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Deardaddy

Deardaddy

Student
May 20, 2019
172
Show us a pic of you . Mirror mirror on the wall who is the fairest of us all.
 
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Alan James

Arcanist
Apr 11, 2019
408
No one can choose his own body, skin color and gender at birth. I could never understand how it is possible to be pleased that you did not choose? I did not choose this degenerate diseased body, i hate this piece of shit. How can someone come to terms with the fact that he gets the wrong body in which he would like to live all life and suffer, as if by chance in a lottery, depending on the genes? How should we live if we lost in the genetic lottery? Society is obliged to ensure that only people with good genes are born - this is REQUIRED for the survival of humanity as a species. But instead, they want to get money from everyone - even genetically disabled people and ill from birth. This is not only disgusting and unfair - it will someday lead to the degradation and degeneration of humanity.

Now I hate the human body as such (any body) - I always had a sick super-idea to live in an artificial cybernetic body or in a virtual simulation. I have extremely strong body dysmorphic disorder which took such strange forms.
 
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Alan James

Arcanist
Apr 11, 2019
408
Fuck this shitty human body. You don't even have to worry about your ugliness because it's not your fault. We are trash and material for cruel nature - well, so fuck her. If I was born in the future and was rich - I would replace everything that is possible with cybernetic prostheses and augmentations. Organic is a dead end, no one can kill progress.




 
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throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,446
being ugly has destroyed my life....
 
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Conflicted Cat

Conflicted Cat

Experienced
May 23, 2019
256
I used to hate the way I looked. That stupid ugly face... But then as I grew up, I started to grow facial hair. This lovely beard and stache started to grow, connected to sideburns. Now I have no issues with how I look. My facial hair is the best thing that ever happened to my appearance. Fuck, I don't mean to brag, but I just love my beard so much. I catch myself stroking it all the time. (I might have a little obsession with it...) People tell me to shave it off. Absolutely fucking not. I'd go right back to looking ugly again.

But yeah, I hate how people are judged for their looks... Doesn't matter how much of a kind heart you have, if you just so happen to be one of the unlucky ones that doesn't get good looks, well... Yeah, you get treated like garbage. Which absolutely sucks.
 
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Imgonnahangmyself

Student
May 25, 2019
150
I'm not physically attractive
And I don't have an attractive personality.
I'm ugly inside and out
No girl will ever love me
No girl will ever want to be with me
All I want in life is love but I'll never have it
That's why I'm dying
 
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not_a_robot

not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
May 30, 2019
2,121
No. I want to suicide because other people are so fucking ugly, and I don't mean on the outside.
I'm not physically attractive
And I don't have an attractive personality.
I'm ugly inside and out
No girl will ever love me
No girl will ever want to be with me
All I want in life is love but I'll never have it
That's why I'm dying
Do people who have "love" really ever seem happy to you? really?
Their lives look miserable to me.
Love is just constantly doing shit you don't want to do, so people won't shriek at you. Being alone is a breeze.
 
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exhaustion

exhaustion

Member
Mar 22, 2019
14
was disgustingly ugly, got plastic surgery and now i look even worse
 
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not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
May 30, 2019
2,121
I used to hate the way I looked. That stupid ugly face... But then as I grew up, I started to grow facial hair. This lovely beard and stache started to grow, connected to sideburns. Now I have no issues with how I look. My facial hair is the best thing that ever happened to my appearance. Fuck, I don't mean to brag, but I just love my beard so much. I catch myself stroking it all the time. (I might have a little obsession with it...) People tell me to shave it off. Absolutely fucking not. I'd go right back to looking ugly again.

But yeah, I hate how people are judged for their looks... Doesn't matter how much of a kind heart you have, if you just so happen to be one of the unlucky ones that doesn't get good looks, well... Yeah, you get treated like garbage. Which absolutely sucks.
I think I might be in love with your beard too
 
Extremly kind <3

Extremly kind <3

Student
Jun 8, 2019
192
Dear all I dont think it is a valid reason to commit sucide because u r ugly; u have nothing to do with that; U've been born like that; however if u cant stand the suffering it is your choice to if u wud like to end it and be in peace, may God bless u all.
 
