NSFW A poll for actively suicidal folks and sexual practices

[kcon1243]

Trying to gauge how sexual other suicidal folks are with regard to partnered sexual activity... does being suicidal make you give zero fucks about sex, and therefore you have none, or do you give so little fucks you fuck hard?

Spill the tea.

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

Trying to gauge how sexual other suicidal folks are with regard to sexual activity... does being suicidal make you give zero fucks about sex, and therefore you have none, or do you give so little fucks you fuck hard?

Spill the tea.

this immediately came to mind

 

[livefastdieyoung]

now who put down 21+...

 

[Dejected 55]

I haven't had sex in over 22 years. Being unable to ever be in a relationship with a woman is why I'm planning on killing myself in the first place.

 

[kcon1243]

now who put down 21+...

That would be me, poll creator. Was hoping someone would match my level of zero fucks given but so far I seem to be the outlier. In the last 80 days alone, I've had 22 partners and 50 fucks... my year body count

 

[livefastdieyoung]

That would be me, poll creator. Was hoping someone would match my level of zero fucks given but so far I seem to be the outlier. In the last 80 days alone, I've had 22 partners and 50 fucks... my year body count

you know what? hell yeah!

 

[usernamesarehard]

Trying to gauge how sexual other suicidal folks are with regard to partnered sexual activity... does being suicidal make you give zero fucks about sex, and therefore you have none, or do you give so little fucks you fuck hard?

Spill the tea.

I'm a pretty horny person, but I only have interest in having sex while in a relationship. But I'm also ugly and my ex dumped me earlier this year. I wish I could go back to when I had no sex drive.

 

[ManchildLoser]

That would be me, poll creator. Was hoping someone would match my level of zero fucks given but so far I seem to be the outlier. In the last 80 days alone, I've had 22 partners and 50 fucks... my year body count

With that high body count, why are you depressed? At least youre wanted.

 

[Anonymousa]

If we counting more than one time sexting online sexual relationships then it would be 4 for me in this last year. 1 if we don't count them. Me being suicidal probably makes me more horny as a way of coping but I am naturally slutty and unshameful anyways without the suicidalness so I have throughout my life done quite a bit of sexting. Probably would physically hooked up a lot in my life if I wasn't trapped by my family due to them being so overprotective of me.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I've had zero sexual partners before. I've only ever sexted dudes before. I'm in a relationship right now but my bf lives in a different country, so we can only do sexual stuff over video call or through sexting.

With that high body count, why are you depressed? At least youre wanted.

You do realize there's more to being depressed than just how much sex you've had, right? Plus, having a lot of sex doesn't mean that you are desired on a deeper level, let alone even desired at all. Some people will just have sex with you just because they want sex and you happen to be a readily available sexual partner.

 

[kcon1243]

With that high body count, why are you depressed? At least youre wanted.

Just being wanted for my genitals and being a good fuck is depressing and meaningless to me. Personally, it just reaffirms how life lacks any sort substance or point.

We're born, we live, we fuck, we're fucked, we die. Dumbest concept ever.

 

[kcon1243]

F

I haven't had sex in over 22 years. Being unable to ever be in a relationship with a woman is why I'm planning on killing myself in the first place.

Fwiw, I was in a 20 year relationship with a woman and shit is overrated. At the end of the day, nobody is as who they make themselves out to be... even someone who claims to love you, someone you think you "know," who you've spent over 7,000 days with consecutively living in the same space, fucking, talking daily, splitting bills and household tasks with, loving, etc. Traveled to over 50 countries with said ex-wife, had a house, pets, financial stability... and honestly, I think most people are just putting on a show. Even if someone seems authentic, you're only seeing the part of them they want you to see, people put on fronts. Nothing is ever as it seems.

