Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚
Student
- Oct 8, 2024
- 189
Today started great.
I had my session with my counselor at 11 am and we discussed things that we were grateful for and our dreams to start off the day on a good note.
A few hours later though my mom comes into my room yelling.
To give a little context our house is not in good condition and she's a hoarder.
She's also mega paranoid that my younger siblings will be taken away for whatever reason…me and my counselor had discussed her paranoia before and she said it's basically a result of my mom knowing deep down she's messed up and could be doing better
idk man I guess I'm feeling sassy today because I just stared at her as she yelled and honestly wanted to tell her to stfu.
I really am just venting today.
I've lived in a hoarders house my whole life so I'll be honest I do t have much empathy for her though I know it's a coping mechanism.
On a better note because I won't let her ruin my ENTIRE day, I got TWO pages of my comic done today!
I'll be honest I'm exhausted…I'm just looking forward to the 3rd so I can see my bf and hang out.
Me and my counselor (I'll call her Cherry) were discussing the differences between infatuation and love today and it really cleared things up for me.
Like he's been really lovey dovey, doki doki XD idk how to react sometimes and I'm just more forward like we got this couples app and it has a shared diary with prompts and the prompt was, "what did you first think of your partner when you met them" I said that I thought he was a bit of a nerd and he said something along the lines that he thought I was very unique, beautiful. I felt like I didn't love him enough or something :(
But cherry gave me a different perspective, that relationships go through phases of infatuation and he was in that phase with me (cute).
Anyways I know now that I still love him, even though how I thought it would look differently ^^
Anyways, I'm grateful I still got some things done dispute my mood being down.
Take care you guys ^^
I had my session with my counselor at 11 am and we discussed things that we were grateful for and our dreams to start off the day on a good note.
A few hours later though my mom comes into my room yelling.
To give a little context our house is not in good condition and she's a hoarder.
She's also mega paranoid that my younger siblings will be taken away for whatever reason…me and my counselor had discussed her paranoia before and she said it's basically a result of my mom knowing deep down she's messed up and could be doing better
idk man I guess I'm feeling sassy today because I just stared at her as she yelled and honestly wanted to tell her to stfu.
I really am just venting today.
I've lived in a hoarders house my whole life so I'll be honest I do t have much empathy for her though I know it's a coping mechanism.
On a better note because I won't let her ruin my ENTIRE day, I got TWO pages of my comic done today!
I'll be honest I'm exhausted…I'm just looking forward to the 3rd so I can see my bf and hang out.
Me and my counselor (I'll call her Cherry) were discussing the differences between infatuation and love today and it really cleared things up for me.
Like he's been really lovey dovey, doki doki XD idk how to react sometimes and I'm just more forward like we got this couples app and it has a shared diary with prompts and the prompt was, "what did you first think of your partner when you met them" I said that I thought he was a bit of a nerd and he said something along the lines that he thought I was very unique, beautiful. I felt like I didn't love him enough or something :(
But cherry gave me a different perspective, that relationships go through phases of infatuation and he was in that phase with me (cute).
Anyways I know now that I still love him, even though how I thought it would look differently ^^
Anyways, I'm grateful I still got some things done dispute my mood being down.
Take care you guys ^^
