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crashinout

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Aug 7, 2026
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i go through dissociation all the time, i remember way back in january i just felt like. everything is so shit in my life it doesnt feel "real". so i got intro drugs, id do shrooms and drink because i coudlnt handle shit. i was in university and dropped out, i was in pain everyday. in a dif province, my parents disowned me so i felt empty. i felt like i had no one that can fully understand around me. ketamine, molly, amongst other things but moreso fun party ones

but strangely being on drugs gave me a reason to live. im feeling the euphoria, disconnect. so i just still do them, and im pretty much already under distress/disconnected so they help me atleast "feel" something. i had no interest in anything recreational before i felt disconnected from reality.
 
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nonn_ee

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Jun 2, 2024
21
I've never tried drugs (beyond weed - awful - and alcohol - mixed bag), but yeah I've felt like nothing is real for close to a decade.
 
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animzuk

faina. she/her
Jul 14, 2026
5
yeah i had a really dumb dxm phase because that dissociation made me feel more present and "real" than the sober dissociation i was used to. unfortunately that one just makes me puke now so ive kinda been chasing that feeling with all the other drugs ive tried
 
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time2gosoon

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Jul 12, 2026
18
i go through dissociation all the time, i remember way back in january i just felt like. everything is so shit in my life it doesnt feel "real". so i got intro drugs, id do shrooms and drink because i coudlnt handle shit. i was in university and dropped out, i was in pain everyday. in a dif province, my parents disowned me so i felt empty. i felt like i had no one that can fully understand around me. ketamine, molly, amongst other things but moreso fun party ones

but strangely being on drugs gave me a reason to live. im feeling the euphoria, disconnect. so i just still do them, and im pretty much already under distress/disconnected so they help me atleast "feel" something. i had no interest in anything recreational before i felt disconnected from reality.
There are times where we feel like Neo from The Matrix.
Then there are others where we feel like Truman Burbank from The Truman Show.
 
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violetforever

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Dec 24, 2025
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everything just gets so increasingly bad that i dont feel like my life is real either.
 
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