Discussion Your Deepest (Realistic-ish) Desire (Besides CTB)

[UseItOrLoseIt]

I'm not exactly sure what I desire. Nothing material, that's for sure. Maybe love, but I always want to run away at the end. I'm not good at being in love. It's unnerving.

I would like to not care. That would be a good way to live. To stop trying to change everything and not care about the things I can't change.

 

[finish.me]

i want to sing well lol

 

[Shadowplay]

Finish my PhD in philosophy, do another in economics.

 

[finish.me]

ill..elaborate. my boyfriend and i want to start a band. maybe this is stupid but i feel like we could do something i can be proud of. I just want to be proud of myself

 

[Molded foundation]

To be a fisherman.

 

[stygal]

I want to win the lottery, move away and live closer to a friend.
If none of that is possible I would want at least early retirement.

As a bonus: An exoskeleton would be cool.

 

[Shadowplay]

ill..elaborate. my boyfriend and i want to start a band. maybe this is stupid but i feel like we could do something i can be proud of. I just want to be proud of myself

F*ck it! Just go for it. Nothing stupid about that. What kind of music?

 

[MeltedJello]

To fall in love with a girl just like me. Pretty unrealistic imo, as I don't trust people that well xD, but just maybe.

 

[Kennish]

Get rid of my OCD. But that would be a miracle

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

To have the energy/ambition/talent to fulfill my desires (closest I can be to realistic)

 

[finish.me]

F*ck it! Just go for it. Nothing stupid about that. What kind of music?

something new! a little bit of everything. some fucked up crossbreed between groove metal hyperpop doom metal and grindcore. something insane. youre right! i should just say fuck it and go for it

 

[feggut]

To live as far away from people and society as possible. Create artwork, compose music and write a book.

But too late for that now.

 

[lotus11]

Just to feel loved. I don't feel that anyone in my life has ever actually loved me without an ulterior motive. I just want to feel pure love, and nothing more. The same love I feel for other people.

Same as this. I would really like romantic love. And permanently, if they leave you it doesn't count.

 

[og.]

i just wanna be successful and get my family out of poverty and make my parents happy for once

 

[needingpeace24]

I only wanted a family with the woman I've loved for years. To be able to protect them and keep them happy. Raise good humans. Find a way to help others.

 

[Celerity]

I only wanted a family with the woman I've loved for years. To be able to protect them and keep them happy. Raise good humans. Find a way to help others.

What happened?

 

[motel rooms]

I want my bf to keep believing that I always know what I'm doing. No, wait, that would require him to never stop drinking.
I just don't want him to destroy his liver & die before me.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

I want my bf to keep believing that I always know what I'm doing. No, wait, that would require him to never stop drinking.
I just don't want him to destroy his liver & die before me.

I'm coming 4 dat marriage, bucko.

 

[motel rooms]

I'm coming 4 dat marriage, bucko.

You better be prepared to offer something extra exotic to one of us, it ain't easy to impress jaded professional whores

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

You better be prepared to offer something extra exotic to one of us, it ain't easy to impress jaded professional whores

Bent penis isn't exotic enough? Guess I'm an incel in the gay scene, as well.

 

[needingpeace24]

What happened?

I failed. Spent years in the relationship and now nothing. No family, no children. It's unlikely to ever happen at my age. I can remember at a younger age feeling like the possibility would always be there. Now that it's not, I'm left with an emptiness I never knew was possible.

 

[LivideLamb]

Probably, surely, to live on my own farm or cottage between green meadow and the forest.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Realistic? Thinking about going for the four-cheese pizza tonight. I've outgrown the three.

 

[Celerity]

I failed. Spent years in the relationship and now nothing. No family, no children. It's unlikely to ever happen at my age. I can remember at a younger age feeling like the possibility would always be there. Now that it's not, I'm left with an emptiness I never knew was possible.

I'm really sorry. Life can be so disappointing.

I didn't have the same dreams as you, but I understand what it's like to have what feels like your whole worldview ripped from you. The future you counted on being there will never happen. You don't know what to do in the present without any goal to orient yourself. The past no longer makes sense because you realize all of the events you thought led somewhere led nowhere.

 

[needingpeace24]

I'm really sorry. Life can be so disappointing.

I didn't have the same dreams as you, but I understand what it's like to have what feels like your whole worldview ripped from you. The future you counted on being there will never happen. You don't know what to do in the present without any goal to orient yourself. The past no longer makes sense because you realize all of the events you thought led somewhere led nowhere.

Thanks, but no need to be sorry. I made great mistakes on the road I've traveled so I'm certainly not a victim. Doesn't make it any easier to accept, though. Especially given that I've lost my sanity along the way.

 

[Gabby78]

For my 2 brothers and dad to die

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Have a chance at my life a couple of years ago again. I was happier, more outgoing and far more confident. Hell, I was even AMBITIOUS! A concept I had never grasped before.

 

[deleted]

I would love to have a lot of money

 

[BottomlessPit]

I always liked the idea of becoming a skilled writer, but I never knew how to improve. Nowadays I'm actually regressing due to the brain fog, and the fact that I stopped reading altogether. Even my native language is slowly rotting away.
If I ever tried to recover (which is unlikely), this would be one of the first things I would try to fix.

 

[forgotten15]

I am not really sure because I despise life so much, that all I want is to never been born., but I think I would want someone to love me for who I am. I would just want to feel true love before I leave this world.

This is what I lacked in my life since I was a child. Even my mother who says she loves me, I actually think she loves me for egoist reasons and not for me.