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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,278
It's unbearable. I don't know how to relax.
 
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AliceinNeverland

AliceinNeverland

Soon to jump off this sinking ship...
Dec 14, 2023
50
Me too. I feel perpetually restless, as though there are things that need to be done that I'm not doing. I can barely calmly watch a tv or show because there's always a hint of underlying paranoia. I want to be able to relax, to be carefree, but my mind has become a hellscape.
 
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MindFog

MindFog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
733
Tell me about it. It's like I don't fit my own body at times it's almost like body dismorphia.
 
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ADeadBunny

ADeadBunny

🪦 July 20th, 2003 - January 8th, 2024
Nov 19, 2023
131
Peronally, the only times I've ever felt "comfortable" is when I'm so messed up I can barely keep my eyes open. Any other time I can't even exist in peace. I'm always worried about something. Maybe in 2024 I'll stop worrying.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,599
Yes, simply just existing is tiresome to me. I really wish I was never burdened with the ability to exist in the first place, being conscious and aware just leads to suffering. I only wish for the peace of eternal sleep where all is forgotten about, only non-existence is desirable.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,246
Yes, worried and weird is my normal.
 
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AInilam

AInilam

Student
Dec 17, 2023
172
I used to but not anymore. It's ironic that ctb has given me the peace and mental clarity I needed in order to breathe and enjoy life again.
 
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LifeQuitter

Experienced
Jul 11, 2024
263
All the time.
 
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DanielDanDean

DanielDanDean

Member
Jul 18, 2024
40
Nearly all the time, except for some rare minutes where I'm joking (generally remixing shitpost from 2010's internet, or being absurd)
It's not because I'm with people because when I'm alone I'm unconfortable too, but when I'm alone I can make myself busy with whatever I can find on the internet or by driving.
Except now I can't be alone and it sucks
 
elvvsie

elvvsie

23F
Jul 18, 2024
13
Constantly. Even when I'm alone, I'm hyper aware of my appearance, my heartbeat. Can't even catch a break in my sleep i stg
 
BlendedHeart

BlendedHeart

It is what it is
Mar 9, 2024
233
From the moment I wake up. Many people has told me I look tense. Same thing when I get a medical checkup. "You need to relax". No, I need to leave.
 

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