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Miserable

Student
Jul 14, 2019
117
I am now ugly because of plastic surgery. I am an idiot everyone warned me dont do it . I needed a therapist not to cut my face. My eyes and face are deformed now i will kill myself because i am now ugly it is the moat heartbreaking horrible thing i have ever experienced i am traumatized. I wish i waa dead
I'm sorry :( is there any way it can be repaired?
No, but it doesn't help.
it doesn't help because a lot of people just think they're ugly and no matter what they change they still feel that way. Its like the anorexic who still thinks they are fat. Its a mental issue a lot of the time. Even incredibly hot people, its mostly just work, they spend a lot of time making themselves look like that
 
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Kingkelly

Mage
Dec 3, 2018
532
I'm sorry :( is there any way it can be repaired?

it doesn't help because a lot of people just think they're ugly and no matter what they change they still feel that way. Its like the anorexic who still thinks they are fat. Its a mental issue a lot of the time. Even incredibly hot people, its mostly just work, they spend a lot of time making themselves look like that
Nope
 
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noonetoo

noonetoo

Specialist
Mar 7, 2019
386
I don't understand, what makes you "ugly"?
Like I'm terribly lonely and I'm certianly not "hot" but when I'm at a reasonable weight and dress up nice... i look a little cute. That's all I am.
Is it Acne? I have scars all over my forehead because of acne. Its not a big deal and I bet i could get some treatment to make it look better.
My nephew (14) commented recently "so you're losing your hair and still get pimples?" lmao i lobe the little bastard
Yes, I said that. Acne, long sideburns, overweight, dark skin, dry hair, shitty personality. All things that could be fixed but easier said than done. In high school everything was worse. Dressed like a tomboy, was not girly at all.
Literally most of us are a lottery away from being "beautiful". It cost money to look good, besides a more positive outlook.
I've seen uglier people get by more in life by getting along with people. It's 2019, our exteriors are irrelevant. People want to be surrounded by kiss asses. If you can't be kind, kiss ass or be cool enough, it's probably not your face, it's you. :'(

And agree @Miserable, a lot of it is mental but people can't tell others what they can and cannot feel. If I feel really ugly being "average" than that's how I feel. Especially always been surrounded by uglier people having it better.
 
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Janetsend

Janetsend

Exhaustedmure
Oct 14, 2019
15
Its not the only reason but its a part still. I hate every single thing about me so darn much that I can't even look at the mirror. I kid you not when I tell that I HATE EVERRRRYTHING about me including my nails and hair and skin literally EVERYTHING its like I am not EVEN alive like I am not human. I can't see myself as a human
 
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greenlight

Member
Oct 22, 2019
23
As an ugly and autistic guy, the life is basically not for me. I was treated badly by every single group I was part of, except my family.
 
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Death_is_Escape

Student
Jul 26, 2019
137
I'm considered to be between an eight and a nine Here in the USA; throw in the fact that I'm a Person of Color and Male has been a burden against Me since Puberty; both Envy and Jealousy are two things I've had to deal with most of My life.
 
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Guizin239

Student
Aug 6, 2019
116
I'm considered to be between an eight and a nine Here in the USA; throw in the fact that I'm a Person of Color and Male has been a burden against Me since Puberty; both Envy and Jealousy are two things I've had to deal with most of My life.
8 out of ten? That's good, no?
 
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Death_is_Escape

Student
Jul 26, 2019
137
8 out of ten? That's good, no?
Not always: plenty of Heterosexual men in positions of authority have been known to prevent other men - who those men might've seen as potential rivals for the attention of women - prevented hot guys from being hired or promoted ( and getting affordable housing). Easy to do in the States.
 
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Guizin239

Student
Aug 6, 2019
116
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Not always: plenty of Heterosexual men in positions of authority have been known to prevent other men - who those men might've seen as potential rivals for the attention of women - prevented hot guys from being hired or promoted ( and getting affordable housing). Easy to do in the States.
Yikes
 
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BadDoctors

Member
Oct 19, 2019
23
I'm ugly. I can never win a girl over just with my face. Trying to talk to a girl through snapchat is basically impossible. No girl has ever taken a selfie with me or wanted to take a selfie with me. Nobody has ever complimented my face in public. More popular people who are my friend hide the fact that they are my friend from everyone they know. This has happened to me over and over again my entire life.

Do I want to kill myself because I'm ugly? Yes. Is it the only reason? No. I have other health issues which make me suicidal. These issues won't go away and just get worse over time. For the most part I got used to being an unpopular gamer, but losing my health is just to much. So yes I absolutely hate the fact that I'm ugly, and I am killing myself over it.
 
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Deformationalplagio

Born deformed
Dec 28, 2019
378
I could only wish i was just ugly. Better then be deformed
 
BabyYoda

BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
Part of it ("I hold no value in society")
Being ugly reduces my chances of finding love
 
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56709

a complete unknown...
Jun 4, 2019
79
Being unattractive contributes to my decision but it's definitely not the biggest factor... if I had more money and mobility I could easily improve my looks and health... the two deficits feed into one another... it's harder to find employment and make IRL connections when you look unhealthy etc...
 
Can'tStandAnymore

Can'tStandAnymore

Custom title
Mar 16, 2019
234
I'm considered to be between an eight and a nine Here in the USA; throw in the fact that I'm a Person of Color and Male has been a burden against Me since Puberty; both Envy and Jealousy are two things I've had to deal with most of My life.

Lol.
 
zherhk

zherhk

Student
Nov 25, 2019
126
I think I have never heard about male/ female models ctb ing.
Plus idk but seems that if you win the look lottery you win the health lottery too.
 
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S1mpleme

Mage
Dec 27, 2019
517
Sometimes I meet people that say they're ugly but they are not. And sometimes it's difficult to change their mind.
 
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Coffeandamug

Words are quite useless, and so am I.
Oct 22, 2020
171
I think it's a pretty valid reason to be honest. But not everyone is affected by their looks the same was as others are. I personally don't think it is any different than when someone feels they are a different gender and wishes to change as much of their body as they can to match up with how their mind wishes to see themselves. They just want their body to match their mind. Or else they feel trapped, trapped within their own body. There is no greater loss of freedom.

Well that's how I feel and it's absolutely dreadful. For me it has nothing to do with loneliness. I "choose loneliness" everyday over showing my face and being humiliated. I don't want to walk around like this. IN this. It is not the real me. I would not want to deal with this even if I was the last person on earth.

There are plenty of other reasons people commit suicide that would not cause me to CTB. Things I would gladly trade my reason for. But I think they are all perfectly good reasons to the people whom they affect. We all have our limits, and what we can handle and what we cannot. No one is the same. And no one can truly understand one person's struggle even if they share a similar story. People are not all impacted the same way.
It's scary how much I think like you on this topic. Even though this is an old post, I would like to thank you for writing this. It's conforting to find someone who shares alike views on such an important topic to me.
 
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Spiritual survivor

Spiritual survivor

A born again but occasionally suicidal
Feb 13, 2022
510
Well does aging count? Getting older and unattractive? Then yes it's a reason.
 
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Vyking

Member
Apr 15, 2022
13
nope, i'm quite pretty.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,882
I feel my perception of my looks contributes to my decision to ctb at about 10%. Decades of inner turmoil is the largest factor at around 80%. Loneliness probably comprises the other 10%. It's weird because I had quite a few girlfriends in high school, like more than I can count, but I could never understand why anyone would ever want to be with me. And I never thought it was genuine. I always thought I was some charity case or something that they all took pity on. I guess I never felt worthy. And what screws all that up is when you don't feel worthy, it's just about impossible to commit your entire self to actually making a relationship work. So, I don't know, maybe I subconsciously pushed them all away. Anyway, those are the percentages that I feel represent my reason for cashing out in the near term.
 
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Coffeandamug

Words are quite useless, and so am I.
Oct 22, 2020
171
nope, i'm quite pretty.
I like coments like these because they are a contradiction for those horrible clichés; "you feel bad about your apperence but so does everyone else from time to time". How I hate these generalizations. It's obvious that people's relationship to their apperences are unique. Well, generally speaking some are satisfied and happy, some are unhappy, some slightly unhappy, some disgusted and so on... but again, at the end, all our relationships to our appearences are unique. Some very complex.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
Yup I wish I did it in high school would have saved me pain and torture
 
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SuicidallyCurious

Enlightened
Dec 20, 2020
1,715
No but I'm on my way there and I definitely want out before that happens
 
Marine

Marine

*~ 絶対に 全てを取り戻させてもらう ~*
Jul 5, 2020
682
The universe is saying that I guess... Hopefully not how it'll end though.
 
Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,875
I think I have never heard about male/ female models ctb ing.
Plus idk but seems that if you win the look lottery you win the health lottery too.
I have heard such a thing, it does happen. But this doesn't prove that looks aren't important.
 
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SuicidallyCurious

Enlightened
Dec 20, 2020
1,715
I have heard such a thing, it does happen. But this doesn't prove that looks aren't important.

Oh how sad would it be to be a temporary radiant beauty doomed to return to stardust
I have heard such a thing, it does happen. But this doesn't prove that looks aren't important.

Oh how sad would it be to be a temporary radiant beauty doomed to return to stardust
 
Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,875
Oh how sad would it be to be a temporary radiant beauty doomed to return to stardust


Oh how sad would it be to be a temporary radiant beauty doomed to return to stardust
I can imagine as a model, the despair knowing that old age is creeping up and slowly eating away at your treasure. But some models who ctb might not do it for that reason at all. They may just have a mind which is focussed on other worries (somehow)
 
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