 

[Dejected 55]

F

Fwiw, I was in a 20 year relationship with a woman and shit is overrated. At the end of the day, nobody is as who they make themselves out to be... even someone who claims to love you, someone you think you "know," who you've spent over 7,000 days with consecutively living in the same space, fucking, talking daily, splitting bills and household tasks with, loving, etc. Traveled to over 50 countries with said ex-wife, had a house, pets, financial stability... and honestly, I think most people are just putting on a show. Even if someone seems authentic, you're only seeing the part of them they want you to see, people put on fronts. Nothing is ever as it seems.

That's like going up to a homeless person and saying... Houses are overrated. Stuff breaks and you have to have insurance and it costs money to fix things and there's property taxes and you have to mow your yard... you should be thankful to be living on the streets without all that responsibility of taking care of a home!

Or... telling someone starving... Most food is overrated. Processed foods are bad for you and it's hard to get quality produce. Junk food is the cheapest but it'll kill you faster than starving... so you're lucky because you can't get food poisoning and stay up all night vomiting when you have nothing to eat!

Being in bad relationships must suck... I imagine... but at least you had a chance, at least someone liked you at least a little bit and for a while and there were some good times in there or you wouldn't have been in the relationship at all. No offense, but people saying "relationships aren't all great" is so not on target for those of us who have never been in one at all.

 

[kcon1243]

That's like going up to a homeless person and saying... Houses are overrated. Stuff breaks and you have to have insurance and it costs money to fix things and there's property taxes and you have to mow your yard... you should be thankful to be living on the streets without all that responsibility of taking care of a home!

Or... telling someone starving... Most food is overrated. Processed foods are bad for you and it's hard to get quality produce. Junk food is the cheapest but it'll kill you faster than starving... so you're lucky because you can't get food poisoning and stay up all night vomiting when you have nothing to eat!

Being in bad relationships must suck... I imagine... but at least you had a chance, at least someone liked you at least a little bit and for a while and there were some good times in there or you wouldn't have been in the relationship at all. No offense, but people saying "relationships aren't all great" is so not on target for those of us who have never been in one at all.

Having a roof over your head and access to food are basic human needs... sexual relationships and partnerships, not so much.

You can die without food and shelter, you cannot die from not having a sexual relationship with another human.

I can see how you might glorify relationships, not having had one, but it really isn't on par with the examples you listed.

Apologies if my comment came across as insensitive. Its just that having had many relationships over my lifespan, I can tell you from my experience, relationships aren't the pinnacle of life.

People suck... and not in the fun way.

 

[derekWest]

Having a roof over your head and access to food are basic human needs... sexual relationships and partnerships, not so much.

You can die without food and shelter, you cannot die from not having a sexual relationship with another human.

I can see how you might glorify relationships, not having had one, but it really isn't on par with the examples you listed.

Apologies if my comment came across as insensitive. Its just that having had many relationships over my lifespan, I can tell you from my experience, relationships aren't the pinnacle of life.

People suck... and not in the fun way.

Why living if you have no relations ? Any human became crazy without relation.

 

[kcon1243]

Why living if you have no relations ? Any human became crazy without relation.

I thought we were talking about sexual relations? The person said "being unable to ever be in a relationship with a woman is why I'm planning on killing myself in the first place" and I said sexual relationships are overrated.

People can go an entire lifetimes without sexual relationships and be completely satisfied. Many people are voluntarily single until the day they die, and they like it that way. Asexuality is a thing too, and asexuals aren't going crazy.

I was in no way suggesting people should isolate and be hermits, but I was simply trying to say that partnerships aren't all they are cracked out to be... not having had a lover isn't the end of the world, and in fact some people are better off not having lovers.

 

[Dejected 55]

Houses and food aren't that great. Minimal nutrients, water, and a cardboard box technically satisfy all the requirements of living so why complain if you're homeless and hungry?

Oh, and medicine... That's not a need either. Do you have pain? Are you sick? Those are natural things, suck it up... Medicine and doctors aren't a basic need, and you won't automatically die without having access to medical care... so don't whine if you're homeless and hungry and sick because having somewhere to live, variety of food to eat, and healthcare aren't that great!

I mean, that's absurd right?

Even food and water aren't "required"... no specific person has a right to live, do they? I mean, we say "right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness" in our Declaration of Independence for the United States... but we've just discussed that happiness is an option as is liberty... so who says you have a right to live?

