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telekon

telekon

Mage
Feb 5, 2025
541
"Tomorrow is shining like a razor blade
And anything's possible if you feel the same" – Conor Oberst
 
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HFK40000

Not Living Just Killing Time
Apr 14, 2026
101
'm dying"
"Is it blissful?"
"It's like a dream" "I want to dream"
"I'm dying" "Is it blissful?"
"It's like a dream" "I want to dream" "I want to dream"
"I want to dream"
"I want to dream"
With you
Dream House by Deafheaven
 
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LetMeOut67

Wizard
May 7, 2025
640


Would you look at me now? (Would you look at me now?)
Can you tell I'm a man? (Can you tell I'm a man?)
With the scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again (With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll die again)
Try to die again
Try to live through this night
Try to die again
 
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MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP
Feb 11, 2023
89
"I lay dying and I'm pouring crimson regret" Tourniquet by Evanescence
 
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booplesnoot34

booplesnoot34

I’ll miss the winter, a world of fragile things
Feb 8, 2023
81
"Goodbye, I'm Sorry" by Jamestown Story (particularly the version without the stupid suicide hotline PSA)

Time has run out, for me.
Everything's distant and I don't know what to believe.
It's so hard, lost in the world confusion.
And I need to leave, for a while.
Life is so meaningless, there is nothing worth a smile.
So goodbye, I'll miss you.

And I'm sorry, but this is my fate.
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay.
And I'm sorry, but I've waited too long.
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me.
I'm not worth any tears.

It's been the years, of abuse.
Neglected to treat the disorder,
That controls my youth, for so long.
I'm in a fleshy tomb, buried up above the ground.
It's no use, why should I hold on?
It's been five years, don't need one more.
So goodbye, life's abuse.

And I'm sorry, but this is my fate.
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay.
And I'm sorry, but I've waited too long.
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me.
I'm not worth any tears.
 
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letsnotmakeittoo22

letsnotmakeittoo22

I Have No Long Term Plans For This Body
Nov 24, 2024
31
Might not be the right forum to post this in but I'm curious. Do you guys have any favorite lyrics from songs, whether it be a theme of sadness, suicide, death? Or however you'd like to interpret your song. I will start first :)

Goodbye, Michelle, my precious one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
Every time that I was down
You would always come around
Get my feet back on the ground
Goodbye, Michelle, it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
Wish that we could both be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the stars we could reach were just starfish on the beach
Many of mine are from the ironically named band " teen suicide " ( link is their band wiki ), who got me through/ comforted me during many rough years. Including until this day. ( my profile picture is from one of their albums, as is my bio )

So I would like to share a few examples of my most important/meaningful lyrics from the band ' teen suicide '
~

" The world is ending in my dreams
Every week for the last few years
When it really ends
they'll fill my body with flames

You and I will be a household name "

from the song: we found two dead swans and filled their bodies with flowers.
* Note: if you happen to listen to any song on this I highly recommend this song, as it fills me with the most emotion/ feeling.

~

- " One more week
And things are at an end
I am not myself
I haven't been in months
"

from the song: if I cleaned everything

~


" I have no long-term plans for this body
I want to be part of you while I still can
My mouth filled up with blood

Let me be part of you while I still can "

- from the song: XXXXXXX

~

" And when I go,
I hope you'll give me back to the sky
And keep me out of your dreams

I have no place there "

- from the song: give me back to the sky


~

" Everything I like
is going to hell
And everyone like
is living in hell
I've got no use for friends
only connections
Give me what I want and leave me alone
in five years from now
I'll be living in hell
In ten years from now
I might as well be dead
When I wake up at night
I'm floating above the sheets on my bed
I've got no use for time
l've got enough
Give me what I want and leave me alone "


- from the song: everything is going to hell

~


" This is not a song about sleep or death
It's about something much
smaller and paler than that
I'm not going to show it to my friends
Cause when I came home
I'd lost thirty-something pounds
I didn't leave my bed
I threw up in a bathroom in Baltimore
Before dancing with a girl

