Venting alone and done

[punyama]

i feel worse than i've ever felt in my life lately. i have nobody and nothing left to live for. for a while i just desperately wanted to talk to someone, anyone, for any kind of human interaction. now i just feel like a husk. I don't want to talk to anyone anymore, nothing can help me, nothing makes me feel any better, i can't even begin doing one of my hobbies that i used to love because i feel nothing but exhaustion and ache. i don't want to eat anymore and eating used to be my coping mechanism. all i want to do is stay in bed and sleep, or just cease to exist. i want that so badly. i don't have the energy left to exist, there's nothing left of me. i feel like i can't even ctb because i lack the willpower to do anything. i'm so tired. i just want it to end.

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

I feel that too, mate. so often. so, so often. just an exhaustion that permeates everything you do, right? It's hard to get past. but you can do it, you can get through it and either ctb or keep trying to lead a happy life. everyone deserves happiness, even if it's often incredibly hard to get to. and remember, you're not alone :). you've got us miserable people here too to lean on. sleep if you can, I often find it helps. If you've got somoene you love, think about them while you go to sleep. it'll pass, my friend. love and peace

 

[slowlybreaking]

i feel like i can't even ctb because i lack the willpower to do anything. i'm so tired. i just want it to end.

god I feel this so much. I attempted yesterday and said "fuck it" and went back to sleep instead. if I had more energy I would've been a goner already. I just want to stop feeling anything altogether but I have to go through so much for that to happen; don't forget about the precautions to not become a vegetable either. it's all too much work.

 

[FF777]

sorry for thinking pragmatically here, but what is causing you to be too tired and exhausted to do any thing?.. do you have physical ailments?.. or could you elaborate about your situation a little more?.. i feel bad for you and wish i could help some how.. i don't want to you feel this way any more.. are there things you could do or change in your life-style that would gradually get you in to better shape or feeling better some how?..

 

[punyama]

sorry for thinking pragmatically here, but what is causing you to be too tired and exhausted to do any thing?

just my mental state rapidly deteriorating; depression. i don't have the motivation to do anything at all.