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medicinenightmares

medicinenightmares

Member
Jun 11, 2019
65
Definitely. It's one of my reasons. I hate my body so much, I just don't want to look at it anymore or have anyone look at me anymore
 
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Imgonnahangmyself

Student
May 25, 2019
150
No. I want to suicide because other people are so fucking ugly, and I don't mean on the outside.

Do people who have "love" really ever seem happy to you? really?
Their lives look miserable to me.
Love is just constantly doing shit you don't want to do, so people won't shriek at you. Being alone is a breeze.
No I disagree. All I want in life is love
 
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Jynxer

Jynxer

Member
Jun 3, 2019
64
I've been ostracized my entire life. There's no point in living if you are an ugly ethnic girl. I'm harassed everywhere I go, no matter how nice or accommodating I tried to be.
I'm sorry you have been treated in such ways.
I happen to think ethnic girls/ women are beautiful and original.
This is coming from an ugly white girl.
 
LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
was disgustingly ugly, got plastic surgery and now i look even worse
I won't get too specific but that happened to me too.
I was a teenager and so distraught over my looks (also teased) that I had to figure out a way to improve them as much as possible. I only knew of one surgery back then that changed people's looks dramatically.
Unfortunately this was not the surgery I needed. And not only was it a piss poor decision, but the surgeon totally screwed up either way. My parents did not research with me and only wanted me to shut up about my looks.

That feature was actually one of my few good features. I just did not know it because I was young and dumb and desperate. I didn't yet have the eyes to properly assess my face and why it looked so different from everyone else's.
Now it's ruined, as well as the surrounding area. When you get one thing done and it goes wrong, it doesn't necessarily effect just that solitary thing, it can affect the appearance and function of the immediate surrounding area. Bones were broken, muscles were cut.
Disaster.

My original problem with my appearance still stands (which was also compacted by improper methods, but those I had no say in) as well as having destroyed a good thing with surgery. Since that happened, another fluke incident occurred which destroyed any small semblance of pleasantness about my face that was left.
It is beyond devasting, it is dehumanizing.

I'm too far gone now. I've lost trust in surgeons and doctors.
Which would be my only means to revise, reconstruct and fix my issues.
I'm very tired, have lost too much time and too much of myself to risk losing anymore for near-impossible odds of remedying my face.
I've got body issues too that are not due to weight so those are also out of my control. But it's the face stuff that kills me.
I wish I could wake up with it all magically taken care of or could at least go back in time and only focus on the actual problem..before it became a domino effect.
Dear all I dont think it is a valid reason to commit sucide because u r ugly; u have nothing to do with that; U've been born like that; however if u cant stand the suffering it is your choice to if u wud like to end it and be in peace, may God bless u all.
I think it is a VERY valid reason, and precisely because most of us had nothing to do with it. (Or were pressured into doing something by society that left us worse off.)
To have no control over what makes your life miserable is the same as being trapped and constantly suffocated. What kind of life is that?

Besides, there's plenty of other reasons to commit suicide that include being "born like that" and "having nothing to do with it." So that reasoning invalidates more pain & suffering than just being ugly.
Furthermore, even if I had nothing to do with being ugly, being ugly has had everything to do with being me.
 
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Imgonnahangmyself

Student
May 25, 2019
150
Even if I got a nose job and all the plastic surgery I need to be good looking. I still have a small penis. You can't fix that. No girl will ever love me. So I'm gonna ctb. I am.
 
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throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,446
I am ugly and mentally ill. Because of that I've always been the outcast. And because of that I've been rejected by the love of my life. It's been years since I last saw her and I still can't forget her.
Being so ugly has made me realize how my life was doomed to fail from the beginning. Yes, people are superficial. Looks do matter.

It's not even ugly, I'm disgustingly ugly like most of the peope here. I'd be content with an average healthy body but I've got dozens of problems plaging me every single day.
 
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Pistolero114

Pistolero114

Veteran
Jun 25, 2019
261
Ugly how? There's all levels of ugly.
 
HGL91

HGL91

Warlock
Jul 2, 2019
720
but how can you be happy in a relationship with someone who's only with you because you're pretty and not because of the person you are on the inside? that's not true love.

