Venting 296 Days

[SleepWell]

SN from IC will arrive on the 15th but I won't take it yet. I'm giving myself this year to maybe change my mind, to find something worth holding on to. Hah what a joke. Oh I know let's make this fun, vote on that poll! My decision is mine alone but let's see your guy's opinions!

 

[TapeMachine]

I don't know if it's a great idea to base a life or death decision on a poll taken by strangers. Nobody can fully understand what it is like to be you, nor can we know the way it feels to live your life from your personal lens. ❤

I do admire your commitment to taking your time with your decision instead of acting on impulse. I'm an incredibly impulsive person, but I'm trying to slow myself down this time. I've got my method now, but I'm waiting. For what, I don't know... But I know that every one of my past ctb attempts was executed on impulse, and not a damn one of them worked, clearly. Ha. I might as well try to do things differently this time. :)

Anyway, I'm sorry that your life has brought you to this point, but feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to. :)

 

[lost-unfound]

If you are looking for opinions from strangers, that tells me you shouldn't CTB at this time. Obviously it's not a decision to be taken lightly, and I think it's better to err on the side of not doing it if you have the slightest doubt at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

To be honest, I'm not really sure that including a poll is really appropriate for this site, as this is a site that respects suicide as being a personal decision that can only be made by the individual. I don't get what you are trying to achieve by including a poll, as after all only you are the one who knows if suicide is the right thing for yourself and other people aren't experiencing your life so they shouldn't have any say in it.

 

[Caoine01]

May I answer later?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I expect that you do actually have firm ideas yourself on what you want and I realise the poll isn't serious. Still- in my opinion- if you were serious about asking an internet forum on when you should kill yourself- my honest answer would be: maybe never but definitely prolongue the decision. In my opinion- suicide is a very personal journey- it's VERY troubling to me when people ask others whether they should do it. ESPECIALLY here because maybe they think they are more likely to get encouragement- as the poll proves though- the reverse is true. Most people here are pro- individual choice. I think most people hope that the individual is certain enough in their own reasoning power to make the decision themselves.

 

[SleepWell]

I don't know if it's a great idea to base a life or death decision on a poll taken by strangers. Nobody can fully understand what it is like to be you, nor can we know the way it feels to live your life from your personal lens. ❤

I do admire your commitment to taking your time with your decision instead of acting on impulse. I'm an incredibly impulsive person, but I'm trying to slow myself down this time. I've got my method now, but I'm waiting. For what, I don't know... But I know that every one of my past ctb attempts was executed on impulse, and not a damn one of them worked, clearly. Ha. I might as well try to do things differently this time. :)

Anyway, I'm sorry that your life has brought you to this point, but feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to. :)

Thank you for your response! I'm not going to base my decision of strangers votes of course I feel like that wouldnt be smart, I'm doing this out of genuine curiosity on how other people would react. I feel like I should have worded the poll better haha. I admire how you're able to reflect and I'm sorry that there are moments in your life that would drive you to finding an exit. I hope you have a peaceful day!

If you are looking for opinions from strangers, that tells me you shouldn't CTB at this time. Obviously it's not a decision to be taken lightly, and I think it's better to err on the side of not doing it if you have the slightest doubt at all.

Of course, thats why my loose limit is the end of the year! The poll shouldn't have been framed as if I'm asking people if I should ctb or not, it should have been asking the viewer itself if they would ctb or not I apologize for the confusion!

May I answer later?

Absolutely! I'm fixing the poll as well

To be honest, I'm not really sure that including a poll is really appropriate for this site, as this is a site that respects suicide as being a personal decision that can only be made by the individual. I don't get what you are trying to achieve by including a poll, as after all only you are the one who knows if suicide is the right thing for yourself and other people aren't experiencing your life so they shouldn't have any say in it.

Indeed, made this post in a rush and I really shouldn't have, I have no idea how to edit it so uhhh. It was more of a brain to hand miss input I wanted to ask how people views the philosophical question of CBT. Idk how to fix the poll but if the 3 answers are CBT, Believe in something and hope for the best, Absurdism. I have to clarify that I am NOT basing my decision off of strangers online that's my own decision and nothing will influence it but myself.

I expect that you do actually have firm ideas yourself on what you want and I realise the poll isn't serious. Still- in my opinion- if you were serious about asking an internet forum on when you should kill yourself- my honest answer would be: maybe never but definitely prolongue the decision. In my opinion- suicide is a very personal journey- it's VERY troubling to me when people ask others whether they should do it. ESPECIALLY here because maybe they think they are more likely to get encouragement- as the poll proves though- the reverse is true. Most people here are pro- individual choice. I think most people hope that the individual is certain enough in their own reasoning power to make the decision themselves.

As stated yes my decision is mine alone I feel as if that's glanced over and that's probably my own fault. Yes I have my firm ideas of myself I don't make impulse decisions that will seriously alter my life. Maybe I'll delete this post and create a new one or post a clarification lmao.

 

[SleepWell]

Right so I can't edit what I posted after a day, didn't know that new-ish member short time lurker but let's talk about the poll :)

"Don't base your decision off of strangers!"
CORRECT! It was never even considered to be part of my decision making.

"Why'd you even make the poll then?"
Darn brain and hands don't know how to coordinate sometimes. It's like this image!

What I ACTUALLY wanted to say is
In reference to "Deciding whether or not life is worth living is to answer the fundamental question in philosophy" would you the viewer decide to
1. CTB as there are no intrinsic reason and meaning to live (Nihilism)
2. Live on and make your OWN meaning despite there not being one in the first place or believe in something like a religion(Existentialism)
3. Accept that making a meaning to the meaningless doesn't make sense so instead one must rebel in the face of the absurd and keep on going (Absurdism)

I am very happy to see that a lot of you are supportive and extremely thoughtful making sure that I wasn't basing silly decisions from silly people on the internet. I'm proud to be part of this community :)

Fun fact! I've experienced life in the view point of 1 and 2 but to me 3 doesn't make sense.

Sleep well~

 

[ThisIsLife]

The fundamental in whether or not life is worth living is TIME.

We know life is short and what's next is eternal.