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Vegetale

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May 30, 2022
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I posted another post about my plan, but in short, to kill myself with CO, I need a driver's license because the car is the only tight, sealed place where I could kill myself; I can't do it at home or anywhere else. However, I do need a driver's license. Mine seems like a well-orchestrated plan, but what happens if I don't get a license? I won't kill myself because I admit I'm a coward and don't have the courage to hang myself or slit my throat. However, if I can't get a license, I have to consider alternatives even if they don't exist, otherwise I'd live a slave to my own life and live hell, hoping to die in my sleep. One thing I've thought about is that I should wait for my parents to die so I can have the house all to myself and do what I want, but how long will it be? 10 years? I've thought about hydrogen sulfide, like wrestler Hana Kimura, but how can it be made with household ingredients? And is it less painful than CO? I really don't know what to do. In fact, when I go to take the driving test for my license, I get scared, but it's not the fear of driving and having an accident, it's the fear of what will happen if I don't get my license, and this It makes shit me in the pants. I'm pathetic, sorry.
 
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2muchpain2

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Feb 27, 2025
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i looked up hydrogen sulfide and it looks easy to make with ingredients that are easy to get. how can it be so easy?
you don't need a license to just sit in a car, so maybe you can just go out to any car that might be available to you? sorry if that sounds stupid.
 
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vetinari

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Sep 8, 2025
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I posted another post about my plan, but in short, to kill myself with CO, I need a driver's license because the car is the only tight, sealed place where I could kill myself; I can't do it at home or anywhere else. However, I do need a driver's license. Mine seems like a well-orchestrated plan, but what happens if I don't get a license? I won't kill myself because I admit I'm a coward and don't have the courage to hang myself or slit my throat. However, if I can't get a license, I have to consider alternatives even if they don't exist, otherwise I'd live a slave to my own life and live hell, hoping to die in my sleep. One thing I've thought about is that I should wait for my parents to die so I can have the house all to myself and do what I want, but how long will it be? 10 years? I've thought about hydrogen sulfide, like wrestler Hana Kimura, but how can it be made with household ingredients? And is it less painful than CO? I really don't know what to do. In fact, when I go to take the driving test for my license, I get scared, but it's not the fear of driving and having an accident, it's the fear of what will happen if I don't get my license, and this It makes shit me in the pants. I'm pathetic, sorry.
I also planned on going the CO route but then I found out about SN and that, at least to me, seems like the best way out. Kind of easy to acquire, no complicated preparations, and death happens fairly quickly and its almost peaceful.
 
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2muchpain2

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Feb 27, 2025
255
I also planned on going the CO route but then I found out about SN and that, at least to me, seems like the best way out. Kind of easy to acquire, no complicated preparations, and death happens fairly quickly and its almost peaceful.
it is so hard to get through.
 
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Dejected 55

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May 7, 2025
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Why do you need a license? And how do you have a car if you don't have a license?

You don't have to drive it anywhere... you just have to be inside it.
 
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Vegetale

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May 30, 2022
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i looked up hydrogen sulfide and it looks easy to make with ingredients that are easy to get. how can it be so easy?
you don't need a license to just sit in a car, so maybe you can just go out to any car that might be available to you? sorry if that sounds stupid.
Don't worry Bro, In my situation, having a shitty family, right now I don't have a car, my father doesn't drive because he's schizophrenic, my mother has never had one, the only one who has one is my brother, but he takes it to work and comes back once a month, and he's as vigilant as a fucking war general. Only once did he park the car in the garage and I went in, but out of fear I then left, but I admit today that I regretted that. So in short, yes, to do something so stupid I need a license, only in my exceptional case. At least I'm lucky enough to live in a small town where if I disappear, no one wonders what happened to me, so I'm not afraid of anyone finding out.
Why do you need a license? And how do you have a car if you don't have a license?

You don't have to drive it anywhere... you just have to be inside it.
In my situation, having a shitty family, right now I don't have a car, my father doesn't drive because he's schizophrenic, my mother has never had one, the only one who has one is my brother, but he takes it to work and comes back once a month, and he's as vigilant as a fucking war general. Only once did he park the car in the garage and I went in, but out of fear I then left, but I admit today that I regretted that. So in short, yes, to do something so stupid I need a license, only in my exceptional case. At least I'm lucky enough to live in a small town where if I disappear, no one wonders what happened to me, so I'm not afraid of anyone finding out.
 
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Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
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In my situation, having a shitty family, right now I don't have a car, my father doesn't drive because he's schizophrenic, my mother has never had one, the only one who has one is my brother, but he takes it to work and comes back once a month, and he's as vigilant as a fucking war general. Only once did he park the car in the garage and I went in, but out of fear I then left, but I admit today that I regretted that. So in short, yes, to do something so stupid I need a license, only in my exceptional case. At least I'm lucky enough to live in a small town where if I disappear, no one wonders what happened to me, so I'm not afraid of anyone finding out.
That still confuses me... because if you get a license you still wouldn't have a car, based on what you said... so if you don't have easy access to a car that seems like the problem... and if you had access to a car, the license wouldn't be necessary.
 
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strawberry931

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Aug 23, 2025
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Having a license isn't what makes a car drivable. As long as you have the key and it runs then take the car somewhere and do the speed limit on your way.
 
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Vegetale

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May 30, 2022
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That still confuses me... because if you get a license you still wouldn't have a car, based on what you said... so if you don't have easy access to a car that seems like the problem... and if you had access to a car, the license wouldn't be necessary.
you're right, even having a car is a problem, I'm a real idiot, a failure
 
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UltimateTrip

Member
Jul 12, 2023
50
you're right, even having a car is a problem, I'm a real idiot, a failure
You might rent a car and drive somewhere not to be easily found if that's THE method you want to use. Otherwise, you might want to consider other methods.
 

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