anyone else caught between SN and partial?

[PrincessInWhite]

I am leaning towards partial because it's quicker, more predictable, and I've done trial runs and can consistently find the "sweet spot." I do have SN, but I am wary of a. suffering and not dying and b. surviving with organ damage (i know no reports of brain damage of been reported, but any substance can damage the liver, kidneys, etc when it's not meant to be ingested in the quantity you're taking it.)

However this means I have to find a location hang (will either be outside in a grassy area where I'd be hidden or a hotel, but then how do I make sure there's something to hang from prior to booking the room?).

I am honestly just bitter as hell I can't get N, where I'm from customs are annoying as fuck with packages and also I have no idea how to navigate bitcoin and the dark web, I am technologically inept. I am so angry, I have the proof I've tried decades of medications, therapies, treatments and I still can't work or function, take my fucking money and let me go in peace.

any thoughts on any of this ramble would be much appreciated!

 

[Efilismislife]

Why not night2 or combination of both? The point is blocking the blood flow/artery

same i also cant get N otherwise it wont be so complicated

but night2 seem the best method if it can be done right. The quickest&least pain

 

[HelloHell]

I only have access to partial (a rope) so i have no choice other than to use that. but, if I had access to SN, I'd definitely go with SN. SN just looks "easier" imo, but maybe that's just me?

The customs here are really strict too. No way I can get N or even SN to pass that

 

[goat]

I'm going with partial because I have no access to N (I'd love to tho, like most of people here. It seems the best method if it wasn't so inaccessible) and for SN I'd have to buy and wait it to arrive, get to a doctor to ask pretty please for an antiemetic dopamina blocker, I can't just do it right now if I feel like plus partial is a very common widely known method with a high rate of efficacy while SN is new to me and it kinda worries me something could go wrong and I'll just wakeup at some point. So partial will be.

About the place you want to ctb, in hotels normally you can find a firm bar in the closet, just try if it can take the weight first, or those disabled holding bars in the bathroom can be an idea too, otherwise you can take a look in their rooms in the booking site, check for ideas and ask for a specific room.
Or use the good ol' door method like this (with bathroom door not the entering door cause people will see)

 

[Efilismislife]

SN need a lot of preparation too. Buying, fasting, anti emetic, etc also its longer and more painful

the problem with night2/partial is to make sure to block the carotid spot, once it done its game over

cause it goes straight to the brain
First 10 seconds faint
2-5 minutes later brain death

I only have access to partial (a rope) so i have no choice other than to use that. but, if I had access to SN, I'd definitely go with SN. SN just looks "easier" imo, but maybe that's just me?

The customs here are really strict too. No way I can get N or even SN to pass that

 

[inthemoonblue]

These are also the two most feasible methods for me. After a lot of consideration, partial seems like the better choice to me. It's much more peaceful, I'll be in total control of everything until I black out, there's no preparation required, I can do it drunk, and nothing about the cause of death is all that scary. SN is nice because as soon as you drink it you're basically fucked, whereas hanging could fail after you lose consciousness. But personally, I don't think I'd be able to go through with a method that requires such extensive planning ahead.

 

[lostmyself]

In hotels quite a few people have used the hook behind the bathroom door. Of course I'd check if it's sturdy or not. May you find peace and comfort in whatever you decide.

 

[PrincessInWhite]

Why not night2 or combination of both? The point is blocking the blood flow/artery

same i also cant get N otherwise it wont be so complicated

but night2 seem the best method if it can be done right. The quickest&least pain

Unfortunately I can't seem to get night night to work, it's much more complex than the diagrams make it seem. I can get hanging to work though which is the same amount of work

I only have access to partial (a rope) so i have no choice other than to use that. but, if I had access to SN, I'd definitely go with SN. SN just looks "easier" imo, but maybe that's just me?

The customs here are really strict too. No way I can get N or even SN to pass that

Big hugs, it's "easier in the sense that you just swallow as compared to forming a noose and finding the spot but there's a lot of grey area tbh- the timing, antiemetics, fasting, etc and also factors you can't control like metabolism and such, and it varies totally on how peaceful it is according to reports, which makes me hesitate tbh I know it sounds stupid Bc Im looking for death anyway, but I'd like my last moments to at least not be agony

I'm going with partial because I have no access to N (I'd love to tho, like most of people here. It seems the best method if it wasn't so inaccessible) and for SN I'd have to buy and wait it to arrive, get to a doctor to ask pretty please for an antiemetic dopamina blocker, I can't just do it right now if I feel like plus partial is a very common widely known method with a high rate of efficacy while SN is new to me and it kinda worries me something could go wrong and I'll just wakeup at some point. So partial will be.

About the place you want to ctb, in hotels normally you can find a firm bar in the closet, just try if it can take the weight first, or those disabled holding bars in the bathroom can be an idea too, otherwise you can take a look in their rooms in the booking site, check for ideas and ask for a specific room.
Or use the good ol' door method like this (with bathroom door not the entering door cause people will see)
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Thank you so much for this!! I didn't consider the door method at all. This is all very helpful

These are also the two most feasible methods for me. After a lot of consideration, partial seems like the better choice to me. It's much more peaceful, I'll be in total control of everything until I black out, there's no preparation required, I can do it drunk, and nothing about the cause of death is all that scary. SN is nice because as soon as you drink it you're basically fucked, whereas hanging could fail after you lose consciousness. But personally, I don't think I'd be able to go through with a method that requires such extensive planning ahead.

I've actually heard of plenty of people on here saying they survived SN even with the right anti emetics and regimen etc, whereas if you tie the noose properly, choose a sturdy structure and ensure you won't be found I can't see how hanging would fail. I'm sure there's ways though nothing is fool proof besides N . I just wish I could fucking go In peace

In hotels quite a few people have used the hook behind the bathroom door. Of course I'd check if it's sturdy or not. May you find peace and comfort in whatever you decide.

Thank you so much for the kind words The hook is a good idea, I just wonder if it can hold the weight of a human since it's designed for towels. But it's an option!

 

[LastFlowers]

I gave partial a sort of "trial" and it made it feel like my eyes were being squeezed out of my skull, so that was a quick "No" for me.
I don't think I am able to get at the "sweet spot" which you have managed to do.
Hanging scares me anyhow, but so does SN, it's just become more preferable to me personally, and unfortunately I don't have access to something more instantaneous, like a gun.
Even so, every method has its risks.

 

[PrincessInWhite]

I gave partial a sort of "trial" and it made it feel like my eyes were being squeezed out of my skull, so that was a quick "No" for me.
I don't think I am able to get at the "sweet spot" which you have managed to do.
Hanging scares me anyhow, but so does SN, it's just become more preferable to me personally, and unfortunately I don't have access to something more instantaneous, like a gun.
Even so, every method has its risks.

yeah, I don't have access to a gun either unfortunately, wish I did. I do have SN on hand but am wary to use it. every methods does have risks, that's why it's so cruel there is no legal safe way to ctb.

 

[Efilismislife]

Unfortunately I can't seem to get night night to work, it's much more complex than the diagrams make it seem.

You mean the cornhole bag and rachet? Have you tried it?
i read the rachet and bag can be replaced by other simpler material tho