Anyone else feel they kinda deserve to die?

[Ambivalent1]

Well, I try to think about it this way: what would I do if I found someone exactly like me? That's easy. They would disappear really quickly. I would still be a little emotionally and ethically conflicted, but thats that.

Quite frankly, most of the people I've seen here would get a big hug (and maybe a gentle, loving slap on the back of the head), but I wouldn't disappear them. Me? Done.

I don't think that's a good experiment. Your perception of self doesn't determine that of others. I may not like me but I've met people who do.

 

[justwannadip]

Yup, it also makes me sabotage everything in my life. I don't feel I deserve anything good

 

[dimgobaith]

I think I deserve to. The mistakes I've made and the effect they'll have on others mean I should

 

[kunikuzushi]

I don't really know what it means to deserve to die because death can be a good thing. But I know the world would be better off without me because everyone who gets close to me leaves worse off than before they met me

 

[delusional-reality]

I just don't care, because i don't have anything to live for, and life is absurd and meaningless anyway. I bought SN, and i want to CTB next week. I just want to have a great time this week, and i plan to drink lots of alcohol and get hammered, before i leave this world. I don't have any regrets, and i actually look forward to die. I'm not attached to this world in any way. Also the third world war seems to happen in a short time, so that's another reason to kill myself.

 

[F@#$]

Yes

 

[Nothing87]

Yes, considering all the stupid and worst things I've done in the past.

 

[Cress]

I don't think what I'm about to say is so bad I should die but it's not good either. I never had a friend until I was well into elementary. I was never around other kids as a small child and never learned to socialize. So I grew up being selfish with people. Well, as you can imagine that doesn't work so well as an adult. Adults don't tolerate that so you're left alone without a tribe. When I say "deserve to die" I mean that biologically. I failed to be a cooperative member of our species. I chose to isolate as a result of trauma and often hate others and don't trust them. But you can't function well without help in this world.

Some people are legitimately just lone wolfs. It's not necessarily a bad thing. In ancient times they would have just been the guy that has a shack on the edge of town and occasionally comes in once a month to trade. Before the Internet it would have just been a guy that reads books and stays inside and maybe he does a little bit of writing. Nowadays someone can quite easily separate themselves from society with the Internet and the moderate conveniences of life. The only question is if you can emotionally handle it.
I think it's just important to figure out how much human interaction you realistically want and trying to target that outcome. Do you actually wanna talk to people every hour of every day? Do you wanna talk to people every two days? These are important questions ask yourself