Another failed attempt that woke me up

[HonestAbe]

Two days ago I had just had it with everything going on in my life. I took 2 bottles of sleeping pills and grabbed a plastic bag. It was next to impossible to use rubber bands that I was advised to use to cut off any air at the bottom of the bag, plus I was already dozing.

Suffice to say I was just it cold sand plastic bag. I would soon find out what a ton of pills inside of you does without getting your stomach pumped or killing you. I

I had vertigo all day and kept falling on the ground constantly. I vomited multiple times. My knees barely worked and I wound up walking sideways when they did. it was if I had laughing gas or lots of alcohol in being how I kept falling down or holding something to stay upright.

I fell down at least 20 times then just stayed down because I felt nauseous. I tried to get up because I thought the inspector of the building was coming and I had to stay on the floor helpless.

I tried to get up twice during this time, and the first time I wiped out what was on my coffee table and fell into the vomit on the floor that happened a minute before.

The second time I knocked over a fan and banged my head on the coffee table and almost knocked myself out. I just laid their dizzy, scared and in pain.

The rest of the day was bizarre but I somehow got through it. I didn't want my stomach pumped because of who I know who works there and I was just there 3 weeks before for another incident.

I figured I would just endure. I still notice a few things after my rendezvous through hell. One I can still joke about things even in the darkness, although here just to myself. Two, it's easy to sleep for many days afterwards and three I still have trouble walking without at times losing my bearings but it's mainly only where I have to suddenly turn.

The latter is better now but I took so many pills I figured I could still pull it off, but the bag and the bands working would've assured me that.

In darkness there is truth and humor. Another failed attempt will do that at times. Why on earth I thought the 2 bottles of pills would do it alone is beyond me.

However, I now know unless you get it all just right or choose to get your stomach pumped, you're in for an awful surprise or trip or two.

 

[Lam1dz]

Two days ago I had just had it with everything going on in my life. I took 2 bottles of sleeping pills and grabbed a plastic bag. It was next to impossible to use rubber bands that I was advised to use to cut off any air at the bottom of the bag, plus I was already dozing.

Suffice to say I was just it cold sand plastic bag. I would soon find out what a ton of pills inside of you does without getting your stomach pumped or killing you. I

I had vertigo all day and kept falling on the ground constantly. I vomited multiple times. My knees barely worked and I wound up walking sideways when they did. it was if I had laughing gas or lots of alcohol in being how I kept falling down or holding something to stay upright.

I fell down at least 20 times then just stayed down because I felt nauseous. I tried to get up because I thought the inspector of the building was coming and I had to stay on the floor helpless.

I tried to get up twice during this time, and the first time I wiped out what was on my coffee table and fell into the vomit on the floor that happened a minute before.

The second time I knocked over a fan and banged my head on the coffee table and almost knocked myself out. I just laid their dizzy, scared and in pain.

The rest of the day was bizarre but I somehow got through it. I didn't want my stomach pumped because of who I know who works there and I was just there 3 weeks before for another incident.

I figured I would just endure. I still notice a few things after my rendezvous through hell. One I can still joke about things even in the darkness, although here just to myself. Two, it's easy to sleep for many days afterwards and three I still have trouble walking without at times losing my bearings but it's mainly only where I have to suddenly turn.

The latter is better now but I took so many pills I figured I could still pull it off, but the bag and the bands working would've assured me that.

In darkness there is truth and humor. Another failed attempt will do that at times. Why on earth I thought the 2 bottles of pills would do it alone is beyond me.

However, I now know unless you get it all just right or choose to get your stomach pumped, you're in for an awful surprise or trip or two.

i am so so sorry for you i hope you find your freedom hugs

 

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[FuneralCry]

That sounds really awful what you've been through, failing suicide is exactly what I fear and I see it as being so cruel how it's purposely made so difficult to finally leave this world but anyway I wish you the best.

 

[HonestAbe]

That sounds really awful what you've been through, failing suicide is exactly what I fear and I see it as being so cruel how it's purposely made so difficult to finally leave this world but anyway I wish you the best.

Thanks. A huge screwup on my end but I'm sure I'll be there again only with better knowledge.

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

that sounds awful. i don't think you can ctb with sleeping pills. please do some heavy research before trying anything like that. you are free to talk here. with that said, don't trust everyone either but mostly, people on this site want to help. just double check any info you get.

 

[HonestAbe]

Very true. You can if you're knocked out and have a bag tied around preventing any air from getting in. Friend of mine did it that way, but perhaps he got lucky. I did pills many years ago and just wound up severely high and nauseous.

