4 kids but struggling in my head.

[everydaythesame]

I am a male with 4 beautiful kids aged 22, 9, 6, 2 but am really struggling. I hate life and the routine of life, its shit. Iove my kids and pay for them but i never feel happy. I feel so shit, so guilty for feeling like this. I ruminate and convince myself they will be better off without me. Nobody has any idea how i feel because i mask it so well.

 

[an alien]

I dont have any way to help of course but I can offer you a very sincere- damn that fuckin sucks and I'm so sorry you find yourself in this position. It's hard enough to mask a deep pain around adults let alone your own children. There is no chance they'd be better off without you though, thats the pain talking.

 

[cedartree]

Jesus man this really sucks I'm sorry

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

An Adderall scrip might give you a little motivational boost. Also maybe getting all of your children involved in something together like a hobby, sport, side business or something else that both they and you can all get into could breathe some new excitement in your life.

But no matter what, the bus can't stop for you. Taking youself out is simply not an option for you. You have children, so you have to find a a way. I wish you the utmost of luck.

 

[everydaythesame]

An Adderall scrip might give you a little motivational boost. Also maybe getting all of your children involved in something together like a hobby, sport, side business or something else that both they and you can all get into could breathe some new excitement in your life.

But no matter what, the bus can't stop for you. Taking youself out is simply not an option for you. You have children, so you have to find a a way. I wish you the utmost of luck.

Thanks for the advice, i will try.

I dont have any way to help of course but I can offer you a very sincere- damn that fuckin sucks and I'm so sorry you find yourself in this position. It's hard enough to mask a deep pain around adults let alone your own children. There is no chance they'd be better off without you though, thats the pain talking.

Thank you, i hear you.

 

[StaticCryBabye]

I don't have much advice to give, really but if that's genuinely the path you're taking, I just hope you'll love your kids unconditionally until the very end.

 

[Life'sA6itch]

I feel similarly, going through a routine, on a treadmill that I cannot get off of. I never asked to be here, but everyone says life is a gift if you let them. I hear you. I am like most of us here, also in misery and do not have the answer but I hear you.