Yeah. That'd give me anxiety. What if you have a life experience that messes with your appearance? Then they'd leave you. Or if you get old and they exchange you for a younger model.
 
omoidarui

omoidarui

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
Apr 30, 2019
995
Yeah. That'd give me anxiety. What if you have a life experience that messes with your appearance? Then they'd leave you.

agreed.

also this is the first topic i posted on #nostalgia
 
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lookin4areason

Member
Jan 16, 2019
29
LOL! this actually made me laugh. not at you though, but just because it does actually resonate with me and never thought i'd see such a post. not that it's THE reason, but is definitely part of it as it's certainly done nothing for my confidence and self worth. you what's really funny though? i'm 40 and not only have i never been kissed, but never EVER so much as had a date. so what the fuck does that tell you? enough said. :( :( no man could want me.
 
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liverpoolfan

liverpoolfan

Student
Jun 10, 2019
189
Ugliness can be a curse but so can beauty. If your life and persona and social value is predicated on your sexual attractiveness it can be devastating when your good looks start to fade.
 
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Libracusp_1022

Member
Jul 29, 2019
46
Attractiveness is completely subjective. The ideal standards are bad enough, but bullying I think does more damage than anything. It can ruin how a person sees him/her self forever. I've seen so many stories of truly adorable children being bullied literally to death because of the self hatred bullying caused. And I've watched videos online of all kinds of unlikely couples showing people you would never think could be seen as attractive finding partners who love them deeply.
It seems to me that a person's personal history, and family are what contribute to finding someone attractive. Maybe they had a sibling who was physically impaired, or something, so they're more open. The world is a very big place, there are all kinds of different preferences.
 
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Sweet emotion

Sweet emotion

Enlightened
Sep 14, 2019
1,325
My heart breaks for you that you feel like this! I'll never forget I was at a party....a family party....and my uncle by marriage invited a lot of his friends....everyone kept staring at me. I'm Italian American. I finally looked back at her and said do I have something on my face? She said oh im sorry youre just so ethnic looking. You look like you could belong in a godfather movie. I said well that makes sense. I am Sicilian but it's just too bad that I don't have any real ties to the mafia because if I did I'd put hits on a lot of people. Don't you for one second feel bad that you're exotic looking. Exotic is beautiful. Don't put yourself down because of what others think of you. Be proud of you who are and never apologize for it. Keep being kind to those who are kind to you and show bitches the door if they have an attitude.
 
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sadgirl2002

sadgirl2002

Fallen Angel
Apr 9, 2019
452
Yes, it's one of the reasons. I'm tired of plastering makeup on my face even though I still look ugly with it on. I was bullied and hated for the way I was and for my appearance. I'd rather drop dead than be here in this disgusting society. I'm constantly told that I'm beautiful by my aunt's friends and relatives but I don't see it. I'm ugly as shit. I don't know what they see in me and I feel like they're all lying to me. A few weeks ago, I was feeling worse in general and I pondered to myself, wondering if the people who know me now would have even tried to get to know me or give me a second look 5 years ago or 7 years ago even. I knew the answer...

That pretty much shows where I stand and everything people feel towards me is fake. I only had one girl who was with me even when I was ugly and a loser, my best friend of 8 years. She was there for me through everything but I ended up losing her.

I'm absolutely terrified about having a partner in the future because there's a possibility that he will look at other women. People only care about looks, no one wants to know me and I'll always be alone. Being kind and good-hearted got me nowhere, only used, manipulated and abandoned. As a result of that, I'm now in a bitter mindset and I have nothing good left in me anymore. People are shallow and I'm better off dead.
 
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n0505

n0505

Member
Oct 6, 2019
53
I'm fucking hate my ugly face
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
I am trans, and I feel ugly. I had surgery to fix what puberty did to me but the surgeon failed to achieve what I seek for.
I still have facial features that torture me every day and making me extremely miserable.
Also there's a bump on my forehead and I am not sure it will go away. I can have another surgery but only in half a year...
And then I will require hair transplant.
I don't know I could wait for so long, I have sacrificed everything and still in pain over my appearance, I am suffering greatly every day and my mental health rapidly getting worse.
 
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