"You're not suicidal"

[AbsentMindedHuman]

I hear this all the time and it pisses me off. I'm not sure why people want to decide for others how they are feeling in the first place, but just because someone is functioning, it doesn't mean they aren't wishing for death.

I myself present fairly Normal day to Day but I think this has been an aquired skill. On the inside, I so desperately want to be free from my pain. I have been emotionally castrated by the years of meds, decades of depression, and I have lost my soul, ever since I attempted 6 years ago. I haven't been able to cry in years and it's so exhausting when I am in a situation where I know how I am supposed to act and present but I have to fake it because those emotions are gone.

I am so broken and empty, this isn't living. I'm a puppet for someone else's life and it's not fair.

 

[derpyderpins]

The really sad thing is that they're essentially saying "as long as I don't think you'll kill yourself, I don't care that you're hurting." That's why it's suicide prevention instead of depression prevention. It's cruel.

 

[hachiware]

I can relate

 

[alltoomuch2]

The really sad thing is that they're essentially saying "as long as I don't think you'll kill yourself, I don't care that you're hurting." That's why it's suicide prevention instead of depression prevention. It's cruel.

Omg you're right. Why did I not realise. Actually I think I did deep down which is why I don't want to call the crisis team any more. They're amazing awesome people but they patch you up quickly then send you back out there

 

[i dont feel real.]

The really sad thing is that they're essentially saying "as long as I don't think you'll kill yourself, I don't care that you're hurting." That's why it's suicide prevention instead of depression prevention. It's cruel.

Exactly! My psychiatrist and psychologist act like that, all the time. I really thank they try to help, but the true fact is that only meds are working. And the working is shit. I literally feel nothing. I don't cry, I'm not happy, I simply don't care. I lack of actual and pure emotion. The thing is, If I don't take the pills, now I feel like an asshole, dumbass shit worthless piece of crap. They only do an analysis on what I am and then ask dumbass questions, tell me stupid tips to live like a stupid 'life hacks' video or shit, tell me what should I do, and stuff. As far as I don't cut myself or attempt to commit suicide, they will not really care.

 

[wheezle42]

My therapist dropped me after 4 years of intensive care because "she didn't believe I'd ever kill myself". That instant, I was shown the door and wished good luck with your suffering. What a scam.

Until you do it, everyone will rationalize and minimize what you are going through. If ever you choose to go through with it, they'll be "surprised" and they'll "wish you'd reach out for help" lmao.

Fuck em