You'll have to act on impulse

[Samuel]

This is what separates those who succeed, from those who will be browsing this site for the rest of their lives. Or you could get lucky and find salvation. But it may not last for long.

 

[Jenna]

I haven't attempted yet but I think you are right and I know when I do it has to be that way. I'm anxious to hear others respond.

 

[Lanternlight]

This is what separates those who succeed, from those who will be browsing this site for the rest of their lives. Or you could get lucky and find salvation. But it may not last for long.

What exactly do you mean by acting on impulse? Just do it and stop thinking about it do you mean?

 

[johnny]

I agree, I've tried closing my eyes and picturing the moment I would do it, and it's very hard to go through with just in imagination, so real life would be worse. I bet I'd have to just put myself on autopilot as I go through the necessary motions and just keep my mind a blank slate, not even thinking about what it is I'm doing

 

[Samuel]

I haven't attempted yet but I think you are right and I know when I do it has to be that way. I'm anxious to hear others respond.

If ever do kill myself, I will chug that N like its water. Maybe not the first day I get it. But I won't even think about it. I think that's a key to success. Maybe just chug it then go play a videogame not even think about it. Remember the only reason to fear death is because we don't know what comes next. And never will until its our time.

 

[Samuel]

What exactly do you mean by acting on impulse? Just do it and stop thinking about it do you mean?

Yes. Do not think about it. Pretend you are just going for a walk. Then jump without thought. The more you hesitate, the less Likely you will die.

 

[Jenna]

If ever do kill myself, I will chug that N like its water. Maybe not the first day I get it. But I won't even think about it. I think that's a key to success. Maybe just chug it then go play a videogame not even think about it. Remember the only reason to fear death is because we don't know what comes next. And never will until its our time.

I want the same plan with the n. I think for a lot survival instinct kicks in. I have the nitrogen tank but fear ripping the bag off.

 

[SelfishMom]

Agreed. The closest I've come is when I quit planning and worrying and just acted impulsively.

 

[JayZT]

I nearly did it in July-August 2018 but my thoughts talked me out of it... unfortunately my methods aren't really something you can do impulsively, if I had a gun I wouldn't be here right now.

Some months have past and I'm in the same position... I plan on spending a lot more time near the train track so hopefully one night impulsivity will push me over the edge.

 

[Samuel]

I nearly did it in July-August 2018 but my thoughts talked me out of it... unfortunately my methods aren't really something you can do impulsively, if I had a gun I wouldn't be here right now.

Some months have past and I'm in the same position... I plan on spending a lot more time near the train track so hopefully one night impulsivity will push me over the edge.

What methods are you considering of I may ask?

 

[JayZT]

What methods are you considering of I may ask?

Train is the only method open to me at this moment.

 

[color_me_gone]

For me, the easiest method for a impulse action would be to pull the trigger on a firearm.
Because as fast as you can say FUCK IT, you're gone.
Not much time to rethink things.
Pulling the trigger takes only an impulsive jerk action.
All other methods give too much time to think about it, and back out.

 

[Samuel]

Train is the only method open to me at this moment.

I must recommend hanging or nembutal. If you would like any information on the two I can share what I know. As of right now you are limited with options it seems. You may feel better, more relaxed, if you consider some other methods. I feel at peace knowing i can take N anytime I want. If money is a problem then that must be tough. Maybe go homeless and save up money. Sell some things in your house. Open an eBay account. I can give you advice if you need.

Train is the only method open to me at this moment.

 

[Johnnythefox]

Maybe just chug it then go play a videogame not even think about it.

You'll have to be quick getting to the video-game, probably best to chug it while playing the game.

 

[JayZT]

I must recommend hanging or nembutal. If you would like any information on the two I can share what I know. As of right now you are limited with options it seems. You may feel better, more relaxed, if you consider some other methods. I feel at peace knowing i can take N anytime I want. If money is a problem then that must be tough. Maybe go homeless and save up money. Sell some things in your house. Open an eBay account. I can give you advice if you need.

I can't really get a hold of N since I'm 16 and live with parents. What advice have you got on hanging?

 

[-L-]

I have attempted in the past more impulsively, and I have failed due to being too impulsive and sloppy about it..
What I've learned is that it has to partially be impulsive to distance your mind enough from the attempt and carry the deed out, but it also has to be somewhat planned and logically orchestrated in order to insure success in the attempt.

The last attempt I had I ended up in a coma and 2 months in the psych ward, due to being sloppy and impulsive..
I'm just glad I didn't sustain any permanent damage to my body or brain, because then I would be really screwed and probably not able to write this lol...
This is why when I attempt again I want to logically have everything figured out properly rather then just rushing into something I may end up regretting..
So this time I am planning with much more care.
As I really don't want to risk being a vegetable fully dependent on others forever...

