Yes, my SN from IC is coming next week most likely. It's going to go through customs though and I have no idea if it will pass through? I live in Finland.
I've got other SN coming from inside of Europe, but the source is less trustworthy. That should arrive next week as well I guess.
If I had SN today this would be my last day. I don't know what the fuck I will do between here and then. I guess I will still seek out random shit to do "maybe I will change my mind"... I won't. I don't think I will any way. I've wanted to die from ever since I was around 12, and my life is objectively ruined by my mental illness at this point, and there's literally no reason to think I won't just fuck things up again and again. I don't desire anything in life either, except "food pleasure". So eating like a pig for 50 years is what I could look towards, nothing else. No achievements I seek out.