Anyone else have no one in their life?

[Meditation guide]

I have bullies. Does that count?

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I have no friends and haven´t had for years which is really hard when you´re an extrovert I also have social anxiety which I know sounds contradictory but I didn´t use to have social anxiety, the only people I see is my close family on birthdays a few times a year and my parents once in a while. I used to have a ton of close friends and social circle as a child and teenager but now I have no one.

Several months back before the police took my firearms license away and my legally owned guns I at least would go shooting at paper targets at the gun club with my brother and father a couple times a month while sometimes talking with other members there now I have nothing, I don´t enjoy video games anymore, I can´t enjoy food because of a throat problem, and can´t workout to feel good because of said throat problem and a back injury in the middle of my spine, movies bores me unless I am drunk.

 

[Wheelz1985]

All you have truly in this god forsaken place..is yourself. To quote slipknot.."people equal shit."

 

[Pho3nix]

I also have almost no one in my life. I spend 99% of my time alone. I have two friends I never see and I have very low contact with my "family" who live abroad.

I overheard two old hags gossiping about me today saying that they never see me with anyone else. Thanks to my vile parents I have a deep mistrust of people and can't connect easily.

Loneliness is a bitter pill to swallow. I feel envious of happy people who have good families and lots of friends around them.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Why did they do that? You came to their attention I guess.

Yes I did so watch out what you write online.

 

[bigdog]

I wish I wouldn't have my family. They are savages

 

[MichaelNomad123]

Yes and no. I have my family. My grandparents are on the way out and there is a long and dark history with my mother. All my friends are gone and my wife, whom was my best friend, has ceased talking to me. So, I am mostly alone. Woop woop

 

[Apathy's Girl]

I live with my husband and have been with him almost 24/7 since March 17th, when my office mandated that everyone worked from home, and I have never felt more alone in my entire life. I talt to and occassionally see my mom but she talks non stop and never really even asks how I'm doing (not like I would tell her the truth).

I've cut off all my other friendships at least two years ago in anticipation of ctb. But I'm still here in my self imposed isolation. oh well.

 

[LastFlowers]

I have a fraction of my mother, but that's it. No other relatives care to know why I suffer or that I do at all. I have no irl friends, I have had to isolate to reduce trauma. I talked to a few people over the phone who were dealing with some of the same things I was for awhile but I haven't been able to manage that recently. I have even neglected to respond to some people in my pms who I really relate to because I find it difficult to have an extended conversation right now. I am nearing the end.

I have friends and family but...I just don't care about them enough. I think some of them might care about me but that doesn't affect me in the slightest. My biology is compelling me to only care about a potential mate which I lack so I'm left caring about no one...

I'm the opposite. As far as other people outside myself go, I've never longed for a "potential mate", I only ever wanted the family I grew up with to care about me as much as I tried to with them, to understand and acknowledge me and my suffering. (And to also be equal to them and have the same privileges, which I do not). Funnily enough, I think part of their reason for tossing me aside may be that they are more like you, they care about a "mate", an ex, a dream of a pair, more than their family of origin. Ofcourse..I still have to be content with myself above all else and that is also out of reach. I feel cheated, in more ways than one. I guess one party will always be lost when the priorities are not mutual and when even peace with the self is unattainable.

 

[CTB-London]

I don't have nobody but my family is small and will get smaller as people die off. My number of friends has declined over the years and is now very low. I'm gay and hate it so I'll never have a partner or my own family. I'm already isolated and set to end up more and more so.

 

[TrailerTrash]

No one ....

 

[NightmareTour]

I have to live with my mum and stepdad right now, but they don't really talk to me unless I need help or my mum wants to complain about something to me. My younger brother occasionally talks to me if he wants something from me (money, cigarettes, a lighter...) Got one friend who I message for a little while every week or two, haven't actually seen him in months.

Basically, people here are all I've got.

 

[WFJ74]

I did have for a long time and I loved it. But I fucked it up and now I have nothing anymore. But I accept it was my own fault I made a bad decision and I'm getting what I deserve now. Its my price to pay and I'll either fully pay it or CTB. I don't know which way it's going to go at this point but CTB seems to be the best answer so that the people I love get something from it as payback for my mistake.

 

[Disappointered]

I guess I'm lucky in that I do have a partner...but she had to move far away due to the outrageous and abusive workplace practices that go on in canada but are masked by fake, easily manipulated laws that help canada brand itself as everything it isn't. But I've always felt isolated and lonely my whole life, even within my family growing up. I had usually found a way to have at least one friend over various periods in my life but the two main ones both revealed themselves over time to be abusive users so eventually i had to kick them out of my life. Sometimes I dream of reconciling with one or both of them because the vacuum it's left is so severe. But the essential is still there in the form of my gf who is the reason I'm still alive.