Venting after death? (+ ramble)

[cyanidekitty]

.i really hope theres more to life for me. as in once i finally die, i would love to start fresh but the only thing that worries me is that i wont control where im born & who im born to. im also upset at the fact that i wont have the same music taste that i have now >:(((

i really hope reincarnation is a real thing..for me atleast. i dont want a heaven or hell. and i dont want God to be real because why would he send people to hell just for not believing in him when theres so many things out here.

i just absolutely yearn to know what happens after death. where do you go? on a different planet? theres a fuck ton of planets out there. you're telling me all of them just go to waste?

all this thinking just adds on to why i want to die but i also feel selfish for wanting to die because like ive stated before, my life isnt necessarily bad. its just my mental state. it gets absolutely exhausting (like most.)

ok ramble over

 

[Enyan]

I really, really hope there's more to death than just eternal nothingness too! I want to be reborn or get isekai'd into a great adventure or end up in a different dimension where my life will play out the way it was supposed to be. ;;

I don't think it's selfish for you to want to die, by the way. But still, idk if you're young, but I was extremely close to CTB in my teens and early twenties and shit got better after that, so unless you're totally sure I'd always err on the side of waiting stuff out.

(...For context, I'm only here now because a medical issue screwed me over, otherwise I'd still be doing well)