Venting Angry

[hopeless08]

I feel so alone. I just need to go this is torture. It's not fair, I really don't understand why I have to go through this pain time and time again. I'm convinced there is some kind of curse on me because it's impossible that every time I'd get better , feeling good and started making excited plans, every time something good was about to happen in my life, everything would come crushing down. Hope is such a cruel thing, it angers me that good people are the ones that have to suffer all the time. I hate this world I hate the universe for being so cruel. I have cried so many tears that I didn't have anymore, haven't cried in months but for some reason today I'm bawling. I use to pray everyday and night for god to help me , expecting some kind of answer but it never came and I don't believe anymore. I just want to go so badly this is torture for us , we can't live and we can't die. I'm just so desperate, tired , angry ,lonely and heartbroken.

 

[FuneralCry]

It certainly is so cruel how people have to suffer so much in this existence with no straightforward way to just die in peace. I do understand that it's torturous and dreadful feeling trapped here, I hate how existence doesn't come with an permanent offswitch to just find peace from all the suffering.

 

[Blue Elephant]

I'm sorry @hopeless08! : (

Is there something that you enjoy? Do you have any hobbies? If you do then maybe you could find people with similar interest.

 

[hopeless08]

I'm sorry @hopeless08! : (

Is there something that you enjoy? Do you have any hobbies? If you do then maybe you could find people with similar interest.

With this depression it's impossible to enjoy anything. I wish I did have some interest in something but It's like I don't care about anything anymore.

With this depression it's impossible to enjoy anything. I wish I did have some interest in something but It's like I don't care about anything anymore.

Thank you for trying to help

 

[Blue Elephant]

Yeah, I know how it feels. I'm sorry! : (

For me enjoyable things are meh, but what else is there to do!? : /