Christ man. I've lost about 1 1/2 stone in 3 months and not really done much different and am wondering why. Have you been to the docs? That's a shit load of weight to lose in a short time, and if you're puking a lot - get a check up dude. Please....
voidman
emptiness —> nothingness
- Sep 15, 2020
- 217
Wanting to free my soul and either enter to void, or get on with next incarnation already
LonelyNick
They/Them, He/Him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 262
Oh I did see a Dr. I know what's wrong. I'm on a waitlist for gallbladder removal and the wait time is 49 weeks. And the longer COVID goes, the longer it'll take for my surgery too. I've been to the ER but as long as it doesn't bursts, the ER won't do anything. Neither move me up the list or give me pain meds. The only thing they reluctantly gave me is anti nausea meds.
I'm skin on bones, I have 0 energy, my teeth are fucked up from all the puking. And no one in the medical field cares. So CBT it is *shrug*
Fuck man you need to push them, tell them it's making your life a misery. Constant puking will fuck you up big time. If this is all that's wrong, get onto them and give them hell. Shit, I'll do it for you, that's scandalous, clearly you're in a really bad way from it.
LonelyNick
They/Them, He/Him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 262
Trust me, I tried everything. That's why I'm at CBT point. No one gives a shit for real. I'm don't want to know what I'd look like in 49 weeks at the rate I'm going.... I'm just slowly easing on water, thinking of getting SN but honestly, I'll probably die anyway.
lost guy
Just a guy trying to work things out.
- Aug 12, 2020
- 94
I have come to the conclusion that living means pleasing others and juggling their emotions, whether it is friends, family, or partners. Sure, I could live a solo life, but that is not fun either.
Happiness isn't real unless it is shared. It is hard to balance true happiness between such a dynamic group of peers. All I ever wanted was a sense of harmonic happiness among everyone I care about. That is impossible.
Happiness isn't real unless it is shared. It is hard to balance true happiness between such a dynamic group of peers. All I ever wanted was a sense of harmonic happiness among everyone I care about. That is impossible.
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lost.ghost
dissolving mind
- Jan 25, 2019
- 110
not sure if it's strange but mine is knowing that i will very very likely be mentally ill for the rest of my life and deal with extreme suicidal thoughts and depression for many many years. also my financial situation is shit and i can barely get by
Girl id only met 5 times but had been speaking to daily for 3 months over lockdown ended it 30th May (very intense). I am constantly obsessing over it to the point it had ruined my life and I no longer see a reason to live as I am miserable and have no joy or motivation in anything. The obsessing over tiny little details and conversations gives me such regret I can't deal with it anymore. I did fall completely in love with her stupidly.
mahakaliSS_MahaDurga
Visionary
- Apr 2, 2020
- 2,404
I wish I could have such intense feelings about anybody or anything, honestly.
TheGoodGuy
Visionary
- Aug 27, 2018
- 2,996
That isn´t strange; Childhood and teenage years are living, adulthood is just existing. After you become and adult the carefree LIFE you have known since you were born is gone and will never come back.
OnlyTheWind
Serena / Meatball head
- Aug 29, 2020
- 962
Sinkinshyp
Paragon
- Sep 7, 2020
- 947
I'm so very sorry you are going through this. I can't believe with all the weight you've lost they can't bump you up on the surgery schedule. Is it possible to go stay with a relative in another state and see if you can get the surgery done there?
Lmd
Elementalist
- Jul 12, 2020
- 812
I'm seriously thinking on CTB before sunday because someone is gonna give me a furniture and I don't want to face the fact of clean my room and change the old one
Hanna Backer
A pecadora
- Sep 10, 2020
- 32
LonelyNick
They/Them, He/Him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 262
Unfortunately, in Canada you have coverage only in your 'state'. And the OR are not opened in other provinces anyway.
Sinkinshyp
Paragon
- Sep 7, 2020
- 947
do you have friends? Literally I would gather people- make a viral video for help. Have the people picket outside the hospital until they have no option other than operate. I'm so so sorry you are going through this.
LonelyNick
They/Them, He/Him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 262
I lost most of my friends. They're tired of hearing me talk about the pain. I'm all alone. Which makes it easier to CBT
deadbeat
Member
- Sep 9, 2020
- 89
I think all my reasons are valid, but while this hasn't been an issue lately I've wanted to ctb because of my face.
lighthousekeeper
Member
- Jun 29, 2020
- 37
Among several reasons my inability to ever develop a sexual relationship due to numbness (not SSRIs, childhood fence accident)...
BipolarGuy
Enlightened
- Aug 6, 2020
- 1,456
Christ sake, I think I might do it early purely because of the number of adverts now on YouTube!!!
voyager
Don't you dare go hollow...
- Nov 25, 2019
- 965
Think my strangest reason is probably that I loved life, not hated it. Used to enjoy it so much and to the fullest. It's what kept me going over the years after the depression and other problems hit me, the memories and little joy I could still take from things. What remains now is mostly a husk devoid of any sort of passion or positive feelings. That's not life.
Lucifer'sRight
Experienced
- Feb 4, 2020
- 256
Not being unlimited i every way i want to. Also...
A sea of philosophical questions and mental illness for an answer.
A sea of philosophical questions and mental illness for an answer.
Lilacmoon
Beautiful moon, take me away.
- Sep 23, 2020
- 1,308
