UglyDuck666
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- Nov 14, 2020
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My face and disgusting body, sick relationship with my family (especially mother), loneliness, hopeless future (I'll probably be homeless soon) and situation at school.
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I lost the only future I ever really wanted, and I'm not able to accept that and make a new one. I want exactly what I lost, not something different.
DittoI relate to this so much. Honestly, fuck settling for plan B. I wanted plan A and I can't get it now. And okay fine, I can't get it. But now the game isn't worth it to me anymore, I want out please.
Yes me too! This!Other
It's a combination of factors, and it's complicated. There isn't just one primary reason. Here are the top 3:
I have a cancer history, and I'm driving myself crazy waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm apparently so afraid of dying, I'd rather just die already.
I lost the only future I ever really wanted, and I'm not able to accept that and make a new one. I want exactly what I lost, not something different.
One day, my brain just randomly decided I need to die, and I can't seem to convince myself otherwise. I have things to live for, but I am plagued with almost obsessive thoughts and urges to end myself. It's exhausting, and I'm sick of fighting it.
You are a sweet angel. I thank god that the most important person in my life died young that way, I can also die knowing that she won't suffer.Chronic illness that is making it harder and harder for me to take care of my most basic needs. I want to leave while I have a little dignity left. My partner has a terminal illness, so I have to stay a little longer to help him through this journey.
Oh come on, I'm pretty sure that is not the major reason you want to ctb. It's a stereotype that women only care about the size. Maybe some do, just like some men may only care about huge tits. But those are the idiotic ones. A man with self esteem and a gentle character can be quite popular among women. Don't let yourself get reduced to a piece of meat ;)micropenis, will never be desired by women. no point in life without that imo.
Similar thing for you, I think you are trying to get sex too hard until you stress yourself into it and go insane. You should try to put your focus on finding love first, then sex will come naturally. Relax a bit :)however, my catalyst is relationships. i cannot satisfy the need for sex and it torments me. i know i'll never get it.
so why continue the torture?
Unfortunately no, it's neuropathic so it's hard to treat, and I've been on all sorts of meds with no luckim sorry about this my friend, does medications help?
Why? If I may askme. i know i'll never get it.
Maybe you should graduly come off meds. When i was on zoloft, it had ruined me and had made me pretty suicidal, i didnt know it was zoloft, i thought it was depression. But actualy deep inside i suspected it was zoloft. And yes, it was zoloft, i realised that when i came off.Chronic diseases, BPD, eternal pain and loneliness for 9 years. Medicines make it worse. I'm so tired and I don't see the future.