Venting You can cut the tension with a knife.

[HumanoidMonster]

Went to finally place an order for the SN from the newfound source, only to be greeted by a message stating you can't place international orders through the website but need to do so via Email. I sent an e-mail asking if it's possible to place aformentioned order, but the tension can be cut with a knife here, mainly because there's that lingering fear that something may go wrong and that I wouldn't be able to get my sweet sweet SN, but also the fact that aside from that other source from the opposite site of the world, I'm basically out of "nearby" (EU) sources that don't require me to own a company to place an order.
I'm trying to distract myself by drowning what can be described as voices and a nasty headache by listening to a 10 hour long video essay but damn is my heart racing. I am constantly finding myself switching over to the Gmail tab, refreshing to see if they have already responded.
I already know I'm gonna dream up some bullshit tonight that either I get my SN and die my happy ever after or that something goes wrong and I'm blocked out.
Jeez.
I know this is the second venting post I make on basically this topic today, but the doubts I had in the previous one were solved thanks to the kind people in this community (I guess I'm also taking this as a chance to thank them), leaving space only to these last minute doubts that have been flooding my mind.

 

[HumanoidMonster]

UPDATE!
I did it! Not only did I find a source here in Italy, but I also placed the order! It should arrive in 24h/48h, but I won't CTB right away since I need to carefully plan out for the perfect time and for the perfect occasion. My only "fear" now is that my parents might get nosy, but hey at least I may be getting my ticket to the Bus soon enough!
Who knows maybe the knowledge that I have my way out safely stored for when things get too bad might even help me push through for some extra time.

 

[Worndown]

It is common to relax once your method is secured. That stress is removed.
When it arrives, find a good place to store it then see what the new day brings.

 

[HumanoidMonster]

Definitely will! As soon as the order was placed I let out a sigh of relief. As mentioned earlier, only thing keeping me a bit tense is the fact that I don't want my parents to get nosy about the package, therefore I am thinking of how I can convince them. Might tell them it's replacement parts for my Wii Remotes (they're old and a bit broken) and hide it where they would never look. Might bring that up casually at dinner later on today.

 

[Worndown]

Let it go. Bringing it up will focus attention on it.
Better to have a quick reply.

 

[HumanoidMonster]

The problem with that is that I've never ordered anything so I thought they might get a bit suspicious if a package for me came in the mail

 

[Worndown]

Good point. When should it arrive?
You could order something else to be delivered sooner. Maybe a controller part.

 

[HumanoidMonster]

According to the website it should arrive in 24h/48h. I could've been a bit wiser and wait to place the order after my mother went back to work (she has been home for a month due to broken leg), but I guess I can't delay it and will have to just quickly tell her it's a replacement part for the Wiimote. I am planning to first tell my brother, so that he can vouch for me. I would've briefly mentioned it at dinner tonight but I'm not sure if I should now

 

[Worndown]

Less is more.

 

[HumanoidMonster]

Okay now my brother knows about the replacement parts. I told him both Wii Remotes are a bit broken and he "randomly noticed" my laptop being open on an amazon page with the replacement parts. I won't tell my parents about it this dinner and will just mention it briefly when the package arrives. I guess the plan is in motion
Once I receive the package I may just place my Wii Remote on my bedroom desk with some screwdrivers and stuff to make it look like I'm ready to take it apart.