Discussion Anxiety is killing me

[chris8000]

I was put on Xanax by my doctor a year ago. it just seemed to make me more confused.

Have you tried (legal) herbs? Like ashwagandha ksm66 is very good, I combine it with tinctures of American skullcap (from fresh aerial parts) and St. John's wort (from fresh flowers), there are more that are good. The nootropics and herbalism forums on Reddit have a lot more info, plenty of people hanging out there with anxiety from mild to severe. The other thing which is good is meditation/ yoga/ qi gong, which can be extremely effective especially long term, but it isn't for everyone.

Plant medicine can be surprisingly effective for a range of ailments. I tried a bunch of meds for nerve pain like lyrica, amitriptyline, cymbalta etc, before getting desperate and using herbs, and I was like wow these actually can work well. I still use them every night in a formula for pretty severe insomnia I get which isn't massively different from anxiety.

 

[hhsp]

Have you tried (legal) herbs? Like ashwagandha ksm66 is very good, I combine it with tinctures of American skullcap (from fresh aerial parts) and St. John's wort (from fresh flowers), there are more that are good. The nootropics and herbalism forums on Reddit have a lot more info, plenty of people hanging out there with anxiety from mild to severe. The other thing which is good is meditation/ yoga/ qi gong, which can be extremely effective especially long term, but it isn't for everyone.

Plant medicine can be surprisingly effective for a range of ailments. I tried a bunch of meds for nerve pain like lyrica, amitriptyline, cymbalta etc, before getting desperate and using herbs, and I was like wow these actually can work well. I still use them every night in a formula for pretty severe insomnia I get which isn't massively different from anxiety.

Man, thats sounds awfully interesting can you send me links about insomnia, but also depression. I totally love to grow plants and herbs.

 

[chris8000]

Yeah I don't grow them I just order online, but I like the idea of using plants as medicine instead of pills for certain things. Easy to find info, help, and links through these pages.

Reddit - Dive into anything

www.reddit.com

Reddit - Dive into anything

www.reddit.com

 

[Oppenheimer]

I have social anxiety and apart from having to work, im becoming a recluse, lol. my life is work. home, work, home.

Same here. Can´t see doing it for the rest of my life, anxious all the time and hating my work.

 

[PetiteAngel]

Same here. Can´t see doing it for the rest of my life, anxious all the time and hating my work.

same here dreading each morning but needs must

Have you tried (legal) herbs? Like ashwagandha ksm66 is very good, I combine it with tinctures of American skullcap (from fresh aerial parts) and St. John's wort (from fresh flowers), there are more that are good. The nootropics and herbalism forums on Reddit have a lot more info, plenty of people hanging out there with anxiety from mild to severe. The other thing which is good is meditation/ yoga/ qi gong, which can be extremely effective especially long term, but it isn't for everyone.

Plant medicine can be surprisingly effective for a range of ailments. I tried a bunch of meds for nerve pain like lyrica, amitriptyline, cymbalta etc, before getting desperate and using herbs, and I was like wow these actually can work well. I still use them every night in a formula for pretty severe insomnia I get which isn't massively different from anxiety.

May give them a go, tha

same here dreading each morning but needs must

May give them a go, tha

thanks

 

[PaYo]

whats wrong about being selfish?

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Anxiety is the worst
I have trembling half of the day

 

[PetiteAngel]

Anxiety is the worst
I have trembling half of the day

I dont seem to show it physically, I just feel tense, cant relax and everyone is watching, listening to me and laughing at me. Constantly being judged and made fun off. im forever apologising. I feel such an idiot.

 

[hhsp]

anxiety is gone, after some benzos and some slow long distance bikeing
but i cry a lot, and I really cried a lot already in my life but it seems to get worse and worse. I am more then 50 years old and struggle extremely since about 30 years. I am proud I made it so long. I find it is hard to kill. I can not kill somebody else how can I kill myself? There is a strong survialinstinct in humans.
anxiety is worse then depression but strong depression is also terrible.
I wish somebody could write something to just support me. I want to travel and meet basically my only friend left. She is really cool, she has a very strong energy. AA member for 40 years. I thought I can travel but now i doubt it. Until 24th it seems to me like years. Tomorrow I call my doc for stronger meds.
THis is not a life its just a fuckign nightmare.
I have SN but at least I like to die peacefully and calm. And SN is not so smooth like N, IMHO I have no power to source N and to travel somewhere where it is available seems also too much. Fuck Fuck Fuck
I just wish my heart would stop, that is such a kind death I think.

