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CoolGuy9

CoolGuy9

Mage
Mar 5, 2019
524
Just woke up and felt sad and depressed, because of reality. Calmed myself with the fact that I can ctb in 3 weeks.

Anybody else get the morning sadness?
 
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Gaybonez

Gaybonez

vegan jesus
Nov 30, 2020
208
Why would I be aware of what you said before I joined the forum? I'm not a stalker interested in reading your old posts or following you from thread to thread.


Yeah, I'm the one attacking random suicidal people for eating animal products like a psycho -

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-hate-those-happy-people.67508/#post-1252357
Am I supposed to care what you think? I have stated my background multiple times on this account. And yes, as expected you are stalking me in every thread I go
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,604
Mornings are the worst time for me. I think it is just a disappointing feeling that I am still here and I am about to face another day of existing.
 
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MBY85

Member
Oct 21, 2020
52
Me. The morings are the worst. I always hope that for some miracle I don't wake up, but I am never that lucky
 
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Dear Agony

Dear Agony

The Void
Jan 24, 2020
296
Actually, I feel way worse when I'm in bed to head to sleep. Because the day replays in my head, and then I'm sure things aren't going to get better ever.
 
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CoolGuy9

CoolGuy9

Mage
Mar 5, 2019
524
Actually, I feel way worse when I'm in bed to head to sleep. Because the day replays in my head, and then I'm sure things aren't going to get better ever.
Relatable. I absolutely despise going to bed.
 
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Eira

Eira

Pulse of a Lily
Jul 28, 2021
1
First waking up is always the hardest. As the day goes on I usually start to feel a little better, until I start realizing the day is coming to a close and that I'll have to deal with it again.

I always wake up with a deep, sunken heart and my mind haunting me as it shoots every which direction

Usually work gets me distracted from it a little bit, but the idea of going to work while feeling like that makes going to bed that much harder to the point where I usually get two hours of sleep each night due to my fear of waking up.

Just becomes an endless cycle that feeds off of everything else in that cycle
 
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finish.me

finish.me

I need you to feel this
Jul 14, 2021
142
whenever i nap, i wake up in so much agony. mornings have always been tough but i can usually push through waking up after a nights sleep- but for some reason when i wake up from SPECIFICALLY naps it's like all the pain and sadness and agony of everything hits me and all i wish for is to fucking die lol. idk what that phenomenon is, but it is genuinely an unbearable, indescribable existential emptiness and sadness. why does it happen?
 
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JU.

Member
Aug 1, 2021
44
I read that you can go to work, get up, cook. For months I have struggled even to leave the room. I am stretched out for 22 hours a day. Yet I risked being happy, totally, I have been for a few weeks. Then the collapse, the return of obsessive thoughts. This is leading me to ctb
 
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sadbadpsychogirl

sadbadpsychogirl

sonofabitch
May 29, 2020
725



yes mornings suck. usually because i have ok dreams in which everything is decent again.
 
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Zzzzz

Zzzzz

Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
Aug 8, 2018
879
Every day is a new disappointment.
 
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ncmxm

ncmxm

Experienced
Jun 9, 2021
232
Yeah I can relate

I love going to bed and falling asleep, when it's dark outside and I don't have to go anywhere or do anything and can just curl in a ball and not think about anything for a bit, I almost feel at peace

And waking up is the exact opposite of that, it's losing that peace and I hate this feeling
 
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CiproKilledMe

CiproKilledMe

Experienced
Mar 23, 2021
243
I wake up every day in a near panic, horrified at the fact that I'm still alive, still in this body, and have 16+ hours of non-stop pain & suffering before me. I wish I had the courage and bravery so many others on here possess to end this nightmare once and for all. I clearly don't know when to quit.
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
Every stinking day….
 
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Blackpoolbootz

Blackpoolbootz

If it sounds too good to be true it usually is.
Apr 19, 2020
97
Y
Just woke up and felt sad and depressed, because of reality. Calmed myself with the fact that I can ctb in 3 weeks.

Anybody else get the morning sadness?
Know exactly what you mean. Before my current meds. Woke up feeling fine and a few moments later the darkness decends more horrible feeling only time when you can differentiate between feeling normal and severely depressed. Said that to doctor ect and time and they just looked at me blankly.
 
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heraclitus23

Member
May 26, 2021
46
Every day I look back at my wasted life and dread my empty future.
 
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LDARbeforeROPE

LDARbeforeROPE

Omega male
Aug 4, 2021
9
Yes the dread is terrible
 
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Jumping_realms

Jumping_realms

★☆★ ☠️★☆★
Jul 4, 2021
483
Yes.

Mornings and nights are always the worst.
 
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WOODESITY

WOODESITY

Experienced
Mar 15, 2019
217
in the morning i usually have good mood for few moments but it's always temporary, later i feel awful that I'm still alive And as cycle continues worse i get, I'm simply sick of these routines and my life itself
 
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Pisceslilith

Pisceslilith

Student
Aug 19, 2019
159
Me everytime I wake up: 5A8A7632 8DB8 4EE6 8034 75391CB7DC80
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
So I wake n bake lol it's the only way I can bare being alive to any degree
Fellow insomniac here. Can you clarify "wake N bake"? Want to make sure I get what you're saying. I get up, after just a couple hours of sleep, exhausted (but can't fall back asleep). So I start to work. Would love to find a solution...
I sometimes stay awake as long as I can so I don't have to wake up, and start a new day.

Wow.. Thought I was the only one...
 
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Smart No More

Visionary
May 5, 2021
2,734
Fellow insomniac here. Can you clarify "wake N bake"? Want to make sure I get what you're saying. I get up, after just a couple hours of sleep, exhausted (but can't fall back asleep). So I start to work. Would love to find a solution...


Wow.. Thought I was the only one...
Wake n bake means getting stoned 'baked' as soon as you wake. Specifically on weed.
 
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NotStrongEnough

NotStrongEnough

Nihilist extraordinaire
Oct 3, 2021
85
Different parts of the day hit my "CTB" feeling. I usually wake up and start thinking about some shit I can't change and it just starts from there. Almost every morning I wake up mildly crying. If I dream about certain things, or people, or animals, it's worse. I hate mornings more than any other time of the day..

Also, OMG the drama here - yall, this is better than Dynasty!
 
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Feeding Pigeons

Feeding Pigeons

Warlock
Aug 5, 2021
776
Just woke up and felt sad and depressed, because of reality. Calmed myself with the fact that I can ctb in 3 weeks.

Anybody else get the morning sadness?
I've had dreams where things are good, and even better a few times in my life I've been able to go so deeply into sleep that I forget that I exist. Absolute disappointment and anger when I wake up.
 
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END21_22

END21_22

Member
Jul 21, 2021
6
First thought of the day is sheer disappointment that I woke up, meaning another day of misery. Honestly, been a while since I looked forward to my day.
 
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TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
Omg yes, waking up from the peaceful non suffering sleep just to realize i'll have to deal with lots of bullshit again and with humans especially makes me angry. I'ts even worse when I wake up sober.
 
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agate

Member
Sep 29, 2021
54
Oh yes, every morning. I'm always also disappointed that I didn't die in my sleep.
 
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Painless_end

Painless_end

Life is too difficult for me
Oct 11, 2019
794
Yes extremely sad. I suffer daily.
 
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