others. None of it mattered.

 

[Ashu]

I'm fifty-four, I relate to what I've read in this thread. I made five attempts between the ages of fourteen and twenty-four, then gave up. I fear death more than I did then, but long for it more than ever. In the end, at this stage of life, I'll probably go by passive suicide, surrendering myself to one of the illnesses that become ever more likely with each passing year.

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

I went to one of their online seminars. I found them good at general explanation but rambled a bit. It appears as long as you are of sound mind and able to make decisions, are over 50 and can articulate your reasoning which can include being tired of living, you'd qualify

The big stumbling block for many will be to get a mental health assessment if you don't already have one.

I think they are targeting those people who are caught between a system that focuses on the terminally ill or those with chronic pain. If you are clear about your intention and have held that view for a while, you might very much qualify.

They don't charge for the Sarco use, but you do have to pay for the hydrogen, which is very reasonably priced and for disposal of your remains, such as cremation, which is only fair

Look into it - I am considering it though my guess the DIY approach will probably win out.

Thank you for this! You're so right - they target us stuck in between and I'm hoping they find a way too keep sustainable. The getting a mental health assessment part is unknown to me - I don't know how you can find a doctor to provide an assessment that you're of a sound mind without them automatically triggering the authorities. I don't think I'll be able to find anyone in the US to help but if it takes me years I'll find one. I'm not staying for a future when I'm already dead inside. I hope one day to see legislation that supports that autistic people can do this, no questions asked.

 

[End_it_all]

I'm 55f so I've lived a decent amount of life already and want to die. I'm terrified of what's to come from old age. Anyone feel the same?

If that's you in the pic you definitely do not look 55

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

If that's you in the pic you definitely do not look 55

Thank you. It is me. I feel it's important to put a face with the person suffering as it makes it more real.

 

[MrOptions]

50 last year. Just waiting for the right time if my life gets any worst. I do have my ctb exit already to go.

 

[IwantHappiness]

Thank you. It is me. I feel it's important to put a face with the person suffering as it makes it more real.

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