All I want to do is sleep

[cherrypitlover03]

I just dropped out of college for the third time and quit my shitty part time job I had been working at for barely enough because I just don't want to do anything at all. Everything is exhausting and uncomfortable. I know I'll never be able to provide for myself because I just hate having to wake up and apply myself. Anyone else just wish they could bed rot for a living??

 

[qewpie]

if it's comfortable to bed rot just do it. now im forced to bed rot against my will and it's not comfortable

 

[melonpan]

If I could get paid to rot in bed without any worries, any responsibilities, that'd be great! Personally, the only reason why I do that is because I'm trying to escape reality

 

[Hollowman]

If only LDARing ( Laying Down And Rotting) was a profession I'd be rich.

 

[lavenderlilylies]

I can't sleep on my back, the thing that usually gets me up isn't that I was well rested, it's both my shoulders aching from laying on them for too long. I don't think I have ever had enough sleep.

 

[Santana Idaho]

Just this morning, I was having trouble getting out of bed. I realized that I just don't want life to start yet. I stay up because I don't want tomorrow to become today. Then my bones, joints, and ligaments start hurting. My CPAP runs out of water, and I get the burning smell. I need to take my medication. I need to give the dog her medication. I have to try to work because I'm still alive, unfortunately, and I need money for my health insurance (which I need so I don't have to taper off of Pristiq), my car insurance, and my phone bill.

Is not killing myself procrastination? Or is it that I'm not ready?

I think most of us ask that question.

 

[dontwakemeup]

If I had family, I would quit my job and apply for disability and rest. Since I'm alone, I had no choice. I completed college twice and work, not because I wanted to, I didn't want to be homeless again! What i found was college kept me busy and my depression wasn't as bad. My job keeps me busy, but I'm in so much pain most of the time that I just cry! If I can offer some advice, I would say try to keep busy if you can. Try a new hobby. If you like online games, try that. Trust to find someone to keep you busy or you keep sinking into that black hole and it's very difficult to get out. Best wishes my friend