Not everyone means it in a harmful way... but telling lonely people that they should be fine with it because it isn't necessary to have a relationship to live is just about the cruelest thing you could say to them.

And for what it's worth... Going without food and water will eventually kill you... but being homeless in and of itself isn't guaranteed to kill you. People survived generations living outside in nature long ago or we wouldn't be here... but please don't go telling homeless people that they don't need a house or that it isn't all its cracked up to be because no one ever died being homeless.

Also... people do die of loneliness. You can find studies about this online. We are social creatures.

 

[kcon1243]

Houses and food aren't that great. Minimal nutrients, water, and a cardboard box technically satisfy all the requirements of living so why complain if you're homeless and hungry?

Oh, and medicine... That's not a need either. Do you have pain? Are you sick? Those are natural things, suck it up... Medicine and doctors aren't a basic need, and you won't automatically die without having access to medical care... so don't whine if you're homeless and hungry and sick because having somewhere to live, variety of food to eat, and healthcare aren't that great!

I mean, that's absurd right?

Even food and water aren't "required"... no specific person has a right to live, do they? I mean, we say "right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness" in our Declaration of Independence for the United States... but we've just discussed that happiness is an option as is liberty... so who says you have a right to live?

Not everyone means it in a harmful way... but telling lonely people that they should be fine with it because it isn't necessary to have a relationship to live is just about the cruelest thing you could say to them.

And for what it's worth... Going without food and water will eventually kill you... but being homeless in and of itself isn't guaranteed to kill you. People survived generations living outside in nature long ago or we wouldn't be here... but please don't go telling homeless people that they don't need a house or that it isn't all its cracked up to be because no one ever died being homeless.

Also... people do die of loneliness. You can find studies about this online. We are social creatures.

I absolutely did not say the person should be fine with not having a relationship. I just said that relationships can be overrated and things aren't often as they seem so maybe they arent missing out on as much as they think. I think you are really over reading into my words.

People can die of loneliness, homelessness, starvation, access to healthcare, anything really... but you cannot die from not having a sexual partner. That's all im saying. Be social, have friendships, make connections, thats what's important... the hype over having a partner, finding a lover, dreaming a forever companion, its a lot of propaganda to honestly keep people procreating.

... but with overpopulation at an all time high, procreating and having a mate doesnt have many benefits. Relationships have legal and financial challenges and for many people, they discover the gain isn't as hyped as its made out to be.

Aside from my sanity, relationships have cost me a lot of time, money and stability that I could have acquired and spent better on my own.

 

[rocksnrocks]

That would be me, poll creator. Was hoping someone would match my level of zero fucks given but so far I seem to be the outlier. In the last 80 days alone, I've had 22 partners and 50 fucks... my year body count

in the past year i've had 11 sexual partners, not crazy but still a lot. i think it's a mix of my hyper sexuality with my bipolar and being incredibly suicidal that makes me give no fucks

 

[WrathfulGloom32]

Never had, not related to suicidality; I just don't feel it. However because of this and my attitude towards everything (not just sexual stuff) , the glorification of sex in media and sexual stuff being all over the place, it DOES trigger me because I DON'T CARE, I'm not repulsed by the activity existing, I am repulsed by doing it, I can't justify it without me ending up used up by someone and the way people talk about it is made to make me think like I should care and wish for it, I don't. (And even in the actual forums for people who are like me, it's the same)


(The rant doesn't mean to be about what is talked about here, because most things talked about on this forum are discussed in a mature way , a logical way 90% of the time and obviously I can understand it, I'm not an oaf)

 

[sevennn]

being a virgin isnt a good reason to suicide imo. esp at such a young age where its literally normal to be one. its just throwing a whole life away for no good reason... just wanted to say that. go watch some interviews about ppls first times on youtube. a lot of ppl say they were like 20 smth. 25, 30 and on even. why should someone die for something like this. idk such sentiments on this forum shock me. maybe just me

 

[Lyn]

Being suicidal definitely lowers my libido.
But I still have sex with my partner.
Not like an obligation, I just feel better when I make someone happy and make them have good sensations. I get joy out of it.