I'll probably never talk to again
We won't be friends
And I won't be nice to anyone
Because I don't see why I should
I don't see the point
I won't get clean For the rest of my life

I won't be nice "

- from the song: doing all the things i used to do with people, part 2
 
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passthisnote

chronically online
May 6, 2026
85
Don't move your hands from your eyes
Don't hold me from my sacrifice
Don't let me waste up your time
I'll end it myself on Facebook Live
So many questions, so many angles
You were an angel to the wolf in disguise
Don't move your hands from your eyes (Don't, from your eyes)
Don't let me waste up your time (Don't let me waste up your time)

jaydes - pass this note

i think the song was inspired by Ronnie McNutt if i'm not mistaken and it's also where i got my username from
 
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letsnotmakeittoo22

letsnotmakeittoo22

I Have No Long Term Plans For This Body
Nov 24, 2024
31
Another artist/ song I love, Is Elliott Smith's incredibly fragile, and beautiful song
" Between the Bars ".
It has always touched my heart and spoke personally to me.


~
Drink up baby, stay up all night
With the things you could do
You won't but you might
The potential you'll be that you'll never see

The promises you'll only make
Drink up with me now
And forget all about the pressure of days
Do what I say and I'll make you okay
And drive them away
The images stuck in your head
People you've been before
That you don't want around anymore
That push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still
Drink up baby, look at the stars
I'll kiss you again, between the bars
Where I'm seeing you there with your hands in the air
Waiting to finally be caught
Drink up one more time, and I'll make you mine
Keep you apart, deep in my heart
Separate from the rest, where I like you the best
And keep the things you forgot

People you've been before
That you don't want around anymore
That push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still


~
~ Elliott Smith, between the bars lyrics


It relates in so many aspects depending on your perspective while listening to it. Despite it pertaining to alcoholism, between the bars can be extrapolated in many different perspectives; suicide, depression, trauma, etc. and truly has been with me through many, restless, crying filled nights.


~

Morbid and sad fact: Elliott Smith himself passed away in 2003, the circumstances of his death are debated to either be a suicide, or caused by his girlfriend ( which she had denied ), the coroner listed the official cause of death as undetermined. His tragic death is still heavily debated, with fans and biographers divided between the theory of suicide and the possibility of homicide.

If he did himself CTB, I hope he found peace.

If it was the other situation, I hope the perpetrator gets " caught / revealed / confesses etc ), and faces legal consequences, and that Elliott is able to eventually get the justice he deserves ( if homicide was the cause ) even if it can only be given post-mortem
 
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YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
1,444
I made her a necklace
Of telephone cord
Hanging from the ceiling
She opened the door
Choking on my vomit
Had blood in my eyes
Smiled at my baby
Said, "I won't survive"

She screamed out for help
But nobody came
So she picked up my gun
And put it to her brain
She begged, she pleaded, she screamed
Said, "God give me help"
Then she decided to do it herself
 
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100memoryleaks

I'm sorry sweetie, I miss you
Jul 6, 2026
202
"My problematic waste of an existence, tearing to shreds

Right before your eyes, share a universal smile

I'm sorry you had gotten so unlucky this time around

How I'm wishing you a better farewell in the next life"

GHOST - The Things I Deserve
"Никто не нарушит мою тишину, никто не узнает что я в раю"
"No one will disturb my silence, no one will know I'm in heaven"
Molchat Doma - Silence
 
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angel164

angel164

martyr
Mar 29, 2026
43
"This is the end
My only friend, the end
Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end

No safety or surprise, the end
I'll never look into your eyes again

Can you picture what will be?
So limitless and free

Desperately in need
Of some stranger's hand
In a desperate land

It hurts to set you free
But you'll never follow me
The end of laughter and soft lies
The end of nights we tried to die
This is the end
"

The End-The Doors
 
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Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
867
(don't fear the reaper)
Blue Öyster Cult
 
