Your reason for being suicidal?

[Peace2peace]

Share your reasons

 

[FuneralCry]

Because of existence, I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible, to me existence just feels like the most terrible, tragic mistake and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I find it the most futile, torturous burden to exist and more than anything I wish this existence was imposed. I find it tragic how I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering, to me existence truly is an abomination that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, my wish to die is a response to existence and I suffer just from existing.

I've never had any interest in existing as well and could never see any benefit and value to being conscious of any of this at all, I only see being non-existent as desirable where all is finally gone and forgotten about, I only wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where I'm no longer enslaved in this existence. I'd always prefer to painlessly not exist than suffer in this existence that was completely unnecessary with no limit as to how much agony I can feel just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me, for me suicide would be suffering prevention and I don't want to suffer at all under any circumstance.

 

[TheHolySword]

You should make the poll allow multiple options to be chosen. Suicide is often multifaceted and not limited to broad, singular reasons. I could say all of the above tbh (except orders, I don't really know what you mean by that)

 

[Peace2peace]

You should make the poll allow multiple options to be chosen. Suicide is often multifaceted and not limited to broad, singular reasons. I could say all of the above tbh (except orders, I don't really know what you mean by that)

Ok done

 

[ijustwishtodie]

None of them really. To me, I see suicide as the most logical action that I can do. It's as simple as that.

 

[Kanoh]

Mental illness is making my daily life unmanagable, even though I earn considerably well I am tied to stay at my family house for foreseeable future and endure my parents. My life quality due to all this is less than zero and there are little prospects of my situation improving. Life is in 90% misery for me and I shouldn't have to keep suffering only to feed the government taxes.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Many reasons. I am a a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain so I am a torture chamber. Boggles my mind most think being a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain is a beautiful gift.

Life is meaningless suffering

Work 15 hours a day a job and chores only to decay get old and exist under threat of extreme torture

Evolution spent hundreds of millions of years making the suffering of pain worse every generation.

Many more reasons. But all my problems will be wiped out soon and I will surpass all sentient beings because I will be in non-existence forever soon where I can't suffer nor feel pain nor have problems nor bad memories ever again… i wil never exist again…. To me Non-existence forever is the best thing

 

[Peace2peace]

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Many reasons. I am a a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain so I am a torture chamber. Boggles my mind most think being a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain is a beautiful gift.

Life is meaningless suffering

Work 15 hours a day a job and chores only to decay get old and exist under threat of extreme torture

Evolution spent hundreds of millions of years making the suffering of pain worse every generation.

Many more reasons. But all my problems will be wiped out soon and I will surpass all sentient beings because I will be in non-existence forever soon where I can't suffer nor feel pain nor have problems nor bad memories ever again… i wil never exist again…. To me Non-existence forever is the best thing

So sorry

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I'm from one of the poorest country in the world. I'm out of high school and I'm trying to get into university now but it's extremely tough here to get into university as it's few and extremely compitable. I live in poverty well I'm not below poverty...I struggle everyday with hunger. My mom doesn't work nor do I. We have very tough time going. Pollution here is extremely worst and it's the most polluted country in the world. I can't find work as it's really high in demand and everything here is extremely compitable. I see True nightmare every walk of my life. U have only 3 choice here :
1.Move to another country
2. Work extremely hard to live a decent life to feed yourself everyday without struggling to starving everyday.
3. Suicide
And most of the people choose 2nd or 3rd option. And I guess I'm one of them. Im also dumb so I don't think I will survive this Chaotic environment or high demand works. You are basically a slave in a poor country even people who go another country they go as labour and slaves. It's hard to think that I'm still living. There's a lot lot lot of reasons why I want to suicide. I don't want to be a slave or I want to suffer. Sorry for bad English.

 

[harlow-paige]

kinda a combo of so many of them; i think the main one that pushes me deeper into it, is being almost completely isolated and having no idea how to connect with other people on a deeper level; like it's just something my brain doesn't have the ability to figure out how to do.

plus y'know traumatic responses to stuff that happened all through life, always wished they'd just murdered me rather than breaking me to what feels like beyond repair and making me feel just so inhuman and taking my sense of self.

then the phys health aspect, where i sh-ed so much by giving myself concussions that my brain always feels fuzzy and hazy and hair triggered nowadays, which just makes it even harder to connect with anyone; and guilt and shame about doing that to myself, plus fears that as i get older my brain is just gonna turn to even more soup and eventually i'll just lose the autonomy to have any control over my life or anything.

 

[diy-event]

I have been overwhelmed

 

[SoulWhisperer]

Strictly mental and emotional, more specifically: social. The result of my choice is because the way society imposed things that aren't compatible with me. My body is fine... For now.

 

[JesiBel]

Because life has no meaning for me, I have no reason for being, nothing ties me to this world.

