Save_Me_Mind
Member
- Sep 15, 2023
- 70
I hate it
I just want to be with my loved one, but it's gone. But for some reason, I feel as if I could get it back, as long as I keep striving, keep becoming better, doing what most cannot only for my love. I'm trying to grow, but why is it so hard to maintain self. Or no, it's hard to change, while breaking down. My mind has become fuzzy, not thinking right now or anymore. I love you, if you see this my love. I wish not to scare you, I want to be able to change where I don't scare you anymore. Please give me one more chance.
I want to stab myself in the heart incredibly badly. I don't care about hearing, "That's a terrible method", I believe it's romantic, so I don't mind.
My minds become corrupted, no longer logical, so when I'm very close to my lowest point that I can ever be, I come back here for some reason.
But it feels fake, I don't know what's real anymore. Everyone is selfish, myself included. I'm a teenager who feels way too old for all of this, too tired...
I want my love back, I want my best friend back, I want my friend back, I want to protect you and be there for anything. I want to see you grow old, and I hope to die at the same moment you do. But... it seems this is just a dream of mine, and since it's most likely not going to happen. I get closer and closer to fully departing this life. It's a % that builds up each time, and once it hits 100%, I won't be here anymore.
I love you my love
I just want to be with my loved one, but it's gone. But for some reason, I feel as if I could get it back, as long as I keep striving, keep becoming better, doing what most cannot only for my love. I'm trying to grow, but why is it so hard to maintain self. Or no, it's hard to change, while breaking down. My mind has become fuzzy, not thinking right now or anymore. I love you, if you see this my love. I wish not to scare you, I want to be able to change where I don't scare you anymore. Please give me one more chance.
I want to stab myself in the heart incredibly badly. I don't care about hearing, "That's a terrible method", I believe it's romantic, so I don't mind.
My minds become corrupted, no longer logical, so when I'm very close to my lowest point that I can ever be, I come back here for some reason.
But it feels fake, I don't know what's real anymore. Everyone is selfish, myself included. I'm a teenager who feels way too old for all of this, too tired...
I want my love back, I want my best friend back, I want my friend back, I want to protect you and be there for anything. I want to see you grow old, and I hope to die at the same moment you do. But... it seems this is just a dream of mine, and since it's most likely not going to happen. I get closer and closer to fully departing this life. It's a % that builds up each time, and once it hits 100%, I won't be here anymore.
I love you my love
