Abandoned by the world

[rer]

I come from China, and everything starts with the Chinese college entrance exam, the Gaokao. My scores were average, but my parents were quite satisfied with them. I wasn't, so I wanted to get into a really good graduate school. After that, I didn't allow myself to make mistakes and pursued perfection in everything. Then one day, everything changed. I remembered a scam call from many years ago, and I was afraid that I had leaked personal information during that incident, and I've been trying to deal with it ever since. I kept doubting my memories, aiming to be flawless, and looking back, I realized I had developed OCD and anxiety... I tried a lot of methods in the end, but none of them worked.