 

[color_me_gone]

attempted in the past more impulsively, and I have failed

I totally agree on that. If you really want to succeed, you must research and plan carefully.
You can pour all kinds of crap down your throat and you will likely NOT die, and maybe end fuck up afterward.
Only N and SN are reliable.
The impulse part is only necessary to overcome your survival instincts (SI).

 

[Logic]

This is what separates those who succeed, from those who will be browsing this site for the rest of their lives. Or you could get lucky and find salvation. But it may not last for long.

You can always force yourself to commit suicide it just is extremely difficult goes against biological programming, However if you force yourself to with a clear head you are more likely to succeed and will never fail with enough thought behind it. Part of your brain will want to resist anything lethal(atleast at first) so you will to get around that as well.

If you mean want to commit suicide, including your instincts both physically and mentally you can set up a situation where that happens as well once again not exactly easy to do though. Always work smarter not harder.

 

[Smilla]

This is what separates those who succeed, from those who will be browsing this site for the rest of their lives. Or you could get lucky and find salvation. But it may not last for long.

This is an interesting and possibly accurate observation for most members here, but I think too there is a gray area.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

You have to be 100% focused on it. I have done anything I ever truly wanted, because I got focused and aimed my whole being at getting this done. It's how I get work done.

I just have to admit I've never been 100% sure this is the thing to do. If I was or if I ever am, then it'll be done. When I'm 100%, I have an internal voice yelling and yelling and it won't stop until whatever the hell it is gets done.

 

[Smilla]

You have to be 100% focused on it. I have done anything I ever truly wanted, because I got focused and aimed my whole being at getting this done. It's how I get work done.

I just have to admit I've never been 100% sure this is the thing to do. If I was or if I ever am, then it'll be done. When I'm 100%, I have an internal voice yelling and yelling and it won't stop until whatever the hell it is gets done.

A successful suicide requires three ingredients: fearlessness, alienation, and an imperviousness to pain.

I have all three, yet I am still here.

 

[mattwitt]

I disagree partly...
I imagine the main reason why 24 out of every 25 attempts is a failure is because of impulse attempts.
If you want to succeed at ctb imo you have to...
Be sane and rational about it.
Plan and prepare for as long as you need to.
Then
Once everything is in order wait till your ready (physically, mentally, emotionally etc.)

 

[Smilla]

I disagree partly...
I imagine the main reason why 24 out of every 25 attempts is a failure is because of impulse attempts.
If you want to succeed at ctb imo you have to...
Be sane and rational about it.
Plan and prepare for as long as you need to.
Then
Once everything is in order wait till your ready (physically, mentally, emotionally etc.)

This is how I feel, well said.

 

[johnny]

A successful suicide requires three ingredients: fearlessness, alienation, and an imperviousness to pain.

I have all three, yet I am still here.

What do you mean by alienation?

 

[Smilla]

What do you mean by alienation?

Feeling "apart" from the world. Disconnected from other humans, no desire left for sex or food or music. Disillusioned

I still eat and I still get "horny" but it's not the same—I'm a dead woman walking and so I am merely satisfying base desires, there is no higher purpose I aspire to.

 

[Samuel]

I can't really get a hold of N since I'm 16 and live with parents. What advice have you got on hanging?

I will have to go back through my notes. I have information on the type of rope to use. How long before you pass out. The amount and extent of pain. And other information on the subject. I'll make a new Thread for it tomorrow and name it "advice on hanging." You are very young though. Suicide is a decision anyone can make at anytime. If you want out now, you can have it. I would wait things out a bit and see if things turn around for you.

 

[JayZT]

I will have to go back through my notes. I have information on the type of rope to use. How long before you pass out. The amount and extent of pain. And other information on the subject. I'll make a new Thread for it tomorrow and name it "advice on hanging." You are very young though. Suicide is a decision anyone can make at anytime. If you want out now, you can have it. I would wait things out a bit and see if things turn around for you.

Thank you!

Yes I thought about hanging on after last time when I came through it but what's the point if it's only going to come back again.

 

[color_me_gone]

es I thought about hanging on

You can do what a lot of us here do - -
Plan how you want to go
Research the method very carefully, so you know how NOT to fail
Acquire the items you will need, i.e. drugs, rope, gas, firearm, whatever
Then sit on them - -
In other words:
it is sometimes easier to cope with life
when you have all the tools you need to exit in your possession
Good Luck!

 

[JayZT]

You can do what a lot of us here do - -
Plan how you want to go
Research the method very carefully, so you know how NOT to fail
Acquire the items you will need, i.e. drugs, rope, gas, firearm, whatever
Then sit on them - -
In other words:
it is sometimes easier to cope with life
when you have all the tools you need to exit in your possession
Good Luck!

Thank you!

Having a better understanding of how to kill myself should rest my mind that no matter what happens, it'll always be an option.

 

[throwaway123]

This is a tough question and very hard to answer. I think when the day comes you'll just know it.

This gives the slogan "Just do it" a whole new meaning.
Maybe that's the secret. Maybe you shouldn't think about what you're doing. Just go trough the motions and do it.