deadpornstarr!
fated to pretend
- May 20, 2026
- 17
i got woken up at 3am last night from a nightmare and now i feel all low energy.
ive just been laying in bed this entire morning . and twice now ive had this pain in the side of my tummy like im getting punched from the inside , i think maybe my body is trying to ctb on its own accord lol -v-
it feels so frustrating to have so many artsy/creative daydreams that i want to act on but just ... i have no energy . at all recently -v- . im so useless with it
considering napping but then i'll be up late tonight and i dont want *that*....
im getting so tired of this all honestly . i wish i wasnt so cowardly , so i could just quit it already . but im too scared of missing out on what the future might be , even if theres no path i can see to a pleasant one .
ive just been laying in bed this entire morning . and twice now ive had this pain in the side of my tummy like im getting punched from the inside , i think maybe my body is trying to ctb on its own accord lol -v-
it feels so frustrating to have so many artsy/creative daydreams that i want to act on but just ... i have no energy . at all recently -v- . im so useless with it
considering napping but then i'll be up late tonight and i dont want *that*....
im getting so tired of this all honestly . i wish i wasnt so cowardly , so i could just quit it already . but im too scared of missing out on what the future might be , even if theres no path i can see to a pleasant one .
