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raison_d'etre

raison_d'etre

a memory
Mar 30, 2021
29
I've thought about leaving for so long, I've been moving around the state with my parents since i was 13, they got divorced when i was 14, my father was abusive and finally got put away.

i had nowhere to go, i started everyone's stereotypical downfall story of drugs etc.

lots happened since the divorce. I've been in a 4 year almost 5 year relationship with someone. clean from everything but alcohol and weed, me and her've had our rough patches, like any relationship. though im fairly confident that she doesnt care how she treats me, i dont really care at this point, im so exhausted, she can do whatever she wants, hurt me as much as she wants, i dont fucking care, whatevers best for her

recently i moved in with my her and her family, things are a bit rough for me, her parents encourage her in almost every bad respect of her life, ends up biting me in the ass when i tell her to ask her parents for advice thinking theyre reasonable people and would understand the semantics of our situations. apparently not, im guessing my gfs friends mom, whos friends with my gfs mom, prolly relayed all the rumors my gfs friend made about me after she tried making that move. its whatever tho, i dont care what they believe, im just tired of it all, i wish people could just try and see from my perspective, maybe they'd understand for at least a second

after my gf just left to head to her friends house, i laid in her bed and cried, im exhausted, i love her, but i dont care. after years of abuse, witnessing death and the unfairness of loss i dont fucking care anymore, they can all go to hell, see you there at midnight bud, im going for a walk
 
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Alwaysbadtime

Alwaysbadtime

Enlightened
Jun 28, 2021
1,158
Do you have a way to do it?

I relate in regards to having a not good relationship. It would be hard to live with parents of gf/bf. Totally.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry you are suffering, living really is painful. It is hard to be in a hopeless situation, I understand. I wish you well.
 
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