iikusuri
A Flair For The Dramatic
- Jul 22, 2023
- 26
Oh my god I actually cant keep living like this. If I dont die by suicide, i'll most likely die due to my health. I'm so useless. I have very little money, I can barely hold a job because of my health and being hospitalized like.. every other day. And I have no one I can rely on nor talk to. Sometimes I lay in bed (Because thats all I can do nowadays) and just.. wait till someone texts me or something.
…so basically I just lay in bed.
It's all so humiliating. Honestly, I always thought i'd be doing something important with my life when I was younger. But I fucked up my chances when I started abusing substances in high school due to my health declining and really just not seeing a point in this life anymore. I was told i'd most likely die young anyways.
And yet here I am. My luck really does show at the worst moments possible. Just rubbing it in my face at. this. point.
My body is failing on me. I lost 23 pounds these last two months because my body keeps rejecting food. Honestly I should just die already. I really see no point in continuing anymore. But hey, at least i'll have a nice body when i pass??
Its so silly how the one thing keeping me here is my dog. Shes the only one I have left in my life. And shes so stinking CUTE!! how could I possibly end my life with someone as fluffy and adorable as her around?!? She's the sole reason why I still try to hold a job anyway. Without her? I dont know where i'd be right now. Probably dead. I'll just wait till my health takes me under honestly.
…so basically I just lay in bed.
It's all so humiliating. Honestly, I always thought i'd be doing something important with my life when I was younger. But I fucked up my chances when I started abusing substances in high school due to my health declining and really just not seeing a point in this life anymore. I was told i'd most likely die young anyways.
And yet here I am. My luck really does show at the worst moments possible. Just rubbing it in my face at. this. point.
My body is failing on me. I lost 23 pounds these last two months because my body keeps rejecting food. Honestly I should just die already. I really see no point in continuing anymore. But hey, at least i'll have a nice body when i pass??
Its so silly how the one thing keeping me here is my dog. Shes the only one I have left in my life. And shes so stinking CUTE!! how could I possibly end my life with someone as fluffy and adorable as her around?!? She's the sole reason why I still try to hold a job anyway. Without her? I dont know where i'd be right now. Probably dead. I'll just wait till my health takes me under honestly.
