Venting Anyone else going crazy with the thought that they might live past Christmas?

[whybother2002]

I don't want to be alive in 2026. I just need to die. I really don't want to be alive during Christmas. I'm going insane, I have no methods.

 

[Jadeith]

Wouldn't call it "going crazy" but i do admit that Xmas time is not sth i'm overly thrilled about. I know how will it go and how will it end and i'm not happy about it.
Going crazy takes way too much energy i do not have and even if i did, i'd rather spend it on sth else. I mean, even if i go crazy about it, throw tantrums or sth like that it won't change anything. And i can't go just yet due to some other reasons. Otherwise i'd be already dead, Xmas or not.

 

[NoHorizon]

I'm dreading Christmas. I don't necessarily hate the idea of being alive next year, but I really don't want to deal with the whole festive period. I can't decide whether to ctb ASAP or wait a while at the moment.

 

[woodlandcreature]

This is one of my main motivations to die by the end of the month (hopefully). Very bad time of year for me. Lots of terrible terrible things are associated with Christmas for me.

 

[Mooncry]

Yes. I really, really, really don't want to see 2026. I never wanted to see 2025, but here I am.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I just wish to be free from this dreadful, torturous existence as well, all I want is to never suffer again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from this existence I just always saw as a mistake, I see so much cruelty in how painless, guaranteed ways to permanently cease existing are denied with no more pain and no more suffering, I always find it so painful to be trapped in this existence.

 

[LetMeOut67]

I don't know about anywhere else but in the UK there are Xmas ads on TV from early November and it does my head in.
I dread Xmas as I just get reminded of what a loser I am. This extra dose of torture lasts for weeks and is unavoidable. It's another period of extreme loneliness and pain which I absolutely cannot escape from or avoid no matter what. This world does not forgive those who do not meet the required standards of success , cunning, attractiveness and popularity. It insists on slowly driving you fucking crazy.

Mind you January is a fucking nightmare to get through.

 

[MissAbyss]

Yes, and preferably well before Christmas for practical reasons. Time is ticking…

 

[android]

Yep, fuck 2026 i dont want to see it and i dont give a single shit what happens

 

[beelee]

It's been a hard year- lots of people I know have died. I'm majorly depressed. Not medicated. I think about dying all day every day. I have a few ideas. I can't bear going through the holidays. Idk what else to say.