hey! love your pfp for starters, a pokefur in this place is a raresight.
other than that my experince with anti dep medication is somewhat ok. i am on both imipramine and sertraline (prozac)
and they have worked amazingly for me so far.
i feel a lot better than i once felt. way less depressed and sad, i barely think of suicide anymore i have gotten more functional past few months and i have even started doing my hobbies once again, even started new ones, like reading, drawing, and gotten back to gaming.
generally speaking they make you feel numb at first, then more sad, then slowly less sad, and then more happier.
at least that was the steps for me. its diffrent for everyone anyways.
ive been on them for 3.5 months now. i might stop soon cause of the costs, and yes im worreid but generally speaking if you can.
PLEASE try them.
they might help or might not help but if you have suicidal thoughts and might end up actually hurting yourself they might just be the last hope that you are in need of.