Your Primary Reason For Wanting To Suicide

[Xiaomi]

I know most of us here are mentally exhausted and I also admit that I am on the verge of losing this battle. On these last stages of my life, I want to make sure that each and every one of our voices be heard. Mental health awareness should be prioritized. You may have a strong body, but it still is dependent on your mental health.

Depression is an animal. It attacks like a thief in the night and rots your mind away slowly. It has no face, no mood. Always look out for the person with the biggest smile or hearty laugh, chances are they are fighting for their lives.

Thank you everyone.

And always remember, it is your life. Only you have the right to end it.

 

[Nymph]

Was mental health there or am I blind?
My reason is mental health because it's ruining me and I feel like I'm disintegrating. Also world problems like global warming, lack of resources, consumerism...

 

[Mywill]

I don't want to live for anyone anymore, I'm exhausted and dead inside. There's no point of living.

 

[Serenity]

Personally, I think a lot of people's reasons for CTBing are a bit more complicated than this list outlines, and there's usually more than one reason (at least for me, there are multiple situations leading to me considering suicide). The biggest reason I want to kill myself would probably be guilt/shame regarding the numerous ways I dealt with stuff in my past and present.

 

[ZardozOmega]

Self loathing

 

[AutoTap]

Mental Health. My multiple anxiety disorders and phobias. My depression and my shit quality of life.

 

[StringPuppet]

I guess Hopeless Future is a good way to describe it

 

[Gromit-CTB]

To get the fuck off this rock and never feel pain or loss again

 

[Sensei]

Mental illness, more precisely bipolar disorder, an all too common disorder around here.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I love how "bored of living" is a choice

I have a few reasons, but ultimately I am just bored/tired of it all. Nothing is rewarding anymore and it's all starting to feel like a waste of time.

 

[holymouse]

It's hard to keep the conversation going.
The conversation time is very short and I talk little

 

[demuic]

I guess "hopeless future." There's nothing I want to do in my life, because I'm not capable of the things I want. Life isn't fulfilling.

 

[scrapbunny]

Horrible mental health that won't respond well to any medications. Life just feels too long and I don't want to spend it suffering

 

[Deleted member 13412]

many reasons to die ,, but i think being aware of the pain my existence causes to others and my self is enough to want to die ..i feel that killing myself is the least i can do to reject and not being accomplice to this evil show ); i dont wanna be part of it i dont wanna accept it !!!

 

[WitheringAway]

It's the constant multiple blows I keep getting in life. Tragedy after tragedy. Never been happy a day in my life.

 

[yive]

life is shit, that's all. everyone here suffers.
let's be honest ;)

i just want to end this stupid and pointless suffering before the so-called «natural death» comes or something kills me.
however, my catalyst is relationships. i cannot satisfy the need for sex and it torments me. i know i'll never get it.
so why continue the torture?

 

[grungeCat]

Loneliness. I'm just tired of this life.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Loneliness is a big one for me, but I also know my future is hopeless when it comes to ever easing the pain of that loneliness.

 

[Pravesh]

micropenis, will never be desired by women. no point in life without that imo.

 

[Dizzylady80]

PAIN, definitely pain. Got a horrible pain disorder, not terminal so I clicked other

 

[Pravesh]

PAIN, definitely pain. Got a horrible pain disorder, not terminal so I clicked other

im sorry about this my friend, does medications help?

 

[StringPuppet]

life is shit, that's all. everyone here suffers.
let's be honest ;)

i cannot satisfy the need for sex and it torments me. i know i'll never get it.
so why continue the torture?

Not to invalidate your feelings but why not get a prostitute?

 

[Viceroy]

Not to invalidate your feelings but why not get a prostitute?

not the same really

 

[StringPuppet]

not the same really

Maybe, I guess it depends on if he meant meaningful sex or not. Some guys are fine just paying for it while others won't be satisfied because there's no real connection, plus they'll know the girl will only be doing it for money. Either way I respect his decision, just thought I'd ask why that wasn't an option

 

[Adamsnolife]

Loneliness is definitely playing it's part me ctb. Depression is there like it has for most part of my life.

Covid lockdowns haven't been good like most of us

 

[darkhorse256]

PTSD from sexual assault&attempted murder that messed up my once almost perfect memory.

Parents who blame me for my sexual assault.

High cost of living in my country, which means I can't move out of my parents' house anytime soon.

 

[MindFrog]

I feel like i was just doomed from the moment i was born. And now i'm just too tired to fight it. I thought i was being resilient for years, but now i realize i was just ignoring the glaring reality in front of me.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

Having an illness with no cure (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and chronic pain) and having PTSD that is so severe even mere imagery of doctors/medical settings triggers memories that I have to try daily to bury. If I had actual help/care from others perhaps my views on life would be a bit different but others treat me like I am lazy and not trying hard enough to get better, I am expected to function independently when I'm at the point of almost needing a cane to walk.. And I'm only 21. For this reason I do not wish to continue this sick existence.

 

[yive]

Not to invalidate your feelings but why not get a prostitute?

i don't have that much money to pay for sex all the time. a one-time contact will likely only increase my frustration even more. and it's just unpleasant for me that i even have to pay something for it, when others can get it just for love.

besides, i have a difficult and unusual love story (i am in love with a girl who doesn't exist in reality), and therefore it will be quite difficult for me to explain to you why everything is so sad with me.

i'm sorry if i somehow disappointed you with my answer

 

[StringPuppet]

i don't have that much money to pay for sex all the time. a one-time contact will likely only increase my frustration even more. and it's just unpleasant for me that i even have to pay something for it, when others can get it just for love.

I understand what you mean. I was under the impression you just wanted a one-time thing, but now you cleared it up

besides, i have a difficult and unusual love story (i am in love with a girl who doesn't exist in reality), and therefore it will be quite difficult for me to explain to you why everything is so sad with me.

You don't have to explain further if you don't want to

i'm sorry if i somehow disappointed you with my answer

Not disappointing at all, thanks for sharing