This time was much worse. Here, I just messed myself up pretty bad. Was desperate and just grabbed them and the bag. Studied but wasn't in the correct frame of mind to be successful or I should say lucky. Thanks for the heads up. I'm just spent.

 

[Life interrupted]

Two days ago I had just had it with everything going on in my life. I took 2 bottles of sleeping pills and grabbed a plastic bag. It was next to impossible to use rubber bands that I was advised to use to cut off any air at the bottom of the bag, plus I was already dozing.

Suffice to say I was just it cold sand plastic bag. I would soon find out what a ton of pills inside of you does without getting your stomach pumped or killing you. I

I had vertigo all day and kept falling on the ground constantly. I vomited multiple times. My knees barely worked and I wound up walking sideways when they did. it was if I had laughing gas or lots of alcohol in being how I kept falling down or holding something to stay upright.

I fell down at least 20 times then just stayed down because I felt nauseous. I tried to get up because I thought the inspector of the building was coming and I had to stay on the floor helpless.

I tried to get up twice during this time, and the first time I wiped out what was on my coffee table and fell into the vomit on the floor that happened a minute before.

The second time I knocked over a fan and banged my head on the coffee table and almost knocked myself out. I just laid their dizzy, scared and in pain.

The rest of the day was bizarre but I somehow got through it. I didn't want my stomach pumped because of who I know who works there and I was just there 3 weeks before for another incident.

I figured I would just endure. I still notice a few things after my rendezvous through hell. One I can still joke about things even in the darkness, although here just to myself. Two, it's easy to sleep for many days afterwards and three I still have trouble walking without at times losing my bearings but it's mainly only where I have to suddenly turn.

The latter is better now but I took so many pills I figured I could still pull it off, but the bag and the bands working would've assured me that.

In darkness there is truth and humor. Another failed attempt will do that at times. Why on earth I thought the 2 bottles of pills would do it alone is beyond me.

However, I now know unless you get it all just right or choose to get your stomach pumped, you're in for an awful surprise or trip or two.

What sleeping pills? Didn't you fall asleep?? I took 30 pills of xanax and they knocked me out in 3 minutes. I fell twice before I dozed off. I wasn't intending to kill myself anyway because I knew it wouldn't work.

 

[HonestAbe]

What sleeping pills? Didn't you fall asleep?? I took 30 pills of xanax and they knocked me out in 3 minutes. I fell twice before I dozed off. I wasn't intending to kill myself anyway because I knew it wouldn't work.

Mostly high doses of Vistaril and Trazodone mixed in with Estazolam. I realized I took about 240 combined a day or so after I failed. Was even more than I had realized.

The plan was to be asleep under a plastic bag, but I underestimated how hard that is. So instead I hoped the pills might put me in a coma or just kill me. After the bag failed, I already had the pills in my system so I was screwed, so I went with it.

I realized it's likely a two person job with how I wanted to go about it having read about it extensively, although I should've read it more and planned for the worst aka a fuckup.

Whereas I know it works, it depends what pills you take and the dose. Neither were as high as I would've liked but the volume alone I thought would've knocked me out. . Also the bag part I failed miserably at which is why I believe I'm sadly still here. Hard to say though.

My pills were minor compared to ones not as easy to get over here unless you go looking and plan on spending a lot of coin. I should've gone there but despite my previous planning, at that moment I was acting impulsively hence the screwup. Thankfully, I can learn from the failed attempt despite hating myself all the more. Always a work in progress.

 

[painful existence]

I can understand that suffering can be unbearable at times and one might take risky steps but it is better to follow a proper guide.It is going to be the most important decision in your life and you should absolutely devote some time to plan the perfect exit.Failures could end up badly .You are lucky to not have suffered any permanent organ damage.

 

[HonestAbe]

I can understand that suffering can be unbearable at times and one might take risky steps but it is better to follow a proper guide.It is going to be the most important decision in your life and you should absolutely devote some time to plan the perfect exit.Failures could end up badly .You are lucky to not have suffered any permanent organ damage.

Oh I wholeheartedly agree. I'm severely impulsive despite doing a ton of research. One bad moment and the planning wasn't as precise as usual. The fact I'm not more badly damaged is amazing. New issues but it's all my fault so I've accepted them. Appreciate the reply regardless.

 

[Stormy Raine]

Pills never work! I've tried so many times, they just make you sick and you lay in agony. I took a bottle of sleeping pills and refused to go to the ER because I knew the staff, for some reason I couldn't swallow it eat for 3 days, felt like my throat was swollen. Did that happen to you? It was weird. It's a horrible way to go and I'll never try that again!