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Member
Jan 14, 2026
15
Pitch burning on a shining sheet / The only maker that you want to meet / A dying man in a living room / Whose shadow paces the floor

All spit and spite you're up all night and down every day / A dying man with only hours to go just waiting to be weathered away / Getting into the back of a car for candy from some stranger / Watching the parade with pinpoint eyes, full of smouldering anger ... Do what you want to, whenever you want to / Though it doesn't mean a thing
 
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Dawns

Student
Apr 5, 2023
172
"She gave it a try
She closed her eyes
She didn't know how it'd feel
She just hoped that it wouldn't hurt
It almost worked
"

It almost worked - TV girl
 
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meowpuppy

valerie | she/they | puppygirl
Jul 11, 2026
394
i've always interpreted the chorus of There Is a Light That Never Goes Out to be about a double suicide ever since my friend introduced me to it

And if a double-decker bus crashes into us
To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-tonne truck kills the both of us
To die by your side, well, the pleasure, the privilege is mine
 
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scenecore fan

I'm permanently broken.
Jan 26, 2026
40
"I don't really wanna go right now
I just really wanna die right now
Nothing for me on this earth
I've been fucked up since my birth

Break my leg
Hurt me bad
Make me cry
I'm so sad
Break my leg
Hurt me bad
Make me cry
I'm so sad"

I'm so fucked up please help me - Rebzyyx

"Always pretending
Acting so sad
If you had it my way
There'd be no mistake
So when you catch me
Hanging by my neck
Hope that you never forget
The smell the goddamn stench"

"Sick to my fucking stomach
All i feel is dread
I'd rather be dead
I would rather be dead

Sick to my fucking stomach
All i feel is dread
Gonna throw up all my guts
Gonna leave the floor red"

knife 2 school - pupsies
 
otomedissection

otomedissection

a boring life with feelings too frail to touch
Jun 19, 2026
29
Sertraline and a sip of serotonin
Don't cry 'cause there's a pill for everything
Take this one, wash it down and you'll be fine
The feeling goes and you draw a chalk outline
And so it goes, let it be
In the gallows, I balanced on my toes so I can breathe
But little by little, bit by bit
I push it back down with a new habit
If not for long, just for a while
I'll bury myself with a great, big smile

Chalk Outlines - Ren & Chinchilla
 
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DignifiedGrave

GrinderofSouls
Jul 5, 2026
93
"I can climb until I reach where Angels reside, ask around to find out where the junkies applies, then you up and left me on this rock all alone"
"It's my fault for knowing not what I should have known"
Layne Staley in the song died. Its about the death of his ex fiancé to heroin od. Layne Staley isolated for 6'8 years in his condo speedballing coke and heroin until he finally od'd. Days before Laybe died, he got into an argument with his close friend and band mate where he threatened to stop being his friend if he reported the addiction. I wish Layne could've gotten better and coped with his ex fiances death but I understand it. I lost my oldest brother to suicide 9 years ago and im afraid ill be following his steps. I kind of see myself in Layne. Hiding myself and wallowing in my own shame and sorrow while I plan and move knowingly toward death.
 
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LastNite

Sleepless Zombie
Mar 31, 2025
888
Seasons in the sun is goated.

Mines:

"Through early morning fog I see
Visions of the things to be
The pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see

That suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

The game of life is hard to play
I′m gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
So this is all I have to say"
 
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Grav

Paragon
Jul 26, 2020
911
"Icarus" - Wheel

A dream - Like china in my hand
A castle built upon the sand
A word - I can not understand
A path that guides me to the end
"Yes, Death, Death must be so beautiful,
To lie in the soft brown earth,
With the grasses waving above one's head,
And listen to silence, To have no yesterday, and no tomorrow,
To forget time, to forget life, To be at peace, you can help me,
You can open for me the portals of death's house,
For love is always with you,
And love is stronger than death is" - Oscar Wilde

No dope no booze will help to hide
The pain that strikes from deep inside
So weary and too tired to fight
Against the ever tempting light

I live my life of sorrow
Always waiting for the perfect day
When I finally spread my wings
And fly into the sun
........
 
oneirataxia

oneirataxia

I feel the gravity of it all.
Apr 22, 2024
521
I would never be able to get behind committing suicide with a romantic partner and dragging them down with me, but nevertheless I think about this song a lot (especially the music video.) Could probably do without the bagpipes at the end, though.

