Another goodbye thread

[sevennn]

how are you feeling now?

 

[Neoatlech]

Thank you for coming back to tell us your experience. I hope you are ok and wish you a full recovery. 100 ml of water was maybe too much? I think the protocol is generally 50 ml.

Did you go to hospital to get antidote?

Can you tell us about how much you drank and what your symptoms were? Your experience? Did you test your SN beforehand?

I tried to mix it with 50mL first but i still saw some crystals at the bottom of the cup so i added more to make sure every crystal dissolved. maybe if I had warmer water it might've dissolved in less.

I didn't go to the hospital or call emergency services.

I drank about half the first cup, realized how terrible it tasted, added some water to maybe soften it up and took another sip, didn't help at all. I'd say I drank about 13-14g of SN (my body weight is around 60kg so my lethal dosage according to the guide is 19g, maybe if I'd taken just one more sip I wouldn't be here). I don't remember a lot, I sort of walked to the bathroom in a panic after I realized I still drank enough SN to give me a bad day. I remember finding myself lying helplessly on the carpet and vomiting on it and sort of just laying there, unable to get up. My best advice would be to just lay back and stay still honestly. When I walked up to the mirror after a few hours to check up I found some bruises on my face and busted my lip. Pretty sure I hit my head somewhere when I fainted.

I didn't test my SN, I ordered an entire kilogram straight from an online chemical store and judging by the effects I guess it was pure.

how are you feeling now?

I was able to actually get up and function as a human being 6-7 hours after taking the SN, cyanosis lasted a bit longer than that, I looked pretty terrible. I was feeling very heavy and tired while recovering but you return to normal after 24 hours I suppose. I'm good now, thanks.

 

[suffering_mo]

I tried to mix it with 50mL first but i still saw some crystals at the bottom of the cup so i added more to make sure every crystal dissolved. maybe if I had warmer water it might've dissolved in less.

I didn't go to the hospital or call emergency services.

I drank about half the first cup, realized how terrible it tasted, added some water to maybe soften it up and took another sip, didn't help at all. I'd say I drank about 13-14g of SN (my body weight is around 60kg so my lethal dosage according to the guide is 19g, maybe if I'd taken just one more sip I wouldn't be here). I don't remember a lot, I sort of walked to the bathroom in a panic after I realized I still drank enough SN to give me a bad day. I remember finding myself lying helplessly on the carpet and vomiting on it and sort of just laying there, unable to get up. My best advice would be to just lay back and stay still honestly. When I walked up to the mirror after a few hours to check up I found some bruises on my face and busted my lip. Pretty sure I hit my head somewhere when I fainted.

I didn't test my SN, I ordered an entire kilogram straight from an online chemical store and judging by the effects I guess it was pure.

So glad to hear you seem to be ok. Hopefully, you are happy to be alive. My SN dissolved pretty easily....I wonder if you had more nitrates in yours.

 

[DOHARDTHINGS24]

When my time to CTB comes, I doubt I'll post a goodbye thread. However, if I do, please do NOT try to talk me out of it. Reaching that decision is my business, and when I decide it's time, wish me a peaceful journey, or say nothing.

That really should be your right here. Document anything you are willing or able to share or just have the community send you lovely goodbyes as you drift off to sleep. (And help you stop or reverse your actions, IF THAT IS YOUR CHOICE). Anyone can change their mind & stop & ask for help & there's no shame in that & the community will support that.
But if someone is saying goodbye, the correct response is also goodbye

 

[peope_dont_change]

May you find peace. Goodbye.

 

[Ashu]

This reads like something out of r/suicidewatch...

A mod zapped them. Good.

 

[peacetoall]

I tried to mix it with 50mL first but i still saw some crystals at the bottom of the cup so i added more to make sure every crystal dissolved. maybe if I had warmer water it might've dissolved in less.

I didn't go to the hospital or call emergency services.

I drank about half the first cup, realized how terrible it tasted, added some water to maybe soften it up and took another sip, didn't help at all. I'd say I drank about 13-14g of SN (my body weight is around 60kg so my lethal dosage according to the guide is 19g, maybe if I'd taken just one more sip I wouldn't be here). I don't remember a lot, I sort of walked to the bathroom in a panic after I realized I still drank enough SN to give me a bad day. I remember finding myself lying helplessly on the carpet and vomiting on it and sort of just laying there, unable to get up. My best advice would be to just lay back and stay still honestly. When I walked up to the mirror after a few hours to check up I found some bruises on my face and busted my lip. Pretty sure I hit my head somewhere when I fainted.

I didn't test my SN, I ordered an entire kilogram straight from an online chemical store and judging by the effects I guess it was pure.

I was able to actually get up and function as a human being 6-7 hours after taking the SN, cyanosis lasted a bit longer than that, I looked pretty terrible. I was feeling very heavy and tired while recovering but you return to normal after 24 hours I suppose. I'm good now, thanks.

Where did you buy your SN?

 

[mfjajs]

Something like 2g is already lethal

 

[Fakefriendhate_Maxx]

I recently startet a thread about SN enema/rectal application of SN. Maybe you can combine both methods and thus taking less SN by swallowing (and so avoiding the risk of vomiting). Unfortunately the point is: There are few information about the proceure (e.g. dosage/concentration, success rate and so on..)

Here are a few links:

Thanks and goodbye (SN)

Thanks for teaching me about SN and keeping me company. My SN has arrived. I must prepare. I had intended to document the ride, but I don't feel up to it. See you out there.

sanctioned-suicide.net

Why isn't SN enema viable?

I've read many posts on SN enema here and I don't see a lot of endorsement or enthusiasm about rectal administration of SN. Why is this? What are the risks? Is it the burning sensation or risk of bowel clearance?

sanctioned-suicide.net

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6805701/ (very general information about anatomics and rectal application/medical formulations) - If you've got too much time. ;)
From time to time, people tell they IMMEDIATELY throw up after swallowing the SN Drink - so your not the only one...
Do you have access to Ondansetron (Zofran)? If so, maybe it will help you to use it together with MCP. It's one of the strongest antiemetics on the market.
If all of the above isn't an option for you, then maybe just sipping will help?!

P.S. Were you at the ER or hospital ? What happened after? Did you experienced something?