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IdentityDoe

IdentityDoe

What is freedom when demanded of you by a god?
Jan 14, 2026
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There are two states of life where you have to be taken care of by someone else. As a child and as an old person. There will eventually reach a point where maybe I can't take care of myself and have to have someone feed me, take me to the bathroom, and shower me every single day. And personally I can't really stand the idea of that. There's nothing inherently wrong with getting help but you just feel so helpless... As a kid at least you don't have the self conscious to care about that but once you get that awareness it just feels like hell.
 
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FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,574
I sincerely hope my SN will save me from this, if I make it so far.
 
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Misanthrope0000

Misanthrope
Sep 8, 2024
101
Growing old is one of my biggest fears, especially after seeing the condition that my aunt's husband lives in
 
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cursedlife

Student
Jun 28, 2024
125
I wouldn't have been scared if I had money, but I'm poor and can't work because of mental illness , to reach old age seems like torture to me , hopefully I'll be dead soon because my life is unlivable
 
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elenaboo25

Student
Oct 19, 2025
110
Yes, I fear growing old and having more physical problems. I already have a few physical conditions that usually only older people have, although they are not as bad as to be life-limiting or disruptive, just annoying. I do not want to wait around and see exactly how and when things get worse.
 
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Lemonite

Member
Jan 13, 2026
11
Yes, it is great fear of mine, but also dementia is bigger one
 
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inkmage333

inkmage333

please just free me and let me die
Feb 18, 2025
94
Yeah. Once you get older, people are less likely to take care of you because they'll believe you'll be more independent. Except for when you get old, where you'll have to be taken care of...thing is, I don't really have any younger relatives right now, so I highly doubt I'll be taken care of properly when I'm old.

Also, I like the way I look now. I don't really want to lose my appearances to old age. I'd rather die young, so I'd look young forever...I'm told I look like a teenager despite being legally an adult.
 
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Nighthawk

Member
Jan 13, 2026
5
If I ever get to a point where I'm old and sick and can't take care of myself anymore, I honestly don't think I'd want to go on. Hopefully, euthanasia will be legal by then.
 
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metfan647

Student
Jun 12, 2025
127
From a poor pain threshold perspective, I'd have to confess the idea of growing old fills me with zero joy.

Becoming a less viril and weaker man doesn't bother me from a vanity perspective but feeling more vulnerable in an ever increasingly violent world, scares me.
 
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