 
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limenlux

limenlux

Impermanent
Jul 12, 2026
89
I've got the world in a metal shelf
Above a window grinning
Perfect ocean blue
And every life I take is my own
Don't have the fuel to burn it my way

Mind is wide open to the eyes pointed left
They've taken all they could again
The rest hangs black in the storm ahead
I can't pass it with these roads I've cut through

And I'm impressed with all you do
With just four limbs and a head
And if I were anyone else
I'd be the mirror staring back at a face so deaf

I'm in the open now yet all enclosed
The hollow winds of engines shuffling fog again
Ahead the distance smears all that's left
I used to walk it now the wheels just blur through

And at the end they've all turned to air
And left their shadows behind for me to follow
And what they say is that I have got to change
So I think I'll go and do that right now

"From the Coma-Swept Ruins" - Dismantled
 
mob

mob

Student
Jul 19, 2023
177
Animated junkies trying hard to be insane
With only water in your veins
You seem to think the planets orbit around you
Then it might be only one thing to do

Silly cartoon creatures on cotton boulevard
Playing dead just like a retard
Mama′s gonna make all of your nightmares go away
And death can wait 'til another day

So much for suicide
Lots of talk but you never tried
A few pills short of a straight line
Waking up still feeling fine

"So Much For Suicide" - Tiamat (banger band!!!)
 
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DriftingStars

Member
May 28, 2026
6
"I'm sorry. God, help those who are in deep pain. Those whose souls don't know where to rest. Those who are anxious about the future. Those who wants to end their lives. Show them a new path."

lost souls prayer // nilowh
 
kittypsst

kittypsst

Member
Jun 17, 2026
49
As for dark lyrics, sometimes I can't hear the pause after this part. Black Stained Glass by Demon Hunter. Good picks everyone.

There was a fire when I was young that took my life.
And now I am left just praying death would take me twice.

Where is the peace that I once heard
Would follow grace?
All of the holes within my heart
Go separate ways

 
MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP
Feb 11, 2023
89
Not about suicide, but it is about death.

"When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years"
 
slowlybreaking

slowlybreaking

I couldn't save you...
Jul 9, 2026
53


translated from Japanese

"Ahh, I'll turn into a curse
Ahh, I have to say "I've given up"
Or the static in my head won't stop
I can't fill this gaping emptiness; what will I do if it all gets out?
Ahh, it's just like she said, it's over

Ahh, I'll end up happy
Ahh, losing things is painful
If it all goes to waste, I'll take my punishment for having loved
You're so, so nice... What would I do if I cried into your chest?
That was the dream I saw in the end
My heart hangs in the air
"

the song is full of metaphors and wordplays around hanging. I think it's also based on the character Sayori from VN Doki Doki Literature Club who also hangs herself at the end of act I after confessing her feelings to the protag
 
HFK40000

HFK40000

Not Living Just Killing Time
Apr 14, 2026
101
Pretty Girl Snuff Film by Birds Fear Death

They're laughing in the halls
Whispering behind the stage
There lays my body, staring you in the face
Don't blush when I rip apart my skin
You know I look better
When you have full view of my ribs
I don't deserve to want to die
Sympathy's not for girls with cut up thighs
Spread my legs and tear open my chest
I don't want to be recognized
I write my note, we're not alone
Go out come home, and they all say
Kill yourself x 34 times
 
name2come

name2come

Member
Sep 30, 2025
99
Time is an illusion that helps things make sense.
So we are always living in a present tense.
It seems unforgiving when a good thing ends.
But you and I will always be back then.
—Rebecca Sugar, Time Adventure