Anyone ctb because of death of a loved one?

[oziinnz]

I lost my sister to suicide almost 6 months ago. Be good to talk to people who are ctb due to similar catalyst

 

[jmv]

I lost my boyfriend almost 3 months ago to the same thing, and I want to ctb every day. I know that's a somethng that can happen at times, it's like a chain effect. I miss him every day and the guilt and pain of not having him here anymore is eating at me and getting worse every day. I'm so sorry you're going through something similar and I'm sorry for your loss. It's hard when you don't even know what to do

 

[outrider567]

Girlfriend of 35 years gone in January because of Kidney Failure, still feels like it just happened yesterday

 

[jamie_]

death of loved one except they aren't really dead. just that i am dead to them. same effects though. miss them every day. no joy in the things i used to do. barely even have the appetite to eat

 

[its-about-time]

These posts scare me for my own loved ones if I ctb. I hate that.

 

[WorthlessGirl]

My mom died 3 months ago. I wanted to die before then but my mom's death made that feeling stronger. Her death was sudden and unexpected, there is a good chance she died from negligence. I'm in talks with a lawyer to see if I have a case against the nurses.

 

[todestrieb]

My husband ctb in October. It was my catalyst to begin making my preparations. I wait every day to see if this will be the day I get better, but it never comes and the longer I go the easier it seems to be to make the decision.

 

[ikkii]

I lost my dad, the reason i want to ctb.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

lost my mom a huge reason i want to CTB, my life would have been vastly different had she not died.

please people prepare for the unexpected and LEARN PROPER FIRST AID WHAT TO DO AND WHAT NOT DO DO.

 

[ge0rge]

my mom a month ago

My mom died 3 months ago. I wanted to die before then but my mom's death made that feeling stronger. Her death was sudden and unexpected, there is a good chance she died from negligence. I'm in talks with a lawyer to see if I have a case against the nurses.

are you me? I'm in the exact same situation (except she didn't die in the hospital, practically)

 

[Readytogasap]

Yes. Someone very special to me. Life hasn't been the same since. I can't believe how things have slided downhill eversince they passed.

It's my main reason for wanting out. Things where not great before that, but managable.

 

[sophie22German]

Me. My lovely girlfriend took her life a few weeks ago too after finding out she had a terminal desease. I want to be with her again badly

 

[Readytogasap]

Me. My lovely girlfriend took her life a few weeks ago too after finding out she had a terminal desease. I want to be with her again badly

Greif can be so cruel. Sorry for your loss.

 

[sophie22German]

Greif can be so cruel. Sorry for your loss.

Thanks . The problem is that my family never accepted that I love women and that's why I feel so lonely

 

[Readytogasap]

Thanks . The problem is that my family never accepted that I love women and that's why I feel so lonely

It must be much harder to find someone that you connect with, knowing you had that is irreplacable. Exaclty how i feel too. I am a couple more months down the line then you and honestly it's not gotten better one bit.

 

[sophie22German]

It must be much harder to find someone that you connect with, knowing you had that is irreplacable. Exaclty how i feel too. I am a couple more months down the line then you and honestly it's not gotten better one bit.

Yep it's exactly the same. I'm in tears again right now looking at some photos of us both

 

[Readytogasap]

Yep it's exactly the same. I'm in tears again right now looking at some photos of us both

I got photos printed out, I kept looking at them on my phone so decided to print and put them in a draw next to my bed. I would still look at them often but a abit less. I don't know if that's the right or wrong thing. There is no real guide for greif.

https://www.reddit.com/r/widowers/ is helpful, but they run a mile if you mention suicide.

 

[NoLightRemains]

I lost my partner to suicide almost two years ago now. I also had two friends I was less close to CTB since then. The idea of suicide is firmly ingrained into my thoughts now, but the pain of grief has become less constant as time goes on. But when I feel my grief, it cuts just as deep as it did in the past.

 

[jmv]

My husband ctb in October. It was my catalyst to begin making my preparations. I wait every day to see if this will be the day I get better, but it never comes and the longer I go the easier it seems to be to make the decision.

this is exactly how i feel right now. it was scary at the beginning to feel this way. i even promised my bf i would try my best to fight. and everyone says time heals or we will grow around the pain, but the more time that goes on the more painful it feels. the more it hurts. the easier the decision feels. everything is just getting harder. i'm sorry you're struggling with the same, i hope you find some peace here with loved ones. pls take care of urself <3

 

[Graytaichi]

My mum died on may. I have 6 months to live or die. Idk yet

 

[Clearly Canadian]

My husband of 25 years died right in front of me in March. I am devastated. I lost my SoulMate and best-friend. I actually feel de-skinned. This pain is too much for me to live with. Many changes because of his death. I'm losing my home of 22 years too many to list. I don't know why I am still here. Cowardice I guess. I have more than enough medicine to CTB. I also don't want to die alone.

 

[savoytruffle]

yeah my dad, that solidified it pretty much