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spiders.in.my.head

spiders.in.my.head

chronically stupid
Dec 21, 2025
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So, uh, whoops? I'm fairly certain I accidentally told a friend group yesterday that I had actively planned to commit suicide earlier this year. In my defense, I was drunk and sleep deprived. Now, this would be fine, if it were only my friends cause they can't really do anything about it, but my sister was there too. I'm worried she will tell my mother, in which case, I will have to awkwardly explain things I would rather not talk about and probably be pretty closely kept an eye on for a while.

I hope my sister doesn't tell on me. Fuck, that would suck.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,189
So, uh, whoops? I'm fairly certain I accidentally told a friend group yesterday that I had actively planned to commit suicide earlier this year. In my defense, I was drunk and sleep deprived. Now, this would be fine, if it were only my friends cause they can't really do anything about it, but my sister was there too. I'm worried she will tell my mother, in which case, I will have to awkwardly explain things I would rather not talk about and probably be pretty closely kept an eye on for a while.

I hope my sister doesn't tell on me. Fuck, that would suck.
I told my manager colleague and several other people at my company that I'm suicidal under the effect of benzo 😂 and it created a good scene
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
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Being drunk and lack of sleep is a good excuse. I'm worried about the same thing : speaking about my suicidality "accidently". But I don't drink and I don't have any friends, so it should be okay.
 
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burninghill

burninghill

Arcanist
Dec 2, 2025
467
Semi related. One time my then best friend was fixing some kind of virus in my computer with free rein of my files under my supervision.

He found one with a title made up of just numbers and letters, I didn't know what it was either. I thought it must be related to the virus. He opened it and it was a 'Guide to Suicide' that I'd downloaded from here. He didn't ask any questions and nothing came of it haha.

You'll probably be fine. Theres a lot of excuses you can come up with.
 
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UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Trial Mod
May 4, 2025
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Being drunk and lack of sleep is a good excuse.
This. Being drunk doesn't mean you'll start telling the truth. Alcohol isn't some miracle "truth-telling" substance, it simply lowers your inhibitions between your thoughts and the statements you make/actions. All the impulsive and weird thoughts come out regardless of how true they are. I've seen people on alcohol start talking about aliens in the walls and it isn't like they're on some drug-induced psychosis either, it's just all the weird thoughts we casually have coming out. Lots of people get the impulsive thought to jump off a bridge (see "Call of the Void"), alcohol just makes one more likely to say it out loud, or even do it. It doesn't mean it's something someone is actively considering. As @unluckysadness said, you being intoxicated at the time of the admission is a very good defense against actual hospitalization.
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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This. Being drunk doesn't mean you'll start telling the truth. Alcohol isn't some miracle "truth-telling" substance, it simply lowers your inhibitions between your thoughts and the statements you make/actions. All the impulsive and weird thoughts come out regardless of how true they are. I've seen people on alcohol start talking about aliens in the walls and it isn't like they're on some drug-induced psychosis either, it's just all the weird thoughts we casually have coming out. Lots of people get the impulsive thought to jump off a bridge (see "Call of the Void"), alcohol just makes one more likely to say it out loud, or even do it. It doesn't mean it's something someone is actively considering. As @unluckysadness said, you being intoxicated at the time of the admission is a very good defense against actual hospitalization.
Alcohol is crazy substance, i have drunk texted a lot of people, boys and girls. Next morning i used to have no recollection of what all i did the previous night. 😂
 

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