I'm still in my 20s but my physical health has deteriorated so much I feel like I'm in my 80s. I have constant muscle weakness that sometimes I feel I need a zimmerframe to hold me up when I'm walking... it's ridiculous.
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Do you have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome?
No one should have to feel this way, life is too demanding to be weak this is ridiculous we have to go through this shit. WHY?? I don't want to die but I can't live with my illness anymore.
I don't know I'm yet to be diagnosed with anything. I suspect it's nerve damage because I also suffer from pins and needles, burning prickly sensations, numbness, aches etc.
do you have it?
Yeah I have Chronic Epstein Barr (causes Chronic Fatigue) Lyme, Nerve pain every day. and have always had Depression, being stuck in bed complicates it, don't think I would be depressed anymore if I wasn't sick because I have a great marriage and my husband makes good money. I can't eat carbs without getting partial seizures. Last time I had a sweet potato my brain and chest were squeezing and clamping down for a week. I have to eat a Keto diet which is so boring. My life sucks.
Aw I'm sorry you're suffering from so many things. How did you get the chronic Epstein bar? I hope you don't mind me asking, is it genetic or did it come on gradually? I can relate I also have a Haitus hernia which causes serious digestive issues, even from just drinking water I get so much pain and pressure in my chest and stomach.
Moonicide
ᴘʜᴀꜱᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ
- Nov 19, 2019
- 802
Yes, very much so. I turned 29 in August and I do not want to live to see 30. My body is slowly giving up on me... I don't feel young and full of life. I'm always so tired as I deal with chronic fatigue. I often ache and it leads to pain if I move too much. So much for being at my prime...
Its ok, I think that I got it from my parents (genetic) My parents lived in the Bay area the same time Yuppie Flu (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) broke out, honestly I think the government created it because there was a break out next to a research facility also Lyme broke out near the same time next to a research facility on the East Coast. My immune system is permanently damaged by Lyme so the Epstien Barr gets a hold and makes me super weak and unable to even shower or walk across rooms sometimes. Sorry to hear about your hernia. No one should have to feel pain just from drinking water. Its bullshit.
I've had Chronic Fatigue my whole adult life. I feel your pain. Its impossible to do anything with this disease. I get sore and ache like you do if I do too much. Its constant fatigue and tiredness mixed with pain and soreness. I'm 39. I fought through my 30's like this off and on doing ok and times where I was so sick I couldn't take care of my kids.Last edited:
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I've had CFS for 12 years but I was managing alright. Now I suffer a new illness with severe muscle weakness, depression and many other problems. I just turned 40, feel like I'm 90.Yes. I feel old and older than I am.
It is not a nice feeling.
Especially with another birthday approaching soon.
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Yes, my youth was stolen from me among other things, I feel and look prematurely aged yet I also feel like I am still stuck in childhood...that I am some amalgamation of a child who never got to live and an elderly person who was forced to just watch the world pass by..and nothing in between.
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Yes, I feel a lot older than I am. I am very tired physically and mentally. I think having health problems at a young age has caused me to be like this. The life expectancy is far too long and it is an unpleasant thought that I could potentially have decades left of this. Living really is exhausting.
At least you have less time to suffer on this planet. I envy 90 year olds they know they only have a few years left max.
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I'm late 20s and I feel young/immature/helpless because I have accomplished nothing and have never really been a functioning adult, but then I also feel old because I'm past the point of clinging to any "potential," and I don't enjoy anything. :( I'm washed up and have no reason to be alive, and I feel like it will only get so much worse when health issues inevitably start to happen down the line.
Is this age dysphoria?
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I'm mentally 15. I want my teenager experiences that my traumas and bitchy life didn't allow me to have but I can't enjoy myself because of my body that has been enduring depressive habits for so many years and the people who expect me to behave like the adult I am.
I really admire middle-aged people that does whatever they want because surely they've received 50 thousand comments like "why aren't you getting married?" "Don't you want to have children?" "you're going to die alone" well of course they do, who cares *does a backflip with 4 cats on their back and a belecebub statue in their hand* Such an inspiration.
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I am very immature in many cases, but vegetating in hopelessness and vain, plus my interests make me old. I'm in my 20s now. It's retro music, books, movies and beven politics all around for me, that's how I live.
Recently, I had chinese virus-like symptoms, and modern music playing in the next room almost killed me.
I am also aging faster than usual and I find some older people much more relatable.
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