Anyone else feel suicidal down to relationships?

[Sigh_Sigh_Sigh]

I'm in my early 20's, I've been single over a couple years now and I just feel like I'm missing a unknown part of myself since catching my ex cheating, it shattered my heart.

So I've tried dating apps, I'm far from the worst looking person. I've plenty of pals, a good job (people here probably hate my job compared to the general public, but no hard feelings) and on apps I'll easily get 200+ matches a month and I'll talk away at them and I might then if I'm really lucky that month get 1 date or hookup which feels awesome for a day but it never seems to go into anything further and then I'm back to the apps feeling low and suicidal again endlessly messaging but just feels like a crappy circle.

I think I need some way of suppressing my sexual desire in all honesty as it feels unmanageable, but how?

 

[SSGoingInsane]

idk dude, i think there is little to no way of suppressing it. I'm feeling extra suicidal for the last week cuz basically for the same reason that u are. The only difference is that you at least got some... i don't even know what it feels like..
Anyway the only thing that worked for me is getting extremely busy so i cant even think about it. I started going to the gym, learning chess and the german language, while also going to school and box at the same time, and riding bikes in between all of that. I basically have 0 free time. Thats the only way to not cbt
sorry for the rant

 

[jamie_]

si senor

 

[LittleJem]

I felt suicidal for ages before, but extra sad because the dude I was seeing broke it off. I liked him. I'm realising I can't even have a relationship with a crack head. There are no redeeming features and no comfort in my life. He was one of the first boyfriends I had who actually noticed me. He is funny. I thought we got on and had chemistry but…he didn't even like me enough to work with any issues. I liked having someone to hold and to cook with. I am probably alone 80 per cent of the time.

 

[CandyK__]

Generally dating apps are better for quick feelings, especially if you're good looking people will tend to want to use you without developing anything more serious.

I'd recommend cutting simple online solutions (dating apps) for sexual desires, and try to find people not for nights, but for days. Look for people similar to you. Some relations can burn quickly, so it might be better for you to prolong individual stages of relationships, so that they don't end up being just a quick thing, but have a chance to develop into something long-term.

From experience, if you're good looking avoid people who pay a lot of attention to looks, search for those who value what's underneath.