It's like being in a game that you don't care to be in or be a part of. What am I here for?

I have some hobbies but they are just to keep my mind occupied with something.

Why am I trying so hard in life if it has no meaning for me?

I don't fit in anywhere, interacting with others is a nightmare. I'm the weird girl with no friends. And maybe it's my fault, I hate myself. I am a total failure.

 

[TAW122]

I would say emotional damages, but there are many other factors out there too and while I'm not severely physically disabled (it would definitely make my life much worse than it is now), I do know that there are personal reasons as well as to why I would want to CTB. Regardless of why I want to CTB, I'd still would like to have such options open in the event I may need to access them in the future, if my circumstances change that would make sentience even less tolerable than it is now.

 

[KillingPain267]

Because my spouse, the love of my life, left me. I know, stupid reason, but it completely obliterated my mind and sanity.

 

[Hollowman]

Failure to build a life disorder.

 

[Redacted24]

Being made to feel like an unwanted, irrelevant, and unneeded oxygen thief by those I respect and care about ... so it must be true.

 

[cait_sith]

I have made a list in handwriting listing reasons and got to 28 and then got tired, it isn't finished and probably never will be. I won't share but it includes all categories in the poll.

 

[Peace2peace]

Much love to everyone mine is purely health reasons thanks for sharing your stories

 

[requiemforadream]

PTSD, social issues, economic issues, partental alienation. Enough.

Being made to feel like an unwanted, irrelevant, and unneeded oxygen thief by those I respect and care about ... so it must be true.

It's not true.

 

[John_Galt]

I guess Ive just gotten tired of trying only to be met with failure, Ive formed a More Religious/Philosophical approach to CTB'ing and that is exploring the real final frontier: Death- Or at least that's what I tell myself...

Life when it is not full of painful contradictions is boring, lonely, and just plain mediocre, Even if you do everything right and are as healthy as a Bull? What is your reward? Minimal wage Job dwelling in Late stage empires tearing themselves apart... and one could count themselves lucky to be in the 1st world too, And as long as you live you're on the slab so to speak; at the mercy of being wounded Physically/Mentally no matter your status in life, from factors outside of your control or prevention.

To die counter to popular belief is to preserve oneself from abuse and pain, In reality our coffin's become our personal bunkers form this vile slate of existence, and to find peace where nobody can hurt-To have the greatest truest control is to find strength and remove yourself from the source of all associated toil full heartbreak that we call life, and that is the only work that has a permanent reward to it.

At least that's my reason, Not as great as other people's real reasons to die but It's worthy of mention I hope.

 

[ma0]

It's clear that this world has nothing to offer me. Everything I'm passionate about also just so happens to be everything I'm shit at. I've given up on several passion projects out of embarrassment, procrastination, or just not feeling motivated. It's like life is taunting me, making me want to pursue something, only to demotivate me into abandoning it.

Couple that with crippling loneliness and being scared of even the smallest change, and it's clear I'm not built for this world.

 

[Γyuk]

I have bdd and underwent eyelid surgery because i was very unhappy about my appearance. but the plastic surgeon removed way too much skin and fat resulting in both eyes that are unable to close :( i now have severe dry eyes and my sleep is heavily affected…

After some weeks I got very depressed and eventually suicidal.

 

[husky]

Every time someone asks me why i'm suicidal, i ask them "Why are you not?".

 

[Lo$t95]

I'm from one of the poorest country in the world. I'm out of high school and I'm trying to get into university now but it's extremely tough here to get into university as it's few and extremely compitable. I live in poverty well I'm not below poverty...I struggle everyday with hunger. My mom doesn't work nor do I. We have very tough time going. Pollution here is extremely worst and it's the most polluted country in the world. I can't find work as it's really high in demand and everything here is extremely compitable. I see True nightmare every walk of my life. U have only 3 choice here :
1.Move to another country
2. Work extremely hard to live a decent life to feed yourself everyday without struggling to starving everyday.
3. Suicide
And most of the people choose 2nd or 3rd option. And I guess I'm one of them. Im also dumb so I don't think I will survive this Chaotic environment or high demand works. You are basically a slave in a poor country even people who go another country they go as labour and slaves. It's hard to think that I'm still living. There's a lot lot lot of reasons why I want to suicide. I don't want to be a slave or I want to suffer. Sorry for bad English.

At the risk of sounding like a total asshole ( I understand what you are saying about hunger and slavery ) honestly money will not fix the world we live in.

If they wanted to fix the world and money was the solution they could print it and fix the value since the world reserve currency US Dollar $ is controlled by the Federal Reserve. It's not linked to Gold it's simply backed up by the US military and for the time being that is enough.

So to answer your Q - I simply don't want to be a part of this world let alone contribute to it. CTB is the only way out for me.