Yes I destroyed my face and life with plastic surgery i didn't need. Now i hide in my home. Its very bad i hide in my home. I want to die i wish i never stepped into that office. I fuckingcant believe it still it feels surreal. I was so pretty I ruined my life. Why why why didnt i listen
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GreenDagny
Member
- Oct 9, 2019
- 49
Yes. Being an ugly woman is torture on this planet. And I realize it is difficult for men as well, but until you are an ugly woman you have no idea.
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Enlightened
- Sep 14, 2019
- 1,325
Why should she get plastic surgery for other people?
Plastic surgery will not fix you if you feel like you're ugly inside and don't deal with it. So many people get plastic surgery and are never satisfied and still think they're ugly. It's not a solution for depression.
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I was extremely beautiful but I never saw it. Looking back I see that now that I feel my beauty is gone. I didn't get to enjoy it much. Sometimes I would see it and I would ride on that high. I didnt work on my self inside. I completely sabotaged my looks because of my mental health. Now I'm 26 and feel like the most disgusting creature on earth. Everyday I get uglier from the stress. All the staying up late, thinking and smoking caught up to me. It wouldn't have if I didnt fall apart again this year. Looking at old photos of me, even ones from earlier on in this year kills me inside. I remember I felt beautiful even though I was going through so much. I couldnt believe I was still in tack after everything, until I went insane and became the most wretched I could ever be cause of self neglect and loathing. I could of been anything I wanted, a model, actress, and I almost became social media famous but I didnt believe in myself. I would do anything to trade with someone who is a good person inside, cause I'm not that either. My outer appearace helped me mask the horrible things I did. I was in the most incredible relationship, he was my best friend, until I pushed him away. he loved me for what was inside too, unlike anyone else. I knew him for over a decade. I had what everyone dreamed of relationship wise. thinking of the past, most men were into me because of my looks first and foremost. I put a lot of energy into my looks (because I thought I was ugly and it was also the main way I'd express myself) and now that I am ugly, I realize I'm not much. I never let myself become much. No matter what has happened to you and no matter what you look like I can just tell that you are beautiful and a good person regardless what you think. And beauty is in the eye of the beholder, it's subjective. Most people considered conventionally (or even unconventionally) good looking have invested a ton of time, energy and money on their looks. tweeking this and that over time to try to become the most attractive version of themselves. We're a bunch of cells, our looks change. I feel like society and the universe is getting sick of vanity. With social media and instagram, which hasnt been around that long, we will get sick of the importance of outward appearences realizing how vapid it is. It's what you do that counts. integrity, morality and authenticity matter more than beauty. I have hope you'll find who you're looking for. and if you don't at least you won't deal with heartbreak of losing love. Some people say it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.. I disagree, from personal experience. Instead of being in love or looking for love or for others to see me as beautiful I wish I had worked on my life and self. Focus on yourself and your life and love will come naturally. Love is just one aspect of life as much as it's drilled in our heads from stupid movies and songs that it's all that matters. Romantic love is just one form of love. Be in love with yourself and things you do. And as someone who ended up friendless. I would much rather had a few good friends to love than put my energy into a relationship and lose the bond completely when we break up being left with nothing. I wish I put my energy into creativity, work, myself, spending time with friends and family instead. Once I was at a guy's house I was dating and on his banjo he had a sticker that was also a mirror that said "warning, images in this mirror may be distorted by socially constucted ideas of beauty" Body dysmorphia was one of the main factors in destroying my life and youth. My percieved ugliness and my now actual ugliness definitely contributes to me wanting to ctb.
noonetoo
Specialist
- Mar 7, 2019
- 386
I don't think it's any better being good looking. I was ugly in high school, now I don't feel so bad about myself but it doesn't make people care for you or love you more. Beauty doesn't matter. Nowadays people care if your personality works with them. And well mines is shit, literal shit. I haven't gained much in life putting effort on my exterior.
LastFlowers
the haru that can read
- Apr 27, 2019
- 2,170
Well plastic surgery honestly makes a lot of people physically uglier, and it goes wrong/weird often so that can also be part of the problem. It is not perfected, the patients have no rights, the surgeons are sorry excuses for human beings and medical professionals. But when it does go right, it can change someone's life for the better. And no one should be barred from that opportunity. Although the ptsd from the experience of being unattractive may still prove to be too much for them to bear. They've seen the world from this awful but eye-opening view point, they've seen people's true colors, and now they cannot unsee it.
Because the other thing is, when you are ugly, you experience life in a completely different way. You can't understand until you have lived it. It can make someone appear ugly on the inside to others, because the damage, pain, and suffering from being physically ugly traumatized the person and changed them to such a degree, of no fault of their own.
Changing their looks to match who they were and who they wanted to be, may revive that inner person. Even if they will always carry the burden of the past.
If the physical issues were the cause of the inner turmoil, the inner turmoil cannot be dealt with until the cause is annihilated. It would be like treating bee stings while your head is still stuck in a bee hive.
If the depression is situational or it stems from being uncomfortable with one's physical self, then addressing that with plastic surgery or anything similar would be necessary.
If it stems from something else, and seeing one's self as ugly is a symptom but not a cause, then well done plastic surgery or looks based changes will not help, at least not enough.
It depends on what is the cause and what is effect.
And the only person who has the right to judge that is the individual themselves. They are the only ones who have to live in their skin.
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Enlightened
- Sep 14, 2019
- 1,325
Oh I agree that there is absolutely nothing wrong with plastic surgery. Nothing at all. If someone has a deformity or doesn't like something about themselves it can change their lives in an amazingly positive way. I just think telling someone who thinks that they're ugly to get plastic surgery to prove something to someone else is ridiculous. And some people who aren't mentally stable will never be satisfied with what they get. And there are many plastic surgeons that will notice that about a patient first and foremost and refuse to perform surgery on them. I'm just saying don't encourage someone to get plastic surgery to prove a point to someone else.
Being really ugly, with facial asymeria, deformation can be really off putings,
Sorry to say, but with this actual age of ultra sexualized society and with the instinctual response you feel when looking at something ugly, it is total deal-breaker.
And plastic surgery is way out of reach from average working people.
Then there are some people who use wigs,make up artist collor, lenses and effective use, who manage, with dieting and fitness to build their charisma.
Sorry to say, but with this actual age of ultra sexualized society and with the instinctual response you feel when looking at something ugly, it is total deal-breaker.
And plastic surgery is way out of reach from average working people.
Then there are some people who use wigs,make up artist collor, lenses and effective use, who manage, with dieting and fitness to build their charisma.
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Plastic surgery destroyed my eyes face and life
Among several plastic surgeon there's a lot of money hungry crook who don't care about patient well-being.... The best plastic surgeon I noticed recently was in South Korean with great result, but the average affordable Joe surgeon are to never being trusted.
Have you tried to see with another surgeons if you can get their terrible job outdone?
Can you tell me what happened if you please
I am botched too, not hideous but my forehead has a bump and asymmetrical now. I think it is not swelling but bone:(
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Supersadmommy90
Student
- Sep 24, 2019
- 186
Absolutely, yes. At my peak I was a solid 7 and now I'm a 4 or 5, really nothing at all to look at. It sucks because I'm forever alone.
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,621
Plastic surgery ruined my life too and I never even had it. Just hiding in my house hoping, preying someone else would sort it out. I somehow let six years pass without noticing they weren't even trying. Regretted it ever since. If only I'd had a smartphone. Or maybe not.
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
sad to hear this stuff from yall but I understand. your self image can really determine how depressed you are.
LastFlowers
the haru that can read
- Apr 27, 2019
- 2,170
What do you mean it ruined your life but you never even had it? Sorry, I'm curious as to what you mean..
What did you want someone else to sort out? Getting you the surgeries?
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,621
LastFlowers
the haru that can read
- Apr 27, 2019
- 2,170
Sorry..what question were you saying yes to? You wanted other people to sort out your plastic surgery for you? Like your parents or something?
I am still confused.
I wasn't saying it was pathetic, I was just genuinely wondering what you meant.
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,621
LastFlowers
the haru that can read
- Apr 27, 2019
- 2,170
Did you ask them though? Or did you just expect them to see that you needed it and sort it out?
Do you think about still getting it done?
I understand to some degree.
My parents had the ability to help my looks very early on as a child when my face could be coaxed with certain devices to grow properly and bad habits could have been annihilated.
Unfortunately they did not do that, even though it was obvious I was having problems and did not look like my brothers, cousins, or other children. I wasn't deformed or anything but my face was concerning in certain areas. When I look back, it looks like I have some type of syndrome being manifested physically. It is hard to look at and know that that child no longer exists and I cannot help them.
Whether it is irrational or not, I am angry at them for giving birth to me and then subsequently having two handsome boys right afterward, whose very existence tortures me to this day, as I have to be the ugly sibling.
I also feel they failed me, in that even though they couldn't control what I was going to look like upon being born, they could have put things into place that would have set me up to succeed with my looks-and thus life- instead of fail. They made a decision that made my situation worse later on, and after that they allowed another decision of my own (as a teenager) to come into fruition, which also ended badly. No research by them either time, no second opinions.
Then I had some bouts of bad luck on top of that and stress, lack of sleep, and crying to death every day does a number on you.
But they are where the problem began, and they had the power to change things properly when I was an innocent child.
Now all those doors they could have opened, have been shut on my face forever.
It is the fault of doctors and professionals as well who did not inform them, but at the end of the day, I didn't ask to be born.
My dad has spoken many times about how he hates his looks, so I don't understand why he had children with the possibility of one looking like him. And of course that ends up being me, his daughter.
I got both of my parents bad features and none of their good ones. As well as issues with breathing and my face and jaws growing properly.
It's a horrible existence honestly, with plenty of blame to go around.
Nem
Drs suck mega ass!
- Sep 3, 2018
- 1,489
The world is an ugly place, that's enough to commit suicide in my books
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Dont cut your face you'll regret it
Your fine the way you are. Omg how u wished i listened to people when they told me don't do it. Now I'm hideous my identity is gone by gorgeous eyes destroyed. Ready to die
Relief
Member
- Oct 14, 2019
- 41
most people consider me an average/above average looking girl and i am pretty good in social interactions, but in my mind i'm the ugliest person you'll ever meet... body dysmorphia is a bitch
Can'tStandAnymore
Custom title
- Mar 16, 2019
- 234
The people with good looking but who have some sort of body dysmorphia, I don't think your posts make any sense. We are talking about different problems here. One is psychological and the other one is physical. I think it's antipathic what you are doing.
Not that I want to be aggressive, but some people may take offense from these type of posts.
Not that I want to be aggressive, but some people may take offense from these type of posts.
LastFlowers
the haru that can read
- Apr 27, 2019
- 2,170
Yea I was a bit confused as to why people who know deep down that they are overall good looking are responding.
I'd rather hear from people who are at least relatively certain they are not attractive. And have lived the experiences of an ugly person.
I mean the question is literally asking if anyone is ending their life because they are ugly, not because they feel ugly somtimes or have imperfections on an otherwise attractive face.
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suffering
Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
- Aug 17, 2018
- 398
I resonate with so many answers here. My looks highly reflect how I feel. Back when I used to feel joyful and confident I looked good. But once one understands better this world, to be joyful means to be delusional and to be confident means to be ignorant of all the ways in which random events can mess up you. I lost the main ingredients that made me look good.
Now I look exhausted, depressed, awful, bitter. There is also the age factor making things worse.
Now I look exhausted, depressed, awful, bitter. There is also the age factor making things worse.
