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Why are you crying Lain?
- Apr 24, 2023
- 141
had a terrible day. i'm feeling so shit and humiliated i dont even want to talk about it anymore. i just want to die.
i was coping with cigarretes but i cut myself the first time this year and then i put a soap bar inside a sock and beat myself up with it. i honestly would have gone outside and hanged myself right now, but the park is closed at this time and it's the only place with a small forest i could possibly hang with a little privacy and not get caught. maybe it'll be anyday now.. hopefully i won't live another day like this before it happens.
i was feeling so numb recently i couldn't even cry, but these days all i do is cry. i have been crying for an hour now, i think. my mom hates me. my brother hates me. at this point maybe even my cats hate me. i still can't stop crying.
i was watching this really good anime called orb: the movements of the earth.
a part of the anime really stood out to me, it was an episode titled "The fact that this world is far more beautiful than heaven". I really wanted to believe that. Isn't that phrase so beautiful?
i was coping with cigarretes but i cut myself the first time this year and then i put a soap bar inside a sock and beat myself up with it. i honestly would have gone outside and hanged myself right now, but the park is closed at this time and it's the only place with a small forest i could possibly hang with a little privacy and not get caught. maybe it'll be anyday now.. hopefully i won't live another day like this before it happens.
i was feeling so numb recently i couldn't even cry, but these days all i do is cry. i have been crying for an hour now, i think. my mom hates me. my brother hates me. at this point maybe even my cats hate me. i still can't stop crying.
i was watching this really good anime called orb: the movements of the earth.
a part of the anime really stood out to me, it was an episode titled "The fact that this world is far more beautiful than heaven". I really wanted to believe that. Isn't that phrase so beautiful?