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Blackjack

Blackjack

I’ll be watching...
Aug 6, 2019
777
And the questions begin. Lmfao. Best of luck. You may undergo shock as you discover and open that can of worms. Brace yourself. Consider yourself forewarned.

Huh? I read about Apollo in the link I sent. Is there more to the story?
 
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Nephis

Nephis

ā€œDeath should take me while I am in the mood.ā€
Sep 3, 2018
281
I still exist sadly enough
 
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omoidarui

omoidarui

ĘøĢµĢ”ÓœĢµĢØĢ„Ę·
Apr 30, 2019
995
thx for bumping this in time for my !!! one year anniversary !!!! :)):ahhha::haha::halo::devil::halo::haha::ahhha::)) im officially an old member
 
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Echoko

Member
Apr 30, 2019
17
thx for bumping this in time for my !!! one year anniversary !!!! :)):ahhha::haha::halo::devil::halo::haha::ahhha::)) im officially an old member
I noticed today was my "cake day" as well... Such a surreal feeling. For better or worse, we're still here, trying to figure this shit out..... Hugs to you. Happy one year! :love::heart:
 
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itsamadworld

itsamadworld

i wanna die somewhere like up there
Mar 15, 2020
410
Same here. I come here when I'm feeling like a piece of shit, and slink away when I realize that I'm an entitled little cunt who's complaining about his tiny problems. I fail to CTB because I'm also a coward, wait a few months, and the cycle repeats.
why do I think this will be me....oh please , self, let me slink away when i become too much of a cunt...thank you universe. I would appreciate it...
 
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andy69

Experienced
May 23, 2019
292
I'm still here after a year. I am still very depressed and hopeless.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
Still here a year and a half later. I've seen people come and go in that time. It's a little life all of it's own within the wider regret starting 2004 when I should have been on a forum of a different kind. So really a year and halfs nothing to me but once again I'm left behind. Time waits for no man. What good it does learning that after the fact I don't know. I can't believe I didn't know that then. My stupidity and laziness makes me want to end it everyday. Btw love what RM5998 said. If people list their faults themselves saves me having to
 
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akrasia

akrasia

-hugs-
Feb 11, 2020
153
It's sad to see members on this thread with their name crossed out. Also some who haven't logged on in a while.
 
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Csmith8827

Csmith8827

Strength.
Oct 26, 2019
986
That's actually a really good thing. It means this website is doing it's job and getting people to safety. I don't know about you but I'm in a terrible situation and need an exit asap.
 
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autumnal

Enlightened
Feb 4, 2020
1,950
almost all old members are gone​

iu

almost all
old members
are gone

iu

Almost all
old members
are gone.
iu
iu


:tongue:
 
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RainAndSadness

RainAndSadness

Administrator
Jun 12, 2018
2,189
2018 gang unite.
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,359
It's just the nature of the beast sadly. In some ways it's good, people have either found peace or recovered enough to not need or want to be here. Some people grow out of it as well. Many reasons why people don't stick around.
 
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Slow85

Member
Feb 29, 2020
79
That sounds terrible. One of the reasons I don't interact with people here by PMs is that I don't want to get attached to anyone. Still, even without knowing anyone here, seeing goodbye posts from members is always very depressing.

I don't reply to goodbye posts for this very reason. I don't want to have interaction or be the last person someone talks too in this situation. Although I want to end my life - I can't bare the thought of not being able to help someone (part of parcel of my make up and my career I think )
 
Letmego. Please

Letmego. Please

Wizard
Nov 18, 2018
619
I'm still hanging around like an old eggy fart...
 
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Pallf

I'm tired
May 27, 2018
373
Some of us old people are still here. I do feel a twinge of sadness when I see a crossed out name that I used to talk to, but I understand that it's inevitable. Still hurts however
 
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MajorDude

Member
Aug 20, 2018
14
Still here but sooner or later I will die so after all every year I am closer and closer to death :)
 
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darkhorse256

darkhorse256

Student
Mar 10, 2020
112
I can only wish they felt peace before they left.
 
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Nephis

Nephis

ā€œDeath should take me while I am in the mood.ā€
Sep 3, 2018
281
I've come back how is everyone?
 
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