Although my partner tries to reciprocate and try to make me feel good, but I just don't really need it.
I am already fulfilled at that moment.

 

[kcon1243]

being a virgin isnt a good reason to suicide imo. esp at such a young age where its literally normal to be one. its just throwing a whole life away for no good reason... just wanted to say that. go watch some interviews about ppls first times on youtube. a lot of ppl say they were like 20 smth. 25, 30 and on even. why should someone die for something like this. idk such sentiments on this forum shock me. maybe just me

share the same sentiment. if being a virgin is your motivation for suicide, go touch some grass or something. honestly, just hire a damn sex worker... could be really helpful to actually see how underwhelming and not life shattering sex is. at the end of the day, the way one self pleasures can often be way more satisfying than partnered sexual activity.

Being suicidal definitely lowers my libido.
But I still have sex with my partner.
Not like an obligation, I just feel better when I make someone happy and make them have good sensations. I get joy out of it.

Although my partner tries to reciprocate and try to make me feel good, but I just don't really need it.
I am already fulfilled at that moment.

just wanted to chime in and say that much of my motivation to engage sexually is also because I like making others happy and enjoy making people feel good. big on compersion as opposed to primal urges of physical self gratification.

 

[Mr. Snrub]

being a virgin isnt a good reason to suicide imo. esp at such a young age where its literally normal to be one. its just throwing a whole life away for no good reason... just wanted to say that. go watch some interviews about ppls first times on youtube. a lot of ppl say they were like 20 smth. 25, 30 and on even. why should someone die for something like this. idk such sentiments on this forum shock me. maybe just me

You're right, being a virgin isn't a good reason to suicide. If that was a person's literal reason I wouldn't understand it either but I don't usually see people past their teens that are that hung up on the sex part. What I can understand, and what I see more of online, is people desperately wanting a relationship, becoming fixated on it and in turn becoming suicidal due to a failure to ever find someone.

I'm a 30+ virgin myself but to be fair I never made an effort to find anyone. The virgin part doesn't bother me. If my curiosity ever gets the best of me I can always hire an escort. I do wonder what it would be like to be loved by someone romantically though. Is it a fundamentally different experience to being loved by family/friends? I don't know, but looking at it from the outside it seems like it is. It generally becomes the primary relationship.

It wouldn't be the reason I ctb because a problem like that is usually the tip of an iceberg (I know it is in my case) but still I get it becoming a fixation.

 

[Eriktf]

its been 4-5 years, dont miss it, think its good a but overrated
dont like to be intimate with people so i dont try at all to get layed

 

[Forveleth]

I do not have sex but that is because I just hate people. It is way too much effort scrolling through apps to find a hookup and dealing with the ghosting and bullshit. I do jerk off almost daily though.

 

[kagebunshin]

if being a virgin is your motivation for suicide, go touch some grass or something. honestly, just hire a damn sex worker... could be really helpful to actually see how underwhelming and not life shattering sex is. at the end of the day, the way one self pleasures can often be way more satisfying than partnered sexual activity.

With respect, I think this says more about you and your personal perspective than the reality of the matter.

 

[EmptyBottle]

BTW, I wasn't actively seeking CTB recently, but there were times where I actively seeked for non existence.

 

[kcon1243]

With respect, I think this says more about you and your personal perspective than the reality of the matter.

The only person who has your back at the end of the day is you. Nobody knows you (and your body) better than you, yourself.

No shame in paying for sex... oldest profession in the world, after all.

Definitely my opinion, yes, and just chiming in because I can safely say based on my ample experience that having a partnered sexual encounter isn't the be all end all.

 

[............]

0 partners.
0 sex.

This and every year of my existence prior. But I don't want that to be my legacy if I die because that's not why I want to die, at least not THE reason. Sex simply doesn't compare to my longing for wanting to find someone who likes me forever.