Venting Anyone else feel worse when they discuss their mood and mental health with people irl?

[motel rooms]

I'd do that instantly. I had some "friends" talking the typical platitudes in the last months and I would just loose it instantly. Funny enough couple of them changed their mind and said they understood life is not for me . Kinda shows they are just hoping to get away with it while not even believing in it themselves.

I think I'd bite their annoying little heads off immediately too. I'm sure it would make me feel pretty good

 

[Pure]

Bro just being on this forum spirals me into a worse place. I try to stay away from here. My goal of this site is to use it as my final journal of sorts. When I'm gone, this account will remain. I'm not here to try to help other people.

If it actively makes you worse, then why have an account? There are other websites to document your life.

I think SS functions as a space for a specific type of person otherwise it's not mentally healthy for people who aren't suicidal and willing to be open to different ideas of death and life

 

[unperson]

I actually look a lot like this, but my neck isn't as nice & thick. Do I scare you or can you tell that my eyes are actually blank with despair?

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It's not easy to know how people feel. Oftentimes people look different from how they feel, but one thing that is often obvious is when someone is just unhappy/discontent. Beyond that it's hard to say if it's anger/sadness/etc. I don't really pay attention too much to peoples faces because it's easier to be avoidant and introverted.

 

[motel rooms]

but one thing that is often obvious is when someone is just unhappy/discontent. Beyond that it's hard to say if it's anger/sadness/etc.

I'm always a little angry no matter what else I'm feeling. I suppose that's why I'm still alive.

 

[SelmaJezkova10]

Indeed, when I told my "friends" about my problems I felt pretty bad, I thought they were getting fed up with me

 

[whatintheworld365]

Just had an appointment with my doctor today and discussed my suicidal thoughts with her (obs not everything like this forum and sn) and afterwards I felt awful. Made me remember my previous therapists in which I felt awful post session. I feel better posting on here than talking to anyone irl lol

Anyone else in the same position?

Always

 

[Pure]

I had another appointment with my doctor since she requested we do weekly meetings until my intake with a social worker in Aug. However, I felt so awful talking and having to censor myself, when the appointment finished and I got to my car, I immediately cancelled the upcoming appointments with her and the social worker.

Therapy never worked for me for God knows why- jk it's because I am incapable of talking to anyone about anything (except for SS of course). Made me feel worse leaving especially having to carry that baggage for another week just for another shitty 50 min appointment that I have to pay for when it could go towards other things I actually enjoy.

 

[stellabelle]

Just had an appointment with my doctor today and discussed my suicidal thoughts with her (obs not everything like this forum and sn) and afterwards I felt awful. Made me remember my previous therapists in which I felt awful post session. I feel better posting on here than talking to anyone irl lol

Anyone else in the same position?

Maybe it's because you're saying it out loud, so it means admitting it, and to admit it makes it real. It makes it worse in a way because you're telling someone truthfully that you feel like leaving your body behind.
I've felt like shit for saying it. And sometimes I have felt better by getting it out there just to finally admit it. That I feel this way.

sometimes it's easier to communicate in writing than it is vocally. Sometimes through art. Sometimes through actions instead of words.

I get it.

 

[nobodyspecial]

I feel immensely worse because everyone around me acts like it's over with a snap of a finger and it's not. I'm just tired and pretty much distanced myself / cutoff communication altogether with people I used to be close with. Including family.

 

[Reap94]

Yep. Especially if I do with it friends. Some are so fucking immature, making jokes about suicide, things like, "I want to unalive myself right now," "Haha not being alive feels pretty good right now." It's not a damn joke. SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!! With others, I don't bother as much anymore. I'm sure some people in my life think I'm magically better because I don't speak about it anymore. Oh well.

People jokes about suicide because it makes them feel vulnerable and people hate feeling that.

Eg most people are weak minded.
It's like my colleague explicitly asked me to not talk about suicide in his presence.
He's afraid that it will get to him and that he also will suicide I guess

 

[Pure]

Yeah I don't talk about my feelings to my friends or family out of respect for their feelings. It's bad vibes to talk about suicide to non profesional Also I don't need anyone saying "oh there she goes wanting to kill herself again"

 

[demuic]

The thing about it being chronic is like so fucked because some people were depressed a couple times and then they got out of it so they think they know all the answers now and if you just listen to them and their impeccable wisdom everything will be fuckin great

I hate people like that. They act like we've gone through the same thing when it couldn't be further from the truth. If we had the same experience then they would know useless platitudes and advice like that won't help shit. They're usually condescending too, and act like its your fault for not bootstrapping yourself into gaining the will to live and look down on you for not being a delusional optimist.

 

[sklvlp999]

People will never really understand