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cowlover1252

cowlover1252

Student
Aug 21, 2026
102
19

A short life which has felt so long...
 
lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Слёзы на щеках
Jun 11, 2026
687
I'll turn 23 in October, but I really don't want to
 
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PeaceSeeker83

Specialist
Jul 23, 2026
335
Why does it matter if someone "has their whole life ahead of them"…? it just seems like such a worn out lazy cliche when people say this about anyone considering ctb at a young age…

People's problems don't magically change form, based on being some arbitrary age…

I can honestly say it would have been better if I died suddenly in my sleep as a kid or teen. Yet even if society could see how my life has panned out since that time, many people would still consider it a big tragedy that I didn't get to experience adulthood…

Why exactly? What's so amazing or important about crappy adulthood, that it was so vitally important that I get here?

The tragedy is that I've had to trudge through early/mid adulthood knowing I don't value any of it, and I've seen countless people on here who have expressed similar sentiments.

I actually feel great relief when I see a suffering young person on here who has escaped their pain. Because not only have they escaped their current pain, but very likely several decades more of it… and they can't miss out on any theoretical happy life that some people imagine they might have had.

Plus, it's just discriminatory to diminish or downplay the suffering of someone simply because they happen to be young.
Most human beings get brainwashed by the whole "American dream", "white picket fence", kids and marriage thing, being competitive and moving up the ladder unfortunately. Then there are the "golden years" which for many is just a breaking down body.

They live fake lives and project their insecurities on to others.
 
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macaroni2445

macaroni2445

it’s the pot telling the kettle to log off
Dec 28, 2025
24
i turn 19 next month!

i've found that the older people tend to use the forums more whereas younger folk are usually in the chatrooms.
there's chat rooms?!?
 
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monotine

monotine

Member
Jan 7, 2026
43
im 22. i didn't think id make it past 18. i don't want to continue living
 
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aeoliandawn

aeoliandawn

a new dawn?
Oct 10, 2023
75
I'm 19. Been attempting suicide since I was 11 and self-harming since 14.
Weird right? Tried ending my life before self harming, usually it's the contrary
 
no.one

no.one

Member
Oct 1, 2024
48
What is the average age range for people here? I will be 39 next month.

I seen this documentary yesterday about our website. It said most people are teenagers and early 20s who ctb...

Thoughts?
Just turned 40 in July
 
alilyofthevalley

alilyofthevalley

they/them disappointment
Nov 3, 2025
15
23
 
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HNR_

HNR_

Close to a new start...or meet my end
May 21, 2026
254
24, supposed to turn 25 this October but I won't
Should CTB before mid-September if everything goes well

Also, this would've worked better as a poll lol
 
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