 

[PetiteAngel]

anxiety is gone, after some benzos and some slow long distance bikeing
but i cry a lot, and I really cried a lot already in my life but it seems to get worse and worse. I am more then 50 years old and struggle extremely since about 30 years. I am proud I made it so long. I find it is hard to kill. I can not kill somebody else how can I kill myself? There is a strong survialinstinct in humans.
anxiety is worse then depression but strong depression is also terrible.
I wish somebody could write something to just support me. I want to travel and meet basically my only friend left. She is really cool, she has a very strong energy. AA member for 40 years. I thought I can travel but now i doubt it. Until 24th it seems to me like years. Tomorrow I call my doc for stronger meds.
THis is not a life its just a fuckign nightmare.
I have SN but at least I like to die peacefully and calm. And SN is not so smooth like N, IMHO I have no power to source N and to travel somewhere where it is available seems also too much. Fuck Fuck Fuck
I just wish my heart would stop, that is such a kind death I think.

I am sorry you are suffering so much. I am over 50 as well and I feel so ashamed. I work with people 30 years younger than me and they radiate so much confidence. I feel like a child next to them. We should both be proud we have made it this far. Like you I cannot get hold of N. I have tried so many times with overdoses and cutting my wrists. I now cut myself off from people and at the same time feel lonely.

 

[hhsp]

thank you for your words
i do the same, cut myself of and at the same time feel lonely. It is a normal human behaviour when we stressed too much we draw back.
I will try a new start in another country and if this does not work then it is SN
I dont want to fall that low anymore as I was a couple of weeks ago
I said a lot of bad things to my parents and to live with that is not easy. It was born out of fear and desperation. I am not a bad person but what I said was really bad. Childhood stuff still rules me after a lot of therapy. It is OK. We will see how it will be in the new location.

 

[ValideSultana]

Cant believe I have found this place and so many people feeling like me.
No one likes to talk about suicide or dying, they think its all about attention seeking or just being stupid.

I have lived with this demon for most of my life, and have tried and failed.

Of course I love my family, children but am I being selfish because I dont want to be here?

I dont know.

You're neither attention seeking or stupid. People who think suicide is selfish don't understand. They're the ones being selfish. They're selfish because they don't understand the pain their loved one was in, because they wanted their loved one here. Because they couldn't stop them from CTB. Probably also because they have survivors guilt, and they blame the person who committed suicide for it.
Also, many people wonder why a person would ever want to give up. Maybe because they cannot contemplate the idea themselves? After all, most people believe suicide is a sin (it's not), and the idea of just giving up on life here on earth, and on the supposed heaven of the hereafter is unthinkable to them. You're not selfish. I totally get you.

 

[PetiteAngel]

thank you for your words
i do the same, cut myself of and at the same time feel lonely. It is a normal human behaviour when we stressed too much we draw back.
I will try a new start in another country and if this does not work then it is SN
I dont want to fall that low anymore as I was a couple of weeks ago
I said a lot of bad things to my parents and to live with that is not easy. It was born out of fear and desperation. I am not a bad person but what I said was really bad. Childhood stuff still rules me after a lot of therapy. It is OK. We will see how it will be in the new location.

I truly hope everything works out for you xx

You're neither attention seeking or stupid. People who think suicide is selfish don't understand. They're the ones being selfish. They're selfish because they don't understand the pain their loved one was in, because they wanted their loved one here. Because they couldn't stop them from CTB. Probably also because they have survivors guilt, and they blame the person who committed suicide for it.
Also, many people wonder why a person would ever want to give up. Maybe because they cannot contemplate the idea themselves? After all, most people believe suicide is a sin (it's not), and the idea of just giving up on life here on earth, and on the supposed heaven of the hereafter is unthinkable to them. You're not selfish. I totally get you.

this is what I like about this site, wonderful people like